my heart hurts so much
like someone stabbed a knife in my chest
i constantly feel like i am gasping for breath
for a reprieve from this anguish
i don't know how much longer i can take it
the pain of missing you
knowing there's nothing i can do
nor should i do anything
except endure the pain
of this harrowing heartbreak
Aug 20, 2021
Aug 20, 2021 at 2:37 AM UTC
i miss you when things get hard
i miss your gentle voice and understanding
i miss your presence, sweet and commanding
i miss how you knew exactly what to say
i miss how you always brightened my day
but I really only miss you when things get hard
your love for me was completely unmarred
and I want to call and say I miss you
but I know it’s not entirely true
i miss the way you supported me
and saw me for all the things I could be
i don’t miss how we were
i miss the way you made me feel secure
- insecurity
Apr 1, 2021
Apr 1, 2021 at 5:44 AM UTC
My heart aches
I never knew one person
could make me feel so much pain
My soul breaks
Our relationship worsens
And both of us are to blame
You are my love
My first time
My good morning kisses
My goodnight hugs
My year long love
My first everything
But what am I to you?
Your first ****
Your burden to bear
Your sigh of relief
When I’m not there
Your fat girlfriend
Your ball and chain
You will always be my first love
Yet I’ll never be good enough
So as much as it pains me to say
We need to break up
Oct 14, 2018
Oct 14, 2018 at 10:08 PM UTC
You roll over
I feel worthless
You abandon me
My heart a mess
Am i not enough to make you stay?
I give my body to you
I give my soul to you
Yet when I ask for something in return
I receive nothing, not a word
You make me feel so stupid and useless
Why do I continue to let you do this?
I love you so much
But you don’t feel the same
I’m simply just a body
Another promiscuous chase
You say you don’t want a quick lay
But when I tell you i love you
You mumble same and turn away
I love you so much
Please love me too
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
-md
Oct 14, 2018
Oct 14, 2018 at 1:54 PM UTC
As the rain pelts my skin
I try to forget about the things you did
As your foreign hands invaded my body
I regret ever going to that party
My friends said that it would be fun
That I had nothing to lose
But everything changed
When I met you
Your eyes glowed so self-assured
Smile perfectly polished
Your intentions at heart seemed pure
But you were there to demolish
How many girls before me
have fallen into this trap?
Or is it me who will be
Alone on this path
Maybe someday you’ll have a daughter of your own
And get the call saying, “Daddy I can’t come home”
Because she is mortified by a choice she didn’t make
But was never educated to know it was called ****
For months I felt broken and battered
I wallowed in self-pity
Thinking I was tattered
When I finally realized
Opening my own eyes
I won’t let what you did
Ruin my dreams so big
I will stand on my own
And finally return home
Because what happened wasn’t my fault
But you have to live everyday knowing that you committed
****** Assault.
-md
Aug 26, 2018
Aug 26, 2018 at 3:39 PM UTC
I just want to feel love
Not from a sister or brother
Nor from a dad or mother
I want to feel soul shattering
Heart wrenching love
People all tell me to stay away
That I'll only feel pain
Yet almost every day
I long to feel this love
I know this is naive
But my untouched heart cries to me
To experience this love
Maybe it's because my heart has never been broken
Happiness ever stolen
Or ever received a token
Of this kind of love
I'll focus on friends for now
But when you come
My Heart will vow
To always be yours
Until it's torn
From the pain of love
-md
Aug 26, 2018
Aug 26, 2018 at 1:31 PM UTC
It’s crazy to realize
No one cares about you
You’re not important
This fact has proven true
You’re not special or different
Friendships formed are simply convenient
They hold no significants or mean anything
Funny. Since we think they mean everything
No one cares about you
Especially your peers
If only you knew
It’d spare you lots of tears
People only care about themselves
as sad as it is to say
You mean nothing.
And neither do they.
-md
Aug 25, 2018
Aug 25, 2018 at 12:12 PM UTC