marc-james - Hello Poetry

Depression reigns Sewers clog In rolls that relentless fog It’s hard to see, to feel, to think. Smoke some more.. get a drink. Depression reigns I’m soaking wet, My clothes feel tight, Hair unkept “Are you okay?” “Have you slept?” Are you okay—have you slept? Questions ring, perpetual... persistent... I’ve slept alright, I could this instant It doesn’t help I stray, More distant. Depression reigns My anger floods Then quickly drains Pulled the plug. I swim towards normal, the quickest route I’m swimming in, as the tides pull out. Depression reigns The waters rise, No footing below Close my eyes. Depression reigns

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Dec 6, 2017

Dec 6, 2017 at 4:20 PM UTC

Depression Rains

Depression reigns Sewers clog In rolls that relentless fog It’s hard to see, to feel, to think. Smoke some more.. get a drink. Depression reigns I’m soaking wet, My clothes feel tight, Hair unkept “Are you okay?” “Have you slept?” Are you okay—have you slept? Questions ring, perpetual... persistent... I’ve slept alright, I could this instant It doesn’t help I stray, More distant. Depression reigns My anger floods Then quickly drains Pulled the plug. I swim towards normal, the quickest route I’m swimming in, as the tides pull out. Depression reigns The waters rise, No footing below Close my eyes. Depression reigns

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Sometimes I feel as if my heart's not in place, As if it's jumped from my chest straight up to my face It starts out slow, crawling inch by inch Up to my neck with a squeeze and a pinch It squeezes my thoughts and brings tears to my eyes But they will not fall, I cannot cry Then I see your face and my heart stops it's climb It's tight in my neck, no more are you mine My muscles tense up as I turn my head right And my heart moves again, this is not the end of the fight It's now in my throat and my breathing's reversed This ride must be over, my heart's bout' to burst I miss you, I miss you, more than you know, More than the sun shines, on untouched snow More than the trees miss the summer glow More than I wish I had so long ago, And I walk away, I walk away slow Like a man with no heart where yours should go My Heart's still up in my throat sending beats through my soul These beats fall loudly, a heart deafening stroll They tell me things that I already know, With you, Without you, I will never be whole

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Nov 10, 2015

Nov 10, 2015 at 8:22 PM UTC

Longing

Sometimes I feel as if my heart's not in place, As if it's jumped from my chest straight up to my face It starts out slow, crawling inch by inch Up to my neck with a squeeze and a pinch It squeezes my thoughts and brings tears to my eyes But they will not fall, I cannot cry Then I see your face and my heart stops it's climb It's tight in my neck, no more are you mine My muscles tense up as I turn my head right And my heart moves again, this is not the end of the fight It's now in my throat and my breathing's reversed This ride must be over, my heart's bout' to burst I miss you, I miss you, more than you know, More than the sun shines, on untouched snow More than the trees miss the summer glow More than I wish I had so long ago, And I walk away, I walk away slow Like a man with no heart where yours should go My Heart's still up in my throat sending beats through my soul These beats fall loudly, a heart deafening stroll They tell me things that I already know, With you, Without you, I will never be whole

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Today I feel like today is not real, As if my reality has flipped and now spins like a wheel Up and down, sideways and backways How long have I been here? A minute? An hour? perhaps a few days? This reality ***** like the thumb of a child Looking for comfort, forever beguiled It makes me feel lonely like a knot in a tree So different from others, there's no one like me I sit here in this third dimension Forgotten Alone With a desperate need for attention unsatisfied, unknown Nobody sees things in the light that I see My light shines bright, opening the lock with my key I notice that I feel this reality quite often Like holding a thousand pounds of ambition With no courage to soften Like a wrecking ball of abuse is strangling me like a noose Like a straight jacket of hope is grabbing me by the throat! Like a blaze full of sadness so viscous and angry! This life feels like all that and more, Pretty much Mainly There's some feelings here that cannot be put into words Ambiguous like art, quick fleeting like birds They rush through my mind fast like a subway train but they hurt no matter what, deep in my heart and my veins This reality stinks, like a soldiers wet feet full of post traumatic stress my minds naked, undressed I need hope, i need help, I need something to eat, preferably a meal of woman's love, gentle & sweet I'll sit in my reality, waiting for something to come round' Maybe just one smile, perhaps many! Leaping towards me in bounds! Maybe a whole slew of "you can's" and "no need to frown"'s Till then I still go backways and sideways, on my wheel of Up Downs

