I ruined my life with a simple act
Now I will make the simple pact
I promise to listen
I swear I won't do
I did it again
I swear Im trough
I open the portal
I'm into the world
The regret seeps in
I'm all alone
The urge kicks in
Cant look at my phone
I stare at a screen
Typing away
This is my life
Im just rotting away
I can't stop the urge
Cant stop the feeling
I want to wake up
Can I be dreaming?
May 20
May 20, 2026 at 12:57 AM UTC
I have the feeling on the edge of my bones,
Soaking through my old, worn-out clothes.
The feeling blooms deep inside me;
With its song, it does remind me.
Remind me of a time where I felt safe—
Safe enough to laugh, safe enough to chase.
Chase the feeling I get in the rain,
Chase the thoughts, chase the pain.
Smile each day without distraction,
Deep breaths repeating, the feeling fleeting.
I want to scream, I want to cry,
So I will sleep another night.
Lay my head down, deep breaths continue;
No one knows just what I’ve been through.
May 2
May 2, 2026 at 12:29 AM UTC
A silly song
A tasty treat
Stuff my face
All I can eat
A boring show
black and white
I think I might
Just go goodnight
A crazy person
On the street
Screaming loudly
"Time to sleep!"
A scary thought
Hurting badly
Shut the door
Go out sadly
No ones here
Its all dark
Heaven is near
I miss your heart
May 2
May 2, 2026 at 12:20 AM UTC
When asked if normal would return, you said yes
You lied
I asked if it would return with you coming home, you said yes
You lied
I asked you if normal would return soon, yes was your answer
Your a liar
May 1
May 1, 2026 at 12:06 AM UTC
Count the steps so I don't miss one in the dark
Use the railing without thinking
Run up too fast and lose my breath
I don't run on my hands and knees up the stairs anymore
Tuck the sheets in just right
Flip the pillow to the cold side
I still sleep with my teddies
No one says my goodnight prayers with me now.
Open the fridge twice just in case
Pantry has chocolate chips, take a handful
Put my peanut butter on my bread messy as ever
No one wants to eat together anymore.
Sit in my seat, forgot to buckle up
Watch the eyes of the driver through the rear view mirror.
Sing my heart out to the music
I don't play eye spy for hours.
May 1
May 1, 2026 at 12:00 AM UTC
That is my name
A piece of me
It tells more then can be said with words
For some of it I find absurd
It touches the depth of my soul when said
I turn my head quickly maybe with dread
My name is called when sad
My name is called when happy
My name is mine a thing for me
My name, my life so blissfully
I love how I sound to strangers here
I love how I feel when someone cheers
My name is precious, dear to me
My name holds memories as big as the sea
My name feels like a curse no more
but now more like a piece of me, my core.
Apr 27
Apr 27, 2026 at 12:27 AM UTC
I see their faces as they make me choose
Put me between them what have I got to lose?
They yell at me with their eyes
"pity me pity me"
I cant handle it any longer
Their expressions twist my sensitive heart
They curse my name with words that don't mention me
They hurt me before I get the chance to speak.
I look them in the eye and think the things I want to say
If I said it out loud I would be ruined, perfectly destroyed
I love them so much, but why do I have to choose
Don't they notice I actually have a lot to lose?
Apr 27
Apr 27, 2026 at 12:07 AM UTC
I give my characters the same backstory as me
I give them my faults and flaws
And then make them accepted
I give them what I don't have
I gave them love and peace where it dosent exist for me
I give my characters a life like mine
The difference is in their life they are forgiven
My characters are cruel
They hurt and scream
They agree to things they don't understand
They are trusted and loved
My characters are cruel then kind
Just like me
They are chosen and kissed
I am left to rot
My characters have futures that are bright
My characters are healed
I am not
I am not
I am not
I never will be.
Apr 9
Apr 9, 2026 at 4:27 PM UTC
I want to watch the GPS
My Dad in the drivers seat
I'll remind him when to turn
My sister takes her shoes off her feet
I want to drive with my family
hours on the road
We'll stop in a random town,
get some food, then go.
Apr 7
Apr 7, 2026 at 12:03 AM UTC
Dear rain:
I wish you came by more often then you do
When you're gone it’s quiet–
Not peaceful quiet, wrong quiet
I miss you
the way you knock against my window
the way we dance together
I even miss the way you destroy everything,
once I let you in
I miss you, rain
I miss your peaceful song
I want you back rain
I want the smell you leave after you're gone
I want the breeze to push you towards me again
I want you.
Come back to me rain
It's been too long since I've known you.
Love
the girl who doesn't know how to calm down without you
Mar 26
Mar 26, 2026 at 1:18 PM UTC