"buy him a dog, shut him up"
Will a Malamute make Matty mute?
**** no
he'll write a tell-all with Brad Renfro
burn bridges and **** kin-folk
say, **** all y'all, then"
spread violence with silence
breathing through eyelids
going off on tirades inside his head
he's a little out there
but don't despair
he wears clean underwear
opens doors for strangers
dismisses all dangers
talks **** to gang bangers
so, **** You and your 84 IQ
and know this much is true:
you don't have a clue 'bout the distance 'tween he and you
buy him a dog
shut him up
Sep 27, 2016
Sep 27, 2016 at 11:33 AM UTC
know this:
you are special
you are different
you are unique
you are that sparkle in my eye
sometimes, the sparkle is a tear or two
almost always from a happy place
a place, full of pride
I've never had much pride in anything
but I found pride in you
I felt something when we first met
but then I got to know you
and I was impressed
in awe
inspired
and amazed
by a six year old girl ?
that's just not possible
is it?
I wouldn't have believed it either
and it is probably very rare
but like I said
you are special
you are different
you are unique
you are that sparkle in my eye,
occasionally, that sparkle is a tear or two
sometimes, from a sad place
those tears used to return to that sad place
a feedback loop
exponentially increasing sadness
until I realized your true character
and how it rendered the tears unnecessary
nothing will ever bring you down
whenever I feel sad, I think of you
how strong you are
and the sadness fades
you are special
you are different
you are unique
you are that sparkle in my eye
the sparkle that says I'm alive
and the reason I am alive
I've been meaning to thank you
but just don't know how
consider this a stab at doing so
here are the facts you need to know:
I barely get to see you anymore
I miss you more than you know
I have plans to fix that
sometimes I'm afraid that you've grown up
and no longer care to see me
unlike boys, all little girls mature [giggle, here]
and all little girls change
that change is not always good
children have special qualities
they almost always fade with age
but I have learned never to doubt you
you will hold onto the good qualities
of which you have too many to count
many are found in your heart
love, compassion, empathy
some are a bit mysterious
they must come from the gut
I would say ***** but, well, you know
you fearless courage of lion
hints towards confidence
and strong belief in self
having that makes nothing impossible
then there's your anxiety inducing quality
I think it's called bravery
but it scares the **** out of those who love you
do not worry about scaring people with your bravery
it is a part of who you are
a part of what makes me say
you are special
you are different
you are unique
you are that sparkle in my eye
and I need you to know that
Sep 27, 2016
Sep 27, 2016 at 11:29 AM UTC
If one day I disappear
leaving no trace
seemingly vanishing into thin air
know that I had good reason to
know that I found a good fight
good enough leave all else behind
never to return
know that I had you in mind
know that I'll be just fine
It was time
time to do something
time to shape change
time to leave a mark
Smile at Sun up
Smile at Sun down
never cry in between
not for me
not now
not then
promise me that
Sep 27, 2016
Sep 27, 2016 at 11:25 AM UTC
There's nothing good about that look
I see it in your eyes and bite my lip
make that little sound my grandfather used to make
Two little pulls of air between front teeth and tongue
As if to say, "too bad" or "awe shucks"
That's the best I can do
It's regrettable but oh so forgivable
There's nothing more to give you
There's no more that anyone can
A fact I know because I know the look so well
A look I never knew until I saw it leaving me
Now I see it everywhere I look
and I remember the feeling
I think I always had it and thought I was alone
Without it I appear alone and feel alone,
yet know different
We are an odd bunch
all of us
So many stuck in the corners
UnAware of the stage
UnAware of the show
just a turn away
a party we are a part of
All of us
A strange group, indeed
I wish you could see us
But I know that look and you are not alone
I wish I could tell you
Maybe you already know
How would I know
You could never tell and I'd never believe
A strange group we are
All of us
Sep 27, 2016
Sep 27, 2016 at 11:21 AM UTC
Sad Jesus
I saw Jesus just the other day
He was wearin' a sad, sad face
Tears were streamin' down his cheeks
And he was grinding his teeth
I said "what's wrong?"
But he didn't respond
I said "cheer up"
"Don't you ever give up"
We watched the sun go down
He reached out to hold my hand
I reached out both arms wide
Hugged him and pulled him close
I said "what's wrong?"
But he didn't respond
I said "cheer up"
"Don't you ever give up"
He saw more than one sun setting
Each star going down somewhere
Weight of the universe on his shoulders
Each star a forgotten dream
I said "what's wrong?"