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Dec 7, 2013

Dec 7, 2013 at 9:18 PM UTC

My Wheel of Up Downs

Today I feel like today is not real, As if my reality has flipped and now spins like a wheel Up and down, sideways and backways How long have I been here? A minute? An hour? perhaps a few days? This reality ***** like the thumb of a child Looking for comfort, forever beguiled It makes me feel lonely like a knot in a tree So different from others, there's no one like me I sit here in this third dimension Forgotten Alone With a desperate need for attention unsatisfied, unknown Nobody sees things in the light that I see My light shines bright, opening the lock with my key I notice that I feel this reality quite often Like holding a thousand pounds of ambition With no courage to soften Like a wrecking ball of abuse is strangling me like a noose Like a straight jacket of hope is grabbing me by the throat! Like a blaze full of sadness so viscous and angry! This life feels like all that and more, Pretty much Mainly There's some feelings here that cannot be put into words Ambiguous like art, quick fleeting like birds They rush through my mind fast like a subway train but they hurt no matter what, deep in my heart and my veins This reality stinks, like a soldiers wet feet full of post traumatic stress my minds naked, undressed I need hope, i need help, I need something to eat, preferably a meal of woman's love, gentle & sweet I'll sit in my reality, waiting for something to come round' Maybe just one smile, perhaps many! Leaping towards me in bounds! Maybe a whole slew of "you can's" and "no need to frown"'s Till then I still go backways and sideways, on my wheel of Up Downs

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This moment is here, this moment is gone this life is sho... gone as well, not time to dwell on what could of been the ort of short the ong of long no moments for them, In my moment song. Goodbye for now, far well, good ciao see you soo.. Oh no, not now. I'll see you in a moment sometime not here but far from now.

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Oct 24, 2013

Oct 24, 2013 at 10:29 PM UTC

This Moment

This moment is here, this moment is gone this life is sho... gone as well, not time to dwell on what could of been the ort of short the ong of long no moments for them, In my moment song. Goodbye for now, far well, good ciao see you soo.. Oh no, not now. I'll see you in a moment sometime not here but far from now.

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Sometimes I feel like I'm here, but not really. My breath moves like last words, slow, full of missing you dearly I smile and wave at people, my life seems dynamic. But inside my mind, sh sh sh Just white noise, static I often look in the mirror and think is this me? These Halloween eyes with cracked skin underneath? I feel alone but not lost, I know where I am. But if one is lost in his mind, what is life but a scam. I Need help today, right now, real handy! Because I feel like a Jack who's in need of his Sally, Like jack my emptiness began to grow, way before these hallowed eyes, this skin, breached with holes. It's been growing like fungus putting it's static in my ears It's been hiding like a rat, only coming out in my tears. I often wondered what this feeling is, and I now know. the fog of my life is lifting and this feeling now shows It's there and so clear, but it hurts still the same, it's been buried for so long deep down under my veins, It burns my veins cold and makes icicles of my bones And there it is, the feeling: "A longing that I've never known"

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Aug 19, 2013

Aug 19, 2013 at 12:05 AM UTC

Jack & Sally

Sometimes I feel like I'm here, but not really. My breath moves like last words, slow, full of missing you dearly I smile and wave at people, my life seems dynamic. But inside my mind, sh sh sh Just white noise, static I often look in the mirror and think is this me? These Halloween eyes with cracked skin underneath? I feel alone but not lost, I know where I am. But if one is lost in his mind, what is life but a scam. I Need help today, right now, real handy! Because I feel like a Jack who's in need of his Sally, Like jack my emptiness began to grow, way before these hallowed eyes, this skin, breached with holes. It's been growing like fungus putting it's static in my ears It's been hiding like a rat, only coming out in my tears. I often wondered what this feeling is, and I now know. the fog of my life is lifting and this feeling now shows It's there and so clear, but it hurts still the same, it's been buried for so long deep down under my veins, It burns my veins cold and makes icicles of my bones And there it is, the feeling: "A longing that I've never known"

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You see the struggles on their faces, The love that got misplaced in a place so deep and dark that not even a mole could find his way in. The lives they used to live, are in the devils sack and there's no turning back from all the negatives that now stick they're face in Into the deepest crack, of hearts dropped in cement Stuck in the sidewalk being walked on by the greedy and oh so ignorant Sometimes you hear them wheeze or maybe you just keep walking or maybe you mistake the noise for a breeze, or just some dumb suit talking Maybe you don't see the struggles on their faces only the ones on t.v. But one day that could be you, one day that could be me.

