Left by my own self,
stranded in my quilt of despair.
Countless threads drag me down,
and all I can do is gasp for air.
Succumbing to this war,
I've thrown down my sword,
raised the white flag.
for this pain, I can't afford.
Sep 29, 2021
Sep 29, 2021 at 12:54 AM UTC
i'm in love with you and it *****
why can't you leave me alone?
everywhere I go, you linger
the memories, they linger
i'm addicted and it *****
Sep 19, 2021
Sep 19, 2021 at 7:15 PM UTC
The pain you caused
I'll never let it fade
The ache that
makes me feel this way
Don't forget all you've said
regret what you've done
I'll remember how you made me hurt
Not just emotionally
Physically,
Your hits caused all these troubles
You've turned our family to rubble
The love you have for yourself
Let it fade
For if it doesn't
No space will remain
The way you glared
When you said those words
They are not of GOD
They are not of the principles
You always speak of
This is the true you
worldly you.
You are so against evil
Yet you embraced it today
Discipline,
Day by Day mantra
Left you as you did your actions
In the presence of public eyes
You made a big mistake
Your mistake
Whatever you feel,
Regret or remorse
I don't care.
All I want you to know,
This will not be forgotten
Not by me nor by others
One day I'll forgive
One day I'll forget
But remember
What you've done
and remember
He was watching.
Aug 18, 2021
Aug 18, 2021 at 11:00 AM UTC
why does my heart fail so?
my mind in endless distress,
as I wander and drift off into this infinite darkness.
i have moments like this,
dreary dramatic days,
where my mind won't stop racing.
i can't keep this up I've realised.
so how long will this go on?
how far can i go broken and in pieces?
i constantly ask myself,
can you commit suicide,
if you fear death?
May 11, 2021
May 11, 2021 at 1:44 AM UTC
It's funny how something can seem so right.
It's funny how you shook my life.
Now I'm stuck with the reverberation.
Wondering and wondering what we could've been.
Lately my thoughts don't connect.
Not sure if they ever have.
But my state of mind felt different with you.
Happy?
Safe?
Well now everything is a jumbled mess.
Jun 24, 2020
Jun 24, 2020 at 5:33 PM UTC
don't get me wrong
even if I'm just a dream
i'll be by your side
through thick and thin
do you know?
there's blindness
in everything that dies
and maybe that's what has kept me from leaving
i fear the darkness
it sticks to me while the weather holds
and that fear amplifies
the more time draws near
don't get me wrong
i don't want to leave
i think
Mar 26, 2020
Mar 26, 2020 at 9:10 PM UTC
this silence breaks at everything.
eyes shake my every being.
little did he know, what we'll be.
Nov 19, 2019
Nov 19, 2019 at 9:42 AM UTC
hands like feathers
searching through my heat
sweet sounds
echo through our walls
the words he speaks
are wisdom to me
my body, his teeth
vague curses to deep
I take a picture,
two minds intertwined.
two lives unwind.
he makes this work,
oh, my love.
maybe his hands
will bring me whole
while,
fleshy vessels pumping blood
ache selfishly for his touch
he's mine.
even with my sick mind.
Sep 27, 2019
Sep 27, 2019 at 9:55 PM UTC
'Here lies that sad girl and her scars'
Those words hovered over my head.
I giggled slightly,
Sick to my stomach.
Lumps upon lumps form in my throat.
As I welcome euphoria, my friend!
'Here lies that sad girl and her scars'
Sick thoughts, don't you think?
Oh! What do you care!
I'm falling in a blink.
At that moment,
I remembered the girl,
With big eyes and concern on her face.
What's that on your arm?
mind your ******* business
Oh it's nothing…
Huh?
I was just drawing on my hand with a really sharp (razor) pen and I didn't notice…
Oh wow that's so weird
You have no idea
I wonder if she saw the words on my arm…
Ha! Yes! You guessed it!
As cheesy I can be,
'HELP ME' was carved, quite boldy on my skin.
The girl made me think...
You,
Weird,
Sick,
****
Why won't you STOP?
So here I lay,
Dipped in ink,
Stripped and bleak.
Worried my shirt might get ruined, ****
'Here lies that sad girl and her scars'
Watch her as she shivers.
Her friend has gone away.
Who is here to stay?
Sep 24, 2019
Sep 24, 2019 at 8:20 PM UTC
I'm far from you
Yet close;
My heart races,
ten steps too fast,
Blood trying
To fix imaginary wounds.
My head hurts so bad,
My legs won't stop,
Shaking—
The cries of my lonely self
I miss you.
Jul 27, 2019
Jul 27, 2019 at 7:30 PM UTC