max-is-dumb99 - Hello Poetry

Not a poem. Just wanted to say I am alive I just forgot my password for so long lol. Will be writing more soon!

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Sep 28, 2023

Sep 28, 2023 at 1:18 AM UTC

Not a poem. Just wanted to say I am alive I just forgot my password for so long lol. Will be writing more soon!

[Reupload] When you looked into my eyes and said you'd never let me go. Did you intend to throw it away? You stripped me of my trust. The lines of code in front of my eyes keeps me from telling you of my hurt. Its like a barrier freezing my body. You took away my innocence. I want to break free of this mess but you keep holding me back. You keep me from leaving your clutches. I need to escape this before its too late. You control my life as if I'm just a puppet on strings. "I'm not a toy to play with", I say But youre too busy to hear.

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Aug 21, 2019

Aug 21, 2019 at 11:48 PM UTC

Lines of Coding

[Reupload] When you looked into my eyes and said you'd never let me go. Did you intend to throw it away? You stripped me of my trust. The lines of code in front of my eyes keeps me from telling you of my hurt. Its like a barrier freezing my body. You took away my innocence. I want to break free of this mess but you keep holding me back. You keep me from leaving your clutches. I need to escape this before its too late. You control my life as if I'm just a puppet on strings. "I'm not a toy to play with", I say But youre too busy to hear.

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The last time i saw you was February sometime I dont remember what i said But i know i was bored enough to leave early I regret everything in my past. I wish i spent more time with you When i had the chance Now you were taken away By the hands of death themself And ill have to deal with the guilt Instead of spending time with you I chose to watch tv and pretend it was okay I loved you so much. I never showed it because i was stupid. I know that now. I wish i spent more time with you. Now she spends her days sitting alone Wishing you were by her side But you were taken away. She prays to have you back To hug you one last time But no one is listening I blame myself for her pain for it was my fault I didnt do anything, and thats why its my fault I couldve done more I couldve came over more often. I couldve talked with you over the phone You raised me for half my childhood I wish i spent more time with you For ill never see you again. Youre gone for sure now. Seeing you in the bed made me cry I shouldnt hugged you everytime But i avoided it because i was stupid Now ill never hug you again. My mom cries for your death at night. My dad says youre with the angels. I cry every night over you. I cry for your life being taken away too early Grandmother cries for you but doesnt let it show. Last time she talked to me She reminded me of the past And she cried and hugged me tighter. Sometimes i feel your presence. I try to hold on to that But soon the guilt overtakes I miss you so much. Im sorry i didnt try harder Its all my fault. I wish you hadnt passed away, grandfather. ~Max

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Jun 23, 2019

Jun 23, 2019 at 5:25 PM UTC

Death

The last time i saw you was February sometime I dont remember what i said But i know i was bored enough to leave early I regret everything in my past. I wish i spent more time with you When i had the chance Now you were taken away By the hands of death themself And ill have to deal with the guilt Instead of spending time with you I chose to watch tv and pretend it was okay I loved you so much. I never showed it because i was stupid. I know that now. I wish i spent more time with you. Now she spends her days sitting alone Wishing you were by her side But you were taken away. She prays to have you back To hug you one last time But no one is listening I blame myself for her pain for it was my fault I didnt do anything, and thats why its my fault I couldve done more I couldve came over more often. I couldve talked with you over the phone You raised me for half my childhood I wish i spent more time with you For ill never see you again. Youre gone for sure now. Seeing you in the bed made me cry I shouldnt hugged you everytime But i avoided it because i was stupid Now ill never hug you again. My mom cries for your death at night. My dad says youre with the angels. I cry every night over you. I cry for your life being taken away too early Grandmother cries for you but doesnt let it show. Last time she talked to me She reminded me of the past And she cried and hugged me tighter. Sometimes i feel your presence. I try to hold on to that But soon the guilt overtakes I miss you so much. Im sorry i didnt try harder Its all my fault. I wish you hadnt passed away, grandfather. ~Max

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School ended last week My days have turned bleak. You said you'd stay in touch But you havent texted much.

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Jun 23, 2019

Jun 23, 2019 at 5:08 PM UTC

Where have you gone?

School ended last week My days have turned bleak. You said you'd stay in touch But you havent texted much.

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We met over video chat. I thought you were pretty neat. But then you stole my heart And now it doesnt beat. How dare you, with those ocean eyes Hold my hand and take away my light You made me feel so special And now its always night. I guess I'll be alone for ever. Its what was destined. You thought you were clever I feel shunned.

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May 15, 2019

May 15, 2019 at 8:04 PM UTC

Alone

We met over video chat. I thought you were pretty neat. But then you stole my heart And now it doesnt beat. How dare you, with those ocean eyes Hold my hand and take away my light You made me feel so special And now its always night. I guess I'll be alone for ever. Its what was destined. You thought you were clever I feel shunned.

