megss - Hello Poetry

I think you’ve left with a part of me. Sometimes I think it’s a hole that will never be filled No matter how tirelessly I try. I wonder if the ache will ever stop. Or maybe just pause. In the dark, I beg it to. There’s a loneliness in me that screams so loudly Deafening to me, but silence to the rest. They continue unaware. I try to fix myself in the worst ways. Maybe it works for a while But then the edges come crashing down And the mess comes. Sometimes I think I’m addicted to the mess.

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Oct 20, 2022

Oct 20, 2022 at 4:48 PM UTC

Addicted to the Mess

I think you’ve left with a part of me. Sometimes I think it’s a hole that will never be filled No matter how tirelessly I try. I wonder if the ache will ever stop. Or maybe just pause. In the dark, I beg it to. There’s a loneliness in me that screams so loudly Deafening to me, but silence to the rest. They continue unaware. I try to fix myself in the worst ways. Maybe it works for a while But then the edges come crashing down And the mess comes. Sometimes I think I’m addicted to the mess.

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I want to walk with my shoulders back. I want to sit up straight. I want to talk when I have something to say. I want to share my opinions. I want to feel angry. I want to scream. I want to shout. You told me I’m not good enough. That I’m not worthy. That it’s okay for me to be treated differently. That my thoughts are wrong. That my feelings are wrong. That I should only speak when spoken to. That my pain wasn’t real. That I was a mistake. **** that. I've had enough.

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Oct 20, 2022

Oct 20, 2022 at 4:46 PM UTC

Enough.

I want to walk with my shoulders back. I want to sit up straight. I want to talk when I have something to say. I want to share my opinions. I want to feel angry. I want to scream. I want to shout. You told me I’m not good enough. That I’m not worthy. That it’s okay for me to be treated differently. That my thoughts are wrong. That my feelings are wrong. That I should only speak when spoken to. That my pain wasn’t real. That I was a mistake. **** that. I've had enough.

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You let me down slowly, Slowly and surely Until I was just as low As I was before Dulling the life you gave Low expectations met What did I expect? You’d think, after this long... You’d think.

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Mar 17, 2018

Mar 17, 2018 at 7:29 AM UTC

Let down

You let me down slowly, Slowly and surely Until I was just as low As I was before Dulling the life you gave Low expectations met What did I expect? You’d think, after this long... You’d think.

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