I once quickly met a dead end
I guess I chose the wrong road
No choice but to hitchhike back
With twice as heavy of a load
May 12
May 12, 2026 at 12:45 AM UTC
You brought out the version of me that I never had a chance to display
But then you let your suppressed demons chase all of that innocence away
Then you abruptly left without a word and for no way for me to say
That I will wish on all the stars for you to return home to me someday
May 12
May 12, 2026 at 12:39 AM UTC
On nights like this when I’m feeling empty
I wish I had someone who would “get me”
If shared silence was more than plenty
Then they would get on bent knee
and present their heart consequently
May 12
May 12, 2026 at 12:26 AM UTC
So let me start this off by saying I'm a really private person but at the same time an open book as well. I have lived with depression for decades and am opposed to taking a pill everyday so everyday is an uphill struggle for me. I am also an empath/triple Scorpio and if this means anything to you then you know I am also ruled by emotions. In the past few years I have really tried to strip down to the barest of socialization I can muster. Other people's mental issues around me, affected me on a deeper level than most. I found it harder to recharge. As I am simply trying to manage my own, I have had to declutter my life of other energies that aren't necessarily positive. The more I am alone and have time to reflect on my own emotions, not just others, the more I can focus on myself and my own true feelings. I know that this may come off to some as what is otherwise known as selfishness. I have mental clarity like never before. I am an introvert and the more I explore my own shell the better I feel. Trying to please the people around me has been my number one pursuit of happiness in life. I forgot how to use the word "no." I forgot how to live each day doing what I love to do. I forgot that I had the option to be honest. As a born "giver" I tend to feel used and abused bc I give so much of my time and emotion away willingly. I have had to dial back on this giving instinct and to reserve it for valuable individuals. I gave so much I had nothing left to give myself at the end of the day. I was so worried about others happiness that I was using all of my reserves to tend to their needs. As a self reliant person I don't ask people for help bc I seem to never "need" it bc I can do it on my own. This has become the recipe of my unhappiness. Doing for others constantly who will never return the favor for me bc I will simply never ask them to or put them in those situations. I have cut people out of my life bc they used me dry. I ended up resenting the people I could not say no to. Everyone in my life was a taker and I the giver was left empty. I have self worth but not self esteem. If you are used to turning to me for something, please do not be annoyed that I no longer do it. I am living for myself now and it has taken me this long. Be proud of my progress and find someone else to do your bidding. Let me be who I am and who I was always meant to be. An introverted giver who the world has taken advantage of. Let me heal in my own way. Don't judge a book by its cover because under my exterior is a lot of deep pain.
May 12
May 12, 2026 at 12:21 AM UTC
I'm too proud for ask for help
Instead I shield my fractured self
Trapped inside this broken world
I am just Iike bubble girl
May 12
May 12, 2026 at 12:16 AM UTC
I couldn’t comprehend
I couldn’t let go
I couldn’t understand
But now I know.
....Now I know.
Aug 21, 2024
Aug 21, 2024 at 11:36 PM UTC
All of these times together
If I could just stitch them apart
You would see how forever
Is just measurement of a heart
Jun 15, 2022
Jun 15, 2022 at 6:34 PM UTC
I met the one
But then he ran
So then I sank
While he swam
Jun 5, 2022
Jun 5, 2022 at 9:52 AM UTC
Never been around someone so exciting
Where every moment felt just like lightning
That was also what was just as frightening
That two souls could potentially be uniting
Mar 25, 2022
Mar 25, 2022 at 4:02 PM UTC
I couldn’t feel
I couldn’t tell
What was real
I couldn’t mend
I couldn’t deal
Or bare to face
That I should heal
Mar 23, 2022
Mar 23, 2022 at 10:54 AM UTC