it is exactly 2 months and 3 days since you left the world and you would think that in such a small amount of time that the ones that were close to you would remember your scent, the way you dressed and the way you had your hair but they didn't. i could tell you all of the things that i have mentioned one by one.
Your hair, it was blonde and never set right when it was cut, your golden locks which came down past your eyes, well let me tell you something, i thought they were beautiful and as i saw you lying there-lifeless with no movement at all, well a thousand memories came rushing by i remember the time, we lay in bed, not doing much, but as my hand ruffled through those locks, well i knew that you, yes you, were the one for me. i remember our first dance at the summer ball, you held my waist so delicately and i held your neck and as your locks touched my pale hands, well darling it sent shivers down my spine and last but not least, i remember the day you left, i tickled your hair, putting it in place-which may i add was completely pointless because as you stepped out the door, i saw it, i saw the rain come pouring down. i never stopped you to tell you that i loved you and darling theres not a moment in time that i regret that decision.
Your scent, well my dear it was like cigarettes, it didn't appeal to everyone but to me it was the most perfect cologne in the world, many people told me to stay away from you but i craved that smell, it was like it gave me the strength to carry on when the world was in darkness. i remember your scent on that day, the day when i lost the most precious thing in the world-you, it was that same cologne and as i took a breath and the tears fell effortlessly off my face, well i inhaled that smell like it was the last time i would ever smell it. One day i walked past a man in the street, i thought it was you, there it was that cologne and in that moment, i suddenly thought maybe you weren't gone and maybe in a few hours time you would walk through the door like you normally did-but you didn't.
I miss the way you dressed, how you didn't care what you looked like as long as it pleased me and i remember the memories which i will forever keep in my mind, of that saturday night, when i caught you in a non matching tracksuit and darling, you still looked handsome, i wish that i could tell you now, just how beautiful you were because you never believed it and thats why you're gone now.
Sep 26, 2013
Sep 26, 2013 at 12:43 PM UTC
its shiny
its rusty
its the first thing
she grabbed
when she felt pain within
because its better
to match the way she felt
on the inside
to how she looked on the outside
and who could forget
that feeling
of the silver blade
sliding down her arm
and the crimson red blood weeping from her cuts
as she becomes alive again
as the feeling from the blade
sent electricity down her spine.
Sep 8, 2013
Sep 8, 2013 at 1:47 PM UTC
it shows me a girl
a girl i don't recognize
a girl whose never happy with her appearance
a girl who never fully smiles anymore
because of the things it shows her
it shows her, her deepest flaws
it shatters her whole
until all that remains
is a hollow shell
a shell of her former self
because of the things she sees
mirror mirror, on the wall
cant you see
that you're breaking her inside
mirror mirror, on the wall
can't you see shes fading now
mirror mirror, on the wall
how i wish you'd make her laugh
how i wish she'd form a perfect curve
on her face
because she is beautiful
oh mirror mirror, on the wall
she is dead now
because the things she saw
mirror mirror, on the floor
sorry i smashed you into tiny pieces
but thats what you did to me.
Sep 8, 2013
Sep 8, 2013 at 1:19 PM UTC
you broke every bone
inside of me
you crushed me
when you told me
you didn't want us anymore
you sent a million daggers through my heart
and pierced every major vein
but i still want you
i want you so bad.
Sep 8, 2013
Sep 8, 2013 at 1:05 PM UTC
should i tell you
what my love for you means
its like
ice cream
on a hot summers day
welcoming and refreshing
sliding down my throat
cooling me.
Sep 8, 2013
Sep 8, 2013 at 10:53 AM UTC
should i share all the memories i have with you
because that's what they are memories
i remember our springs
spent indoors
while we watched the pouring rain
from our window
i remember our autumns
spent
jumping in the colour changing leaves
i remember our summers
the long kisses while we sailed
far far away from reality
i remember our last winter together
it was cold and bitter
without you
to keep me warm
to protect me the
dark,dark hole in my mind.
Sep 6, 2013
Sep 6, 2013 at 12:01 PM UTC
your soul was like january,cold and bitter
your mind like feburary ,exciting and unpredictable
your finger tips like march , beginning to become warm.
your face like may, forever changing its emotion
your body like june, as hot as the burning sun
Sep 6, 2013
Sep 6, 2013 at 11:57 AM UTC
your face was full of colour and joy
our hands slid together and entwined together
we created miracles
then my hand slipped from yours
and i slipped out of you life
forever
your face
is now like ****** coloured skies
because all the colour had been drained
from your constant battles with me and your mind
Sep 6, 2013
Sep 6, 2013 at 11:51 AM UTC
id like to lay in bed with you
more often
because then
i could be engulfed in your heavenly scent
you see
our bodies fit perfectly together
and i like the way i fit in your messy white sheets
and im hoping, no praying
that you stay with me forever.
Sep 6, 2013
Sep 6, 2013 at 11:46 AM UTC
hey, we said our goodbyes
so why are you still around
you blew me gentle kisses
which i caught with both hands
to make sure it would not slip from underneath
the weight of my hands
i placed it to my heart
hoping it would go
deep down into the centre of my heart
and it would stay there
so that
i would have a tiny piece
of you wherever i went.
Sep 6, 2013
Sep 6, 2013 at 11:43 AM UTC