But he didn't respond
I said "cheer up"
"Don't you ever give up"
He couldn't find a rhyme or reason
That he should listen to me
Tears streamed down his cheeks
As the day turned dark
I said "what's wrong?"
But he didn't respond
I said "cheer up"
"Don't you ever give up"
Sep 27, 2016
Sep 27, 2016 at 11:16 AM UTC
she is a beautiful being
inside
outside
each and every corner
she picks her nose
wears frumpy clothes
i love her
love is a gift
tears turn corners
bending in the light
sliding inside silent nights
so sorry for such less than love
leaving lingers, love life
lick lips, smile
give more
send more
believe more
be
she is a beautiful being
inside
outside
each and every corner
i love her
Feb 23, 2016
Feb 23, 2016 at 12:31 AM UTC
people tell themselves lies
the past was better
it could have been
it should have been
something good and clean is coming
just beyond the next door
or wreckage is sure to be found
dwelling on ***** footprints left on clean floors
or ruminating on memories of accomplishment
all prove pointless
closed eyes draw up decor plans of imaginary next moves
a chess game never played
bringing blame and hate
to every stage, and every game
appreciate the room that needs work
floors to be mopped
shelves to be dusted
windows to be cleaned
that brings hope
books sitting in shadows should be given light
I may not leave it all behind in a search for nothing
but I hope to leave enough
enough to l know I've passed
enough to know I was there
to know I cared
a little anyway
enough to search for more
beyond open doors
past nonchalant glances
and end-zone dances
towards high-fisted rewards
and self assured back pats
just for now
I want nothing
just for now
I have everything
just for now
Jan 5, 2016
Jan 5, 2016 at 12:06 PM UTC
if you look hard enough
for long enough
for something
one day
you just might find
nothing at all
and it will be everything you ever wanted
all that you need
a good find
a great day
so, stop looking
you look like an idiot
Dec 19, 2015
Dec 19, 2015 at 3:31 PM UTC
Jesus: My Friend
I once shared a room for a week with Jesus
He smoked Marlboros and enjoyed beef jerky
People called him Zach
But he was Jesus to me
He heard voices and paced the rug all day
He was hard on the rug
He was hard on me
When we smoked he would pace...
back and forth in the snow making a path,
telling me that he was jesus
and that I had an evil laugh
He once told a girl to stop farting in his pacing space
I thought that was the funniest thing I ever heard
There were times that Jesus made me nervous
He would get an evil look on his face
and then he would smile
and tell me the world was going to end
He talked alot about the world ending
and what needed to be saved
I was on top of that list
I told him I didn't need to be saved
and that I didn't believe in God
It hurt him to know I didn't believe in his father
He was an interesting character
He had a drug problem and was schizophrenic
I have a drug and alcohol problem and I'm crazy
Together, we could save the world
He was a conservative and I, a liberal
Our politics clashed
but we didn't clash
Jesus and i got along just fine
I would tell him he was a fool
for blaming the worlds ills on liberals
He would smile and tell me I was the devil
Together we would laugh
We disagreed on most everything
We disagreed with smiles
One day I left in an ambulance
Jesus paced in his usual spot in the day room
I could see him smiling
As if to say "I told you so"
As if to say "Everything will be okay"
After a few days I was released from the hospital
I often spent time wandering the streets
One day I met a man out for a stroll with a cigarette
It was Jesus
He looked so glad to see me
He said hello and called me Mike
I said Hi and called him Zach
We must have been using code names
His secret was not yet known
As I passed him we both turned around and smiled
We both knew things had changed
We knew we had to go our separate ways
We did, but halfway down the block I turned
to catch one more look at the son of God
I still think of Jesus on a regular basis
I should have had more time for him
But I have a feeling he's doing just fine
And I smile when I think about Jesus,
somewhere out there saving the world
Jun 11, 2014
Jun 11, 2014 at 11:44 PM UTC
I walked for hours and couldn't believe my eyes
the sun should not be there
but it was
just beneath the lowest bow of the oak
just above the shrubline
waiting to set
I sat on the bench
lit a cigarette
had a drink of water
i called my mother
asked her if she was watching the sun
she said that she saw it
i told her to smile
and i smiled
everything was going to be okay
I just wanted my mom to know
that her sun would always be there
May 14, 2014
May 14, 2014 at 12:10 PM UTC