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We have to write a sonnet for English My brain is empty because I am tired My ideas are starting to vanish If I had a job I would be fired. I will try to make this poem neater For I usually love poetry Although my grades are starting to teeter I will have to do better to be free I understand that this will be graded Even though i will be really sleepy I guess, maybe, I should not have waited Because of that i am really weepy. But i guess today i will try my best Because at least it isnt a hard test

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May 8, 2019

May 8, 2019 at 11:18 AM UTC

This is Sonnet

We have to write a sonnet for English My brain is empty because I am tired My ideas are starting to vanish If I had a job I would be fired. I will try to make this poem neater For I usually love poetry Although my grades are starting to teeter I will have to do better to be free I understand that this will be graded Even though i will be really sleepy I guess, maybe, I should not have waited Because of that i am really weepy. But i guess today i will try my best Because at least it isnt a hard test

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The bottle has a lot of words Like a flock of flightless birds. It tells me not to exceed two Just like my friends telling me not to exceed heartbreaks from you. You tell me to take eleven So that I wont go to heaven. But I ended up taking thirteen So that my vision turned green. I started getting dizzy And the world was going fizzy. Which way was up, and which way was down? My vision started turning brown. My stomach started to ache My mind started to break. The tears kept falling And i kept bawling. The ground was so cold as I laid there waiting for oblivion I felt like I was done. I couldn't handle the colours no more so I shut the door. I laid on my bed looking at the clock And glanced at the door lock. I shut my eyes calmly As my arms rested near me. The clock struck one And I was done.

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Mar 22, 2019

Mar 22, 2019 at 10:18 PM UTC

Do not exceed..

The bottle has a lot of words Like a flock of flightless birds. It tells me not to exceed two Just like my friends telling me not to exceed heartbreaks from you. You tell me to take eleven So that I wont go to heaven. But I ended up taking thirteen So that my vision turned green. I started getting dizzy And the world was going fizzy. Which way was up, and which way was down? My vision started turning brown. My stomach started to ache My mind started to break. The tears kept falling And i kept bawling. The ground was so cold as I laid there waiting for oblivion I felt like I was done. I couldn't handle the colours no more so I shut the door. I laid on my bed looking at the clock And glanced at the door lock. I shut my eyes calmly As my arms rested near me. The clock struck one And I was done.

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In my past life I was a Slow Loris. The voice is like a chorus. The slow loris is nocturnal like mice. I dont sleep at night so I can study, which is nice. Slow Lorises are also slow walkers Like me, they aren't slow talkers. We have a lot in common, Which isnt forgotten. I was a Slow Loris in my past life.

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Feb 15, 2019

Feb 15, 2019 at 4:44 PM UTC

Slow Loris

In my past life I was a Slow Loris. The voice is like a chorus. The slow loris is nocturnal like mice. I dont sleep at night so I can study, which is nice. Slow Lorises are also slow walkers Like me, they aren't slow talkers. We have a lot in common, Which isnt forgotten. I was a Slow Loris in my past life.

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Dysphoria is like a flood, Sometimes it makes you shed blood. It hits you suddenly like a wave, Sometimes, it puts you in a grave..

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Nov 19, 2018

Nov 19, 2018 at 11:46 PM UTC

Dysphoria #2

Dysphoria is like a flood, Sometimes it makes you shed blood. It hits you suddenly like a wave, Sometimes, it puts you in a grave..

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When I look in the mirror, What do I see? I see a 'girl' i see everything I'm not. Wearing dresses to concerts And makeup to parties Why can't I wear a suit? Being eloquent and fancy "Dont mess up your hair!" Why can't my hair be shorter? Nails manicured to perfection Painted a hot pink Why can't they be painted blue..? Its like tar Sinking into my stomach I can feel it weighing me down I cant speak, I can't tell. I can't get help for no one knows How do I get rid of it..? I grip my hair with both hands and pull I can f e e l it tearing I can f e e l my head bleeding But i dont care because at least my hair is shorter, and at least some pressure is gone. I paint with the silver and watch as my canvas turns red. I make sure it goes across the stream and not with the flow.. I make sure to clear up afterwards. "Why cant you be normal?" "What's with the weird attitude" "Its just a p h a s e" I run home crying after school. Its only 3pm My parents get home at 5 pm I go to the bathroom and grab my mom's medications. I grab the silver, sharp-edged paintbrush. I grab my journel and start to tell my story.. By the time my parents got home.. Their son was too far gone.

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Nov 19, 2018

Nov 19, 2018 at 5:51 PM UTC

Dysphoria

When I look in the mirror, What do I see? I see a 'girl' i see everything I'm not. Wearing dresses to concerts And makeup to parties Why can't I wear a suit? Being eloquent and fancy "Dont mess up your hair!" Why can't my hair be shorter? Nails manicured to perfection Painted a hot pink Why can't they be painted blue..? Its like tar Sinking into my stomach I can feel it weighing me down I cant speak, I can't tell. I can't get help for no one knows How do I get rid of it..? I grip my hair with both hands and pull I can f e e l it tearing I can f e e l my head bleeding But i dont care because at least my hair is shorter, and at least some pressure is gone. I paint with the silver and watch as my canvas turns red. I make sure it goes across the stream and not with the flow.. I make sure to clear up afterwards. "Why cant you be normal?" "What's with the weird attitude" "Its just a p h a s e" I run home crying after school. Its only 3pm My parents get home at 5 pm I go to the bathroom and grab my mom's medications. I grab the silver, sharp-edged paintbrush. I grab my journel and start to tell my story.. By the time my parents got home.. Their son was too far gone.

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