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Dec 9, 2012

Dec 9, 2012 at 1:33 AM UTC

Ignorant

You see the struggles on their faces, The love that got misplaced in a place so deep and dark that not even a mole could find his way in. The lives they used to live, are in the devils sack and there's no turning back from all the negatives that now stick they're face in Into the deepest crack, of hearts dropped in cement Stuck in the sidewalk being walked on by the greedy and oh so ignorant Sometimes you hear them wheeze or maybe you just keep walking or maybe you mistake the noise for a breeze, or just some dumb suit talking Maybe you don't see the struggles on their faces only the ones on t.v. But one day that could be you, one day that could be me.

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I step into the cold night and watch my breath dance on the stars. A brief polka on Venus, and a slow jig on Mars. Cupping my paws to my face, I feel the heat of the dance Its all over my nose and weaves through my hands I dance, oh i dance in the snow round' my feet till my toes hit the grass and my feet feel the heat the heat grows and the dance speeds not just a little, but in bounds in bounds it proceeds! My veins stop their flow just to witness this show and this makes my heart throb little to, and little fro. I keep dancing you see, though the night through the streets. With my breath in the stars and the blocks on repeat. the dance rages in my brain, it's a party it's insane. I begin to lose my mind, engulfed in the dance and all of a sudden I'm at her door, this can't be by chance. Then the dance stops and my feet hold their ground I'm alone in the night, left and right. There's no one around. Just me and my breath, which is staggered and small I laugh a nervous laugh, it sounds more like a bawl What am i doing?! I see my hand raise to chest height, and i hear the dancing again boom, bing, pow! into the night I knock three times, matching the bump bump of my heart and this dance of life proceeds to slowly rip me apart. I turn around to take one last look at the night it's beautiful it's wonderful it's an eye's delight It's a dance in the sky, so vivid and starry Then the door opens up, and my minds blank "I'm sorry"

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Dec 8, 2012

Dec 8, 2012 at 11:21 PM UTC

The Endless Dance

I step into the cold night and watch my breath dance on the stars. A brief polka on Venus, and a slow jig on Mars. Cupping my paws to my face, I feel the heat of the dance Its all over my nose and weaves through my hands I dance, oh i dance in the snow round' my feet till my toes hit the grass and my feet feel the heat the heat grows and the dance speeds not just a little, but in bounds in bounds it proceeds! My veins stop their flow just to witness this show and this makes my heart throb little to, and little fro. I keep dancing you see, though the night through the streets. With my breath in the stars and the blocks on repeat. the dance rages in my brain, it's a party it's insane. I begin to lose my mind, engulfed in the dance and all of a sudden I'm at her door, this can't be by chance. Then the dance stops and my feet hold their ground I'm alone in the night, left and right. There's no one around. Just me and my breath, which is staggered and small I laugh a nervous laugh, it sounds more like a bawl What am i doing?! I see my hand raise to chest height, and i hear the dancing again boom, bing, pow! into the night I knock three times, matching the bump bump of my heart and this dance of life proceeds to slowly rip me apart. I turn around to take one last look at the night it's beautiful it's wonderful it's an eye's delight It's a dance in the sky, so vivid and starry Then the door opens up, and my minds blank "I'm sorry"

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I walk outside to see the trees and the leaves To smell the creek, and let time leak To look up at the sky and ask him "why?", But he just stares down at me and begins to cry His tears walk down my head and enter my eyes And I struggle to look around at this world I despise My mind is Ice frozen straight to it's core And my body shudders, It can't do this no more I cannot go on as if it's alright As if there is some sort of bright light in this night As if all this merciless Hate is alright It's not alright in fact it's too much People hating people, using hate as a crutch Muslim, Jew, Gay and ******** These things, these stupid things they belong in the garbage Tell me when, tell me where did these times disappear Where all it took was a mere smile for cheer Now our smiles are absent and our flat screens prevail We have unknowingly convicted our souls straight to jail And we have so little Time to laugh and love with each other It's about time we stop ******** and embrace neighbor as brother We should all love one another as the cliche implies Because a life lived in Hate is a life built on lies I feel my body stir as If i was sleeping Then I crack open my eyes and notice I'm weeping The world is a blur, the trees and the grass But my mind is ready to be molded Like fire-touched glass I don't know why I left indoors today of all days To go outside and cry in the rain But I walk in and and sit down, to slow my mind for a while Then I close my wet eyes and begin to just smile.

