mellanie-n-covell - Hello Poetry

love heart know want little thoughts fact lust electrifying sorrow think really people wish matter pain place knew affair power leaves new change sound return end continue truth bridge flirty murky clear reason waiting free sad fabrication past afraid small chance different influenced suddenly falling evil stupid feeling nightmares rhythm happy friend pleasure sadness Words are so many, Emotions are few. Even with all of our words, We can not fully express the depth of our emotions. As I cannot express mine now, Nor will I ever be able to. Sadness is the term I believe. Or could it be turmoil? Depression? Confusion? I can't be certain any combination of the words can ever express, The way I feel right now.

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Dec 6, 2012

Dec 6, 2012 at 12:55 PM UTC

Words

love heart know want little thoughts fact lust electrifying sorrow think really people wish matter pain place knew affair power leaves new change sound return end continue truth bridge flirty murky clear reason waiting free sad fabrication past afraid small chance different influenced suddenly falling evil stupid feeling nightmares rhythm happy friend pleasure sadness Words are so many, Emotions are few. Even with all of our words, We can not fully express the depth of our emotions. As I cannot express mine now, Nor will I ever be able to. Sadness is the term I believe. Or could it be turmoil? Depression? Confusion? I can't be certain any combination of the words can ever express, The way I feel right now.

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I can't tell you that I don't love you, I always will. I can't tell you, you don't matter, You are my best friend. I can't tell you I can live without you, Because that would be a lie. If I tell you I love you, It will change everything. When I tell you how much you matter to me, I know you won't believe me. I won't tell you I can't live without you, Even though the world can see it. I will continue to push you away, I will continue to flirt with other boys, I will continue to push you to date other girls, And I will wait for the day when I know I can hold onto you forever. I will wait for the day I know I can always call you mine. Because at this moment in time youth and inexperience is our enemy. And I'm hoping my decision to beat out those obstacles will help in the end.

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May 20, 2012

May 20, 2012 at 10:27 PM UTC

In the end

I can't tell you that I don't love you, I always will. I can't tell you, you don't matter, You are my best friend. I can't tell you I can live without you, Because that would be a lie. If I tell you I love you, It will change everything. When I tell you how much you matter to me, I know you won't believe me. I won't tell you I can't live without you, Even though the world can see it. I will continue to push you away, I will continue to flirt with other boys, I will continue to push you to date other girls, And I will wait for the day when I know I can hold onto you forever. I will wait for the day I know I can always call you mine. Because at this moment in time youth and inexperience is our enemy. And I'm hoping my decision to beat out those obstacles will help in the end.

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Each step I take, Makes me a little bit closer. Each breath I breathe, Makes my sanity return. My every action, Is fueled by the motive. To be as happy, As I once was. I feel as though finally, I'm catching up. The world cannot, Pass me by. I am pounding my feet, Hard on the pavement. Spreading my wings, Ready to take flight. My life is getting, Into the rhythm. A rhythm that once, I knew so well. No more sadness, Depression no pain. And my life is now, Falling into place.

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Mar 14, 2012

Mar 14, 2012 at 9:51 PM UTC

Falling into place

Each step I take, Makes me a little bit closer. Each breath I breathe, Makes my sanity return. My every action, Is fueled by the motive. To be as happy, As I once was. I feel as though finally, I'm catching up. The world cannot, Pass me by. I am pounding my feet, Hard on the pavement. Spreading my wings, Ready to take flight. My life is getting, Into the rhythm. A rhythm that once, I knew so well. No more sadness, Depression no pain. And my life is now, Falling into place.

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I want to be ok, I will be ok, I am ok. I will keep my chin up, I will strap my heels on, I will show my true strength. I have been sad, I have over come sadness, I now have nothing else but contentedness. I, I, I, I, I, I, I, Me, Me, Me, Me, Me, Me, Me. Yes, I did it all without, You, You, You, You, You, You, You.

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Mar 12, 2012

Mar 12, 2012 at 10:47 PM UTC

O.K.

