For Ages I called myself Human...
With her I felt my Humanity...
For Years I thought I'm complete...
Because of Her She let me sense my Soul...
I Love her...Maybe...
I Care for her...Maybe...
I Protect her...Maby...
What I'm sure of...
Is that....
She is the Connection between the World and Me...
She is the Hope I hold within my Spirit...
She is the Light I walk in the darkest moments...
She is the Air I breathe when I ran out of any....
She the Faith I keep when I lose my battle...
I realized I love her with my stupid style...
I realized My Silent Love wants to cry with a Tiny Tear in Tired Eyes...
Keep shining My Love...
You are the Gift of God....
You are the Angel on my world...
Thank you for every touch healed the pain and soothed the tiredness...
Thanks for the laughters that you bursted out of the deepest chest...
You unlocked my truth...
Thank you my Angel...
Aug 1, 2024
Aug 1, 2024 at 5:54 AM UTC
I’m Failure!
She said that with a shining crystal tear in her eyes…
She broke my silence!
Shrinking in her bed, hiding her face, with a tear which killed my strength and toughness… I felt naked.. felt I have no power to make her safe!
Like a little child, eager to have that warm hug, that safe hug, that secure corner… and She broke my boundaries with world I don’t belong to….
Did she saw me how I see and feel her!
Did she felt how she had my back safe and my feelings secured!
Did she realized how stabilized our time and life together!
You didn’t fail me!
You didn’t hurt me!
You didn’t make me feel tired!
On the Opposite….
You did let me feel my humanity…my worthness…my existance…my signature…myself!
And after all that you are saying “I’m A Failure”
You can feel Sad..You can feel Pain…You can feel Disappointed …. You have the right to be Human! And we will still experience Sad, Pain, Disappointment beside other things however we didn’t Quit… we didn’t Surrender… we still in the Arena that we created and will create and that we will keep creating together and with each other.
Be who you are and don’t be a shame of showing your uniqueness… your worthiness…showing how treasure you are for me…
With love..with admiration..with humble I tell you…you are Enough!
Feb 22, 2020
Feb 22, 2020 at 11:15 PM UTC
They told me to Let it go... And...
I Found that I have nothing there to let go...
Still searching for that song that to be sang!
Still looking for that life to be lived!
Still aiming to reach the beat that shows I'm alive!
I'm wondering If.... there are answers to those questions;
Are dues still not yet paid?
Are sins not yet repented?
Are wounds not yet healed?
Am I still having a human's heart?
Am I still holding that soul which will guide me?
Am I still pure?
Oct 23, 2019
Oct 23, 2019 at 12:03 AM UTC
I question in pain the blood running in those veins!
Questioning those purposes i found created and realized in my journey!
questioning with bitterness..with being lost in my space, my soul, mind mind...suck inside me!
**** towards a black whole!
knowing nothing if i'll be getting out of it or not!
knowing nothing except i saw the lonely air, lonely feelings, lonely self!
I questioned finally if i have Human Blood!
May 5, 2019
May 5, 2019 at 3:16 AM UTC
Words failed to present my story!
Stories couldn't define Who A I!
Expressions misled eyes!
Then Silence Appears to....
Bring light to words
Bring meaning to chaos
Give power to voice
Where silence becomes your Story!
Mar 11, 2019
Mar 11, 2019 at 10:15 AM UTC
I want to end the story of that guy who is good…who is nice..who is helpful!
I wan to stop the scene of that person who is with that cool smile..
I wan to start a new story!
…… No More of those facades!
A story of a new version…
A story of upgraded version…
And not…
A version of a perfect one!
I am not seeking perfectionism…
I’m seeking my true self…
I’m seeking Me!
10-10-2018
Feb 22, 2019
Feb 22, 2019 at 9:15 AM UTC
In process of knowing who I am!
In process of recalling my memories!
I found an empty space!
A space I can’t remember!
A space I struggle to belong to!
A space I questioned my belongings in this world!
A space I realized I’m forgotten!
14-10-2018
Feb 22, 2019
Feb 22, 2019 at 9:13 AM UTC
I found those papers in my drawers!
Knowing my own words, would make it easy to feel their belonging to me!
Tried to paint the landscape I dreamt of…
Tried to place my hope of joy and peace in its corner…
I can’t find my true color…
I can’t find the details that speaks me…
I realized I have a picture of my world painted by others colors…
I realized I don’t own that painting
23-10-2018
Feb 22, 2019
Feb 22, 2019 at 9:10 AM UTC
I saw it in me! I saw it in my silence! I saw it in my dream!
I saw every minute telling me to leave!
I have to leave! But where to? That I didn’t know!
Just walk away…walk and other things will fall into its places! Don’t be afraid!
Don’t be scared!
Don’t be skeptical!
Don’t wait for that thing to happen!
Don’t wait for that change, that you are longing for!
Don’t wait to be a stranger again!
It is just a label! You are a stranger even in your enoughness…
In your fullness…
In your wholebeing…
Just take that Leave…and be …
The Leave!
Feb 22, 2019
Feb 22, 2019 at 9:08 AM UTC
Grateful!
I’m grateful to those who are not grateful to me…
I’m grateful to my insanity for keeping me sane…
I’m grateful to my dark side of me, for letting me know where I can find the light…
I’m grateful to those silent, painful moment for letting me find the hope in those strange moments…
I’m grateful to undisclosed craziness in finding balance in unknown moments…
Feb 22, 2019
Feb 22, 2019 at 9:06 AM UTC