I thought leaving I would finally be happy
Free of responsibilities
yet
I still feel trapped
Mar 6, 2022
Mar 6, 2022 at 11:00 PM UTC
there's this feeling in my stomach
not like the sickness you feel when you have a stomach ache
or the butterflies of nervousness
maybe this isn't in my stomach at all
it's like a bunch of deer running in a field
but not gracefully
they're running from prey
it feels as if my chest tightens as my stomach sinks
it's a mixture of anxiousness and worry
May 24, 2021
May 24, 2021 at 12:18 AM UTC
Slowly I fall closer into that hole
I've lost grip of that branch, which was keeping me above it all.
My fingers digging into the dirt as every day goes by
more tear drops begin to fall
more thoughts fill my head
and more pain fills my heart as my body sinks into the hole.
Jan 20, 2021
Jan 20, 2021 at 11:11 PM UTC
some days the therapist may ask,
"how are you doing?"
some days they may mention
"you look well rested,"
or bring up,
"you seem to be doing better than before."
But they don't realize that all these things are lies
that when I get home i'll break down into tears
wishing i'd die already and then pass out.
Is that what getting better looks like?
Jan 18, 2021
Jan 18, 2021 at 10:46 PM UTC
The amount of energy it takes to be as quiet as possible
while choking on your own tears and trembles at night.
The tears running down your face and neck leaving them to dry because you dont have the energy to wipe them away anymore.
Jan 17, 2021
Jan 17, 2021 at 8:45 PM UTC
The leaf on a tree hanging on for no apparent reason
When you can already see it crumbling to pieces.
Holding on to it although it's not necessary
Only hoping to be given life but death is irreversible
Finally coming to the conclusion you no longer can help this leaf grow
So let it go, falling to the ground, to be turned into something else
To be treated with the care that you could never provide
Even if you tried
Jul 5, 2020
Jul 5, 2020 at 1:38 AM UTC
All those late nights
talking on the phone until we fell asleep
watching movies in the dark
laughing under all those stars
adventuring to places we weren't supposed to be
you've forgotten all the little, stupid secrets that we use to share
and all the other thing's that made us who we were
you've forgotten about me
...
Apr 22, 2020
Apr 22, 2020 at 6:55 PM UTC
Your loving words
lightly touch my soul
like butterfly wings
healing all the wounds
that are hidden inside
Apr 12, 2020
Apr 12, 2020 at 8:33 PM UTC
Your words hit my heart like shards of glass
Cutting through my flesh
And leaving such large holes
That may never be fixed
Apr 4, 2020
Apr 4, 2020 at 8:37 PM UTC
So beautiful
Yet so painful to hold
Almost like a disguise
Hiding the pain
Under the beauty
Of petals
Mar 31, 2020
Mar 31, 2020 at 8:27 PM UTC