I want to be ok, I will be ok, I am ok. I will keep my chin up, I will strap my heels on, I will show my true strength. I have been sad, I have over come sadness, I now have nothing else but contentedness. I, I, I, I, I, I, I, Me, Me, Me, Me, Me, Me, Me. Yes, I did it all without, You, You, You, You, You, You, You.

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Crashing, thunder booms, Hiding underneath his sheets, the boy sits and hides. A terrible fate, worse than the storm that’s outside, waits for the small child. For monsters they come, in some forms unexpected, Inhabiting Earth. This small little boy, Knows the monsters all too well, they live in his house.

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Feb 27, 2012

Feb 27, 2012 at 8:13 AM UTC

Stormy Nights

Crashing, thunder booms, Hiding underneath his sheets, the boy sits and hides. A terrible fate, worse than the storm that’s outside, waits for the small child. For monsters they come, in some forms unexpected, Inhabiting Earth. This small little boy, Knows the monsters all too well, they live in his house.

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So long ago, We two were together, My heart ripped out by this fellow A twist of cruel fate, Kept us close so close, Yet in a perpetual friend state. So now two years past, The opportunity rises, To kick up the romance at last. A peck on the lips, And my heart starts to flutter, My stomache jumps and flips. Dinner, a movie, a basketball game, Two dates in three short days, Nice, relaxed and tame. I like being with him, And I've always wanted this boy, Since the moment long ago when I met him. But low and behold, A new conflict arises, For two others want my heart to hold. Sorrow, Electrifying.

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Feb 9, 2012

Feb 9, 2012 at 3:54 AM UTC

Lust

So long ago, We two were together, My heart ripped out by this fellow A twist of cruel fate, Kept us close so close, Yet in a perpetual friend state. So now two years past, The opportunity rises, To kick up the romance at last. A peck on the lips, And my heart starts to flutter, My stomache jumps and flips. Dinner, a movie, a basketball game, Two dates in three short days, Nice, relaxed and tame. I like being with him, And I've always wanted this boy, Since the moment long ago when I met him. But low and behold, A new conflict arises, For two others want my heart to hold. Sorrow, Electrifying.

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One lust, One sorrow, One electrifying. Together they make three, All so different, Nothing alike, Yet they all intrigue me. Lust for so long, Forbidden temptation, The thrill of a conquest. Sorrow lingering, Always there in my head, Hindering my progress. Electrifying capturing my thoughts, So flirty so fun, We are one in the same. One plus, plus one, plus one, Is two plus ones too many, But what to do? What choice should I make, Should I, Chose any?

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Feb 5, 2012

Feb 5, 2012 at 10:11 PM UTC

Lust, sorrow, electrifying

One lust, One sorrow, One electrifying. Together they make three, All so different, Nothing alike, Yet they all intrigue me. Lust for so long, Forbidden temptation, The thrill of a conquest. Sorrow lingering, Always there in my head, Hindering my progress. Electrifying capturing my thoughts, So flirty so fun, We are one in the same. One plus, plus one, plus one, Is two plus ones too many, But what to do? What choice should I make, Should I, Chose any?

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What's in a name, What's in a name? Could it be pleasure? Possibly pain. M is for malice, Monster, mouse. The first letter of my name, That's what I think about. A is for the ******* Whom I've never met. The reason for my name, The reason I hate it. Y is all the yelling, I've done inside my brain. Made up confrontations, The things I've planned to say. K is makes the sound Of the things he never was. Kind, caring, compasionate, He doesn't even know I exist I bet. E is everything I wish I knew The tid bits, the facts, the thoughts in his head, Who he really really is, Never asking, I wonder instead. L is for love that I already have, My mommy, my daddy, my brothers, and friends, Have showed me that compassion and love never ends. While my daddy is mine, and always will be, Another I would never ask for, At times I long, and wish to know, The man I am named after. A has two meanings for me, One is filled with bitter disdain Another reminds me, The uniqueness of my name. I love it I hate it, I would never change it. It will be with me, ALWAYS. M-A-Y-K-E-L-A

