i'm a good actress
i act all the time
you ask me what's wrong
and i say i'm fine
at times it is hard
but you have to play your role
no one likes a girl with a heart broken soul
if you see me, i'm smiling
can you tell that it's fake?
can you tell that i'm drowning
and i constantly ache?
i'm a good actress
i know this is true
but can you really not see
that i am all blue?
does anyone notice?
does anyone care?
would it even be different
if i were not there?
i'm a good actress
but if you'd open your eyes
you'd see that i'm broken
and start to realize
i don't want to be here
i just want to die
but now all i can say is
i love you, goodbye
11- 3- 17
m.j.m
Nov 3, 2017
Nov 3, 2017 at 3:17 PM UTC
You said you wouldn't leave,
But where are you now?
If this was all for play,
Then please take your bow.
I just don't understand,
What were your intentions?
Planning to break my heart and leave
Was something you forgot to mention.
I know it sounds confusing,
But I will never be able to hate you.
Yeah, Im sure you find this amusing,
But I love you and I miss you..
Oct 8, 2017
Oct 8, 2017 at 9:13 PM UTC
eleven years down the drain,
no wonder i am in so much pain.
i move around and i know its hard,
but how come you never even sent me a card?
you say its my fault our friendship came to an end,
i move around too much how could we be friends?
now its clear i cared more,
i guess you left because you got bored.
what you don't understand is its hard on me too,
at least you get to keep the people you're close to.
it started with us never talking,
why wouldn't you answer?
you found a new bestfriend,
so i didn't matter.
she wore the shirt we had made with the pinky promise.
you deleted every picture with me in it,
you erased our friendship before it even ended.
were you trying to leave no trace of me?
because you succeeded.
i finally got blocked on every app that you had,
please tell me what did i do to be treated so bad?
you were supposed to grow old with me,
be my maid of honor.
now that i've lost you,
i've lost me too.
we grew up together,
there was never a me without you.
so when i lost you..
i lost me too.
who am i now?
who will i be?
i never thought you were capable of ending me..
Oct 8, 2017
Oct 8, 2017 at 8:13 PM UTC