mariahh-hodgkinson
American
My names MaRiahh! I like colouring my hair (currently my hair is bright red) and writing about weird and dark things. Music saved my life, and I like heavy metal, screamo, punk, indie, post hardcore, death metal, and punk core. Dont judge me okay we are now best friends. / / Add me on~ / Facebook: MaRiahh Hodgkinson / Tumblr: acidic_dreams_are_reality.tumblr.com / Email: [email protected] / / Love you! / / Ps. Im really open to meeting new people, and creating new friendships, so contact me if you want advice, need help, need to vent, or just wanna get to know me better! / / <3
i ******* hate my life right now.
sometimes im the happiest, smiliest person ever, and then the next minute i feel like total ****
i dont know what i want in my life right now, and i dont know where to go or who i can trust.
ive been let down by so many people.
every time something seems like its about to work out, it doesnt.
something else happens that ruins it.
i just wish things would work out soon.
ive been through self-harm; im still going through it. it doenst help.
i smoke way too ******* much; i drug way too ******* much.
its making me worse, its making me hate myself more, its making me feel like a disappointment.
i just feel judged by everyone and unable to please anybody.
and its miserable because its been going on for just so **** ******* long.
May 29, 2014
May 29, 2014 at 9:14 AM UTC
9:48am
He is the only person in her life
That makes her feel beautiful.
He tells her he loves her
And she knows he means it
By the way his eyes light up
When he says her name.
She would kiss him for hours
And he would let her
Because he wanted to kiss her, too.
Sometimes he holds her, but
Sometimes she holds him, too;
Because she knows he likes it.
When she tells him she loves him,
She looks right into his eyes;
And he knows she means it,
Because her eyes light up in the
Same way as his do.
May 27, 2014
May 27, 2014 at 1:58 PM UTC
Maybe some day he will fall in love with you
Maybe you dont think you can wait until then.
I think that anybody that makes you wait
Is not worth waiting for.
Maybe some day you will fall in love with another boy;
A boy that makes you question why you ever thought
You would be better off alone.
Maybe he is the one you give your life to.
Maybe some day a perfectly imperfect boy will come along.
He won't make your life flawless
But he will make you laugh until your days are over.
I think that is the only type of boy you need in your life.
When you first meet him,
He will just be another pretty face that you love to look at.
Give it some time, my sweet.
In a short while, he will be the only face you will be able to see
Even if there are some more beautiful than his.
Apr 30, 2014
Apr 30, 2014 at 3:07 PM UTC
i wanna know you better than the back of my hand, and what keeps you up at 2am
i wanna know what song has been stuck in your head, and how you'd look tucked into my bed
i wanna know what words are on the tip of your tongue, and hear about your dreams, even when you have none
i wanna know what brings you to tears, and what your face would look like if i lightly bit your ear
i wanna know how you like your coffee in the morning, and how cute you look when you're snoring
i wanna know you better
Apr 24, 2014
Apr 24, 2014 at 2:21 PM UTC
12:32 pm
give me a reason to stay
tell me you love me and
make me believe it
but make yourself believe it too
dont leave me hanging around
while you talk to all of your
friends because
truth be told
you are all of my friends
and if you leave i have no one left
so give me a reason to stay
please
and i will give you a reason too
12:39 pm
Jan 31, 2014
Jan 31, 2014 at 12:43 PM UTC
They had no idea
How she truly felt
And they did not know
With what she dealt
Because she knew how to smile
And hold back her tears
She did this for months
Months turned into years
Self-harmer, depression, anorexia, self-hate
Four of her many destructive self traits
She took pride in her razor
But mostly her knife
She finished her letter
Then ended her life
m.h.
Oct 13, 2013
Oct 13, 2013 at 4:37 PM UTC
In her mind, she knew it was coming.
But in her heart, she held on to that one last little sliver of hope
Until it was all gone.
And now it is all gone.
Its over.
Sep 26, 2013
Sep 26, 2013 at 1:00 PM UTC
Heartbreak is the simplest
And the most devastating thing
To ever happen to any young girl
She puts so much hope into her relationship
So much pride into what she can call hers
Then it is torn from her so quickly
She never saw it coming
And all the sudden
It is over
Sep 25, 2013
Sep 25, 2013 at 10:40 AM UTC
Sometimes, when i look down at my wrists
Or my thighs
Or my hips
I realize that ever scar there
Is a battle that I have lost against myself.
But when I look in the mirror
After months of being clean
I see a survivor of the war
That I once thought I could never win.
Sep 15, 2013
Sep 15, 2013 at 4:13 PM UTC