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Dec 19, 2011

Dec 19, 2011 at 11:05 AM UTC

Names

What's in a name, What's in a name? Could it be pleasure? Possibly pain. M is for malice, Monster, mouse. The first letter of my name, That's what I think about. A is for the ******* Whom I've never met. The reason for my name, The reason I hate it. Y is all the yelling, I've done inside my brain. Made up confrontations, The things I've planned to say. K is makes the sound Of the things he never was. Kind, caring, compasionate, He doesn't even know I exist I bet. E is everything I wish I knew The tid bits, the facts, the thoughts in his head, Who he really really is, Never asking, I wonder instead. L is for love that I already have, My mommy, my daddy, my brothers, and friends, Have showed me that compassion and love never ends. While my daddy is mine, and always will be, Another I would never ask for, At times I long, and wish to know, The man I am named after. A has two meanings for me, One is filled with bitter disdain Another reminds me, The uniqueness of my name. I love it I hate it, I would never change it. It will be with me, ALWAYS. M-A-Y-K-E-L-A

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My thoughts once so crisp and clear, Have begun to jumble and come too near. What once was stored in neat little files, Is now tumbling through space unruly and wild. A crystal blue lake, calm and serine, Polluted, contaminated, no longer clean. The toxicity of your touch, The lust for your poison. Threw my world too much, Like I took a love potion. I love you, with all of my heart, But I love him deep within my soul. Together you two cloud up my mind, Like murky waters below. So here I stand, on this bridge, Staring endlessly down. Here I dream of clear blue water, While stuck inside the mud, This murky ***** water, Makes my heart fall heavy, and thud.

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Dec 7, 2011

Dec 7, 2011 at 10:57 AM UTC

Murky Water

My thoughts once so crisp and clear, Have begun to jumble and come too near. What once was stored in neat little files, Is now tumbling through space unruly and wild. A crystal blue lake, calm and serine, Polluted, contaminated, no longer clean. The toxicity of your touch, The lust for your poison. Threw my world too much, Like I took a love potion. I love you, with all of my heart, But I love him deep within my soul. Together you two cloud up my mind, Like murky waters below. So here I stand, on this bridge, Staring endlessly down. Here I dream of clear blue water, While stuck inside the mud, This murky ***** water, Makes my heart fall heavy, and thud.

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Isn't it odd how the less you want me, the more I want you? Or how the less you're available, the more I want to see you? How the more I think of you, the less I think of him? And yet somehow I still love him so much. I do not want to let him go, but I want you too. Evil me. Synnical me. Stupid, immature, despicable me. I love him with all of my heart, but somehow I still have feelings for you. But you and I have never been together, And at this rate never will be. And this little tid bit of information drives me crazy. I know for a fact you like me. Though I don't say it. You know for a fact I like you, But you hide it. I show to the world I love him, We both know it. So why do we play these flirty little games? Texting all night, walking together in the hallways, Songs on the radio remind me of you, So flirty, so fun, exciting and new. But he is one person I will not betray. I love him so much, even more each day. But for some reason you have the power to thwart our love. Just enough to make me ponder, to puzzle. What is it with you that gives off so much chemistry? Especially when I am in love with another? it scares me. You scare me in fact, no other way to say it. I fear you because I am in fact so drawn to you. Here in lies the danger, Of human nature.

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Oct 26, 2011

Oct 26, 2011 at 10:54 PM UTC

I am afraid..

Isn't it odd how the less you want me, the more I want you? Or how the less you're available, the more I want to see you? How the more I think of you, the less I think of him? And yet somehow I still love him so much. I do not want to let him go, but I want you too. Evil me. Synnical me. Stupid, immature, despicable me. I love him with all of my heart, but somehow I still have feelings for you. But you and I have never been together, And at this rate never will be. And this little tid bit of information drives me crazy. I know for a fact you like me. Though I don't say it. You know for a fact I like you, But you hide it. I show to the world I love him, We both know it. So why do we play these flirty little games? Texting all night, walking together in the hallways, Songs on the radio remind me of you, So flirty, so fun, exciting and new. But he is one person I will not betray. I love him so much, even more each day. But for some reason you have the power to thwart our love. Just enough to make me ponder, to puzzle. What is it with you that gives off so much chemistry? Especially when I am in love with another? it scares me. You scare me in fact, no other way to say it. I fear you because I am in fact so drawn to you. Here in lies the danger, Of human nature.

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