mara-siegel - Hello Poetry

ten cotton briefs white, big. they look like shame to me-- they look like something i shed.

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Apr 5, 2017

Apr 5, 2017 at 10:29 PM UTC

ten cotton briefs white, big. they look like shame to me-- they look like something i shed.

i never let my dishes soak after i use them because i hear a voice every time i try to and it makes me sick i used to think my paralysis was lucidity not hysteria but now i know the difference i wish i had big teeth, so big, that they'd fill my mouth and i didn't have to talk

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Jan 16, 2017

Jan 16, 2017 at 7:50 PM UTC

about me

i never let my dishes soak after i use them because i hear a voice every time i try to and it makes me sick i used to think my paralysis was lucidity not hysteria but now i know the difference i wish i had big teeth, so big, that they'd fill my mouth and i didn't have to talk

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how much of who you are is ego? how much is self-actualization? and how much does answering these questions help or hurt one or the other?

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Nov 1, 2016

Nov 1, 2016 at 7:16 PM UTC

im tired of your content/come up with a new presence

how much of who you are is ego? how much is self-actualization? and how much does answering these questions help or hurt one or the other?

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January 2015 i am freshly nineteen. a boy with black lipstick comes down unfamiliar stairs from a mysterious Above. i wonder if i'll ever see this place. March 2015 same boy, no lipstick. i kiss him at a bar but do not yet get to see the mysterious Above. i hope to see it soon. April-June 2015 i wake up most mornings in the Above place. i sometimes wear lipstick, but usually not. it is bright and cold and nowhere near the bathroom. July-December 2015 i reluctantly walk up now all too familiar stairs to an Above place where i am not wanted or welcome but i still need a place to put my bag, so i ignore the signs both literal and figurative. January 2016- i am welcomed with open arms to the Above place and do not want to leave but home is a subjective term and time doe not stop for nostalgia; i am glad no one else will get to see the Above the way i do.

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May 1, 2016

May 1, 2016 at 4:03 PM UTC

if we don't know you, you can't go upstairs! there is NO bathroom

January 2015 i am freshly nineteen. a boy with black lipstick comes down unfamiliar stairs from a mysterious Above. i wonder if i'll ever see this place. March 2015 same boy, no lipstick. i kiss him at a bar but do not yet get to see the mysterious Above. i hope to see it soon. April-June 2015 i wake up most mornings in the Above place. i sometimes wear lipstick, but usually not. it is bright and cold and nowhere near the bathroom. July-December 2015 i reluctantly walk up now all too familiar stairs to an Above place where i am not wanted or welcome but i still need a place to put my bag, so i ignore the signs both literal and figurative. January 2016- i am welcomed