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Oct 15, 2012

Oct 15, 2012 at 11:22 PM UTC

Smile

I walk outside to see the trees and the leaves To smell the creek, and let time leak To look up at the sky and ask him "why?", But he just stares down at me and begins to cry His tears walk down my head and enter my eyes And I struggle to look around at this world I despise My mind is Ice frozen straight to it's core And my body shudders, It can't do this no more I cannot go on as if it's alright As if there is some sort of bright light in this night As if all this merciless Hate is alright It's not alright in fact it's too much People hating people, using hate as a crutch Muslim, Jew, Gay and ******** These things, these stupid things they belong in the garbage Tell me when, tell me where did these times disappear Where all it took was a mere smile for cheer Now our smiles are absent and our flat screens prevail We have unknowingly convicted our souls straight to jail And we have so little Time to laugh and love with each other It's about time we stop ******** and embrace neighbor as brother We should all love one another as the cliche implies Because a life lived in Hate is a life built on lies I feel my body stir as If i was sleeping Then I crack open my eyes and notice I'm weeping The world is a blur, the trees and the grass But my mind is ready to be molded Like fire-touched glass I don't know why I left indoors today of all days To go outside and cry in the rain But I walk in and and sit down, to slow my mind for a while Then I close my wet eyes and begin to just smile.

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I live life on the edge On the edge of defeat On the edge of deceit On the edge of my seat Will i fall? skip a beat feel the heat live in the street Will i rise? become the best need no rest beat this test Or will i embrace? this pace this endless race this colorless taste These questions are like fire they light you up they bring you higher But maybe we should stand still take in our fill, not climb this hill just enjoy the time, fulfill this rhyme, live now, not later nor up or down, but straighter

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Feb 22, 2012

Feb 22, 2012 at 5:48 AM UTC

Time

I live life on the edge On the edge of defeat On the edge of deceit On the edge of my seat Will i fall? skip a beat feel the heat live in the street Will i rise? become the best need no rest beat this test Or will i embrace? this pace this endless race this colorless taste These questions are like fire they light you up they bring you higher But maybe we should stand still take in our fill, not climb this hill just enjoy the time, fulfill this rhyme, live now, not later nor up or down, but straighter

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I walk with a limp, in my knees and my heart My footprints are staggered My heart beats, apart There are holes in my shoes, and gaps in my chest Where blood leaks out, and Happiness can digress My body's in ruins, and my mind if offset Somebody help, I'm getting upset My toenails are curled, and my eyes blink slow I feel like starvation , is this the end of my show? Now there's tears on my feet, from the holes in my heart And all I can feel is the why, why now? Why in this dark? This dark is real, as the pain I feel But my options are scarce, and now there's holes in my heels I'm alone in the dark, as alone as can be With holes in my heart, which now looks like swiss cheese My shoes are no more, the laces untied, I now desperately wish, that I could of just died. But I'll keep moving on with a limp and my holes Looking for someone to heal my soul. See life is difficult when people are apart, Which is why I walk with a limp, In my knees and my heart.

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Feb 21, 2012

Feb 21, 2012 at 2:32 PM UTC

Heavy

I walk with a limp, in my knees and my heart My footprints are staggered My heart beats, apart There are holes in my shoes, and gaps in my chest Where blood leaks out, and Happiness can digress My body's in ruins, and my mind if offset Somebody help, I'm getting upset My toenails are curled, and my eyes blink slow I feel like starvation , is this the end of my show? Now there's tears on my feet, from the holes in my heart And all I can feel is the why, why now? Why in this dark? This dark is real, as the pain I feel But my options are scarce, and now there's holes in my heels I'm alone in the dark, as alone as can be With holes in my heart, which now looks like swiss cheese My shoes are no more, the laces untied, I now desperately wish, that I could of just died. But I'll keep moving on with a limp and my holes Looking for someone to heal my soul. See life is difficult when people are apart, Which is why I walk with a limp, In my knees and my heart.

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