In her eyes I see stars
I see scares and tears
Locked by angles
And chased by fears
I see seas and I see flowers
They all fade into one empty sky
Full of darkness and Devils
Secretly screaming for release
I look away from the reflection of my eyes
If only it was someone else's eyes
If only I can pretend
If only it was not the eyes of me
I avoid to look into someone else's eyes
For the fear they might see beyond my fake smiles
If only they could see,
Eyes where fullness and emptiness collide
Where innocence and Devils overlap
Where fears and screams connect
Where dreams and love are crushed
Will they care to look again..
I'll hold on to all the innocence I can
I'll hold on to all the hope I have
But I fear the devil lurking inside of me
And I fear that my fears will **** me
Feb 7, 2018
Feb 7, 2018 at 6:16 AM UTC
Close your eyes, I know your hurting
Dream of roses and smiles
Dream of love and happiness
Dream of all you could not have
Dream of all you could not feel
Open your eyes, I know your dying
See reality but don't cry
See reality but don't be afraid
See reality and pretend to be happy
See reality and fake all the smiles
This is what dreams made of me
I'm lost between dreams and reality
I wanna wake up and be okay
Nothing more nothing less ..
Aug 7, 2015
Aug 7, 2015 at 12:43 AM UTC
Don't cry as it all will be forgiven
Rest your beautiful soul as it will all be forgotten
Never let the past break you, but let it teach you
Never let the pain **** you, but let strengthen you
My everything I will protect you so smile as it lightness the darkness all around me
My everything be good to all and never forget to pray as it will always be your shelter
Jul 10, 2015
Jul 10, 2015 at 5:00 AM UTC
Just close your eyes and imagine
Imagine all that was never you
And all that will never be you
Maybe just then you might understand
It's not them it's you ...
Jul 10, 2015
Jul 10, 2015 at 4:57 AM UTC
Into the darkness I crawl
Scared and insecure
Lost in my never ending fears
Staring them down
never to be defeated
Just to rest for a while
It's sanity that chased me away
Not the insanity it holds
Calling the unknown enemy
Into the jungle of my heart
Let it get lost in there
And never be found again
Let it change its shape
and never scare me again
Jun 13, 2015
Jun 13, 2015 at 5:47 PM UTC
I look right through you
And I see no fear
Through your eyes I disappear
And into me you reappear
Close but never so near
Loved but never so dear
The me that is never you
And the you that is never pure
And the me that is never sure
So just who am I and you ?
Jun 12, 2015
Jun 12, 2015 at 8:11 PM UTC
In me there is "her" And she is all I see
She is crying so loud you would think she is burning
She is breaking and yes she is bleeding
Her fears are bigger then her imaginations
In her dreams she is save , in reality she is cursed
A curse that destroyed all she ever was
A never ending cycle of fears
Once it is you and the next it is her
Only this time her fears are unclear
She tried to run away but only to get trapped in me
The me that is so hard to be in
The me that is so hard to understand
Yet she is in me ....
Jun 11, 2015
Jun 11, 2015 at 9:09 PM UTC
I feel so lifeless , I think I'm disappearing
Not in the eyes of people but in mine
Regardless if I'm sleeping or not
I feel so numb , I'm slowly losing my sight
I close my eyes and I realize that I'm falling
Into a sea of sadness where smiles are forbidden
I'm losing my breath , I think I'm drowning
The sea is dark and I'm really scared
I try to open my eyes but I can't
Then these question cross my terrified mind
Am I really deep in the sea ?
Or am I just beneath the surface ?
Am I really in a sea ? Or am I the sea ?
Is the sea dark ? Or am I dark ?
But then again am I imagining ?
I open my eyes again and realize it was a dream
But wait ! Why am I locked in a room ?
And again I wonder
Am I really locked inside ?
Or did I through the key ?
Is it just my wild imagination ?
Or is it just my unsettled fears ?
I'm lost searching for answers
I'm tired from escaping what I don't understand
My mind is temporary stoping
I'm sorry but I can't fight these demons anymore ...
Sep 13, 2014
Sep 13, 2014 at 8:24 PM UTC
I'm everything I hate in this world
But yet it's all I can be
I'm everything I can't control
But yet It's all I know
Beautiful is all I what to be
But yet I'm stuck in me
Happiness is all I want to achieve
But yet blood is all I can see
Fear is the only thing I hate
But yet running is all I do
Forgotten is the one word I can't say
But yet it seems like it's me
Lost is all I hoped I won't be
But yet I'm still screaming
Alive is all I wish I can feel
But yet I can't seem to breath
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 14, 2014 at 10:07 AM UTC
I'm letting go of all I thought I'll love forever
I'm holding on to the things I never knew they excited
I'm calling out the demons that are hiding with in
I'm chasing out all the angles that are near me
I'm killing all the sweetness I longed to have
I'm reaching out to the darkness that lies beneath the eyes
I'm pushing away all the embraces I screamed loud to get
All I have know is this dark poisoning air that's choking every single hope of life in me
I need my angles back , I need all the love back ...
Mar 30, 2014
Mar 30, 2014 at 5:32 PM UTC