I almost loved you once.
Either I wasn’t brave enough
or you weren’t worth enough.
Dec 7, 2017
Dec 7, 2017 at 8:38 AM UTC
You just don't know if you are just being critical or judgemental. Careless or stupid. You got excited and bored at the same time. Loving the moments but still want to go home. Laughing and feel condescended at the same time. Feel pity but have no courage to help. You think before you said something but sometimes you just rambling nonstop. You feel motivated as **** and then you wondering if you could just vanished. You pray, pray, and pray but you still feel not content about yourself. God will guide you when you lost. But you are not lost. You are on clear paths. Gun on your sleeve. But you just high. High of hurly burly of life. Cause you unintentionally took the wrong pills and then your life suddenly change.
Apr 8, 2017
Apr 8, 2017 at 9:45 AM UTC
I saw stars, people laughing and pretty books cover. I heard the sound of wave, crashing on each other, the sound of my mother called me over the kitchen and the quite ticking sound of my clock in the middle of the night. I touched hot cup of coffee, I sensed heavy rain until it hurts, I hold some babies hand. I tasted sweetness of cheap ice cream, bitterness of unknown food and confusing flavor of my own chapstick. I breathed nature, smelled strangers perfume and your perfume maybe. What am I waiting for?
Mar 19, 2017
Mar 19, 2017 at 1:08 AM UTC
*Hot air blows on your face
Radio plays on the background
You on your balcony,
Looking at the streets below you
Watching people passing by,
carrying excitement in their steps.
And suddenly you remember
Remember your old friends from your old life
Your old parents in your old house
Your old books in your old bedroom
And your old journal with your old feelings*
Jan 27, 2017
Jan 27, 2017 at 11:18 AM UTC
*I am afraid of your gaze
You afraid of my words
Maybe we are just afraid of each other
or maybe we are just shileding our own hearts*
Jan 26, 2017
Jan 26, 2017 at 12:37 PM UTC
*What is it when you afraid that he’ll change
and you are just tired
because you are still the same person
when you were 10 years old.
What is it when the idea of not seeing each other
for a short times make your chest feels like being stampped
with a very big book.
Is it a love?
when you want nothing to do with him
but his stare makes your whole body trembling.*
Jan 26, 2017
Jan 26, 2017 at 12:25 PM UTC
*your best friend said
that you breakup with your girlfriend
He said that she already dating someone else
I dont know what to say
but it was such a relief to hear that
But the way your best friend talked
that you cried over the break up
is really making my heart shattered.
I dont know that human capable of feeling this,
when you finally can breath
but all you have to breath is toxic
relieving and painful at the same time*
Feb 23, 2016
Feb 23, 2016 at 10:06 AM UTC
Bagaimana jika sungai sudah tidak membutuhkan laut untuk
mengeluh,
memilih tempatnya sendiri untuk berteduh
atau merakit ulang dari titik hulu
Mereka akan ada di tempat yang sama
Atau akan sama rata?
Menyembah asa
dan tersenyum lara
23.02.16
Feb 23, 2016
Feb 23, 2016 at 9:44 AM UTC
I noticed you at first day
But you didn't
First time we talked,
you thought that I was funny
We talked a lot from that day
And you recognized me as your friend
It was really a move,
because I started to liking you
You looked at me in the eyes,
with those brown iris.
You were sad that day,
and you said
that I am your best friend
Your sad eyes blinded me
I was drowning,
but you were too sad to see
Morning came
I realized your words
"best friend"
It was a sign
that I should stop my fight
When our knees touched
I didn't even know
to move my body or not.
Intoxicating,
and terrifying at the same time
It was December
We were close than ever
You wished me happy birthday
And I almost said
"I love you too"
I knew it from the start
this whole thing could really pained me
"you can't be friend with someone you love"
But still,
dumb girl, do the dumb things
May 29, 2015
May 29, 2015 at 4:48 AM UTC
they yelled at each other
wondered if I came from a can of coke
instead of a soft part inside her
he talked like a mad man
no, he was a mad man
I remember
still clear
tired eyes
gloomy breakfast
deathly stare
now
i luckily forget the pain
and unluckily,
cant feel anything
May 25, 2015
May 25, 2015 at 1:08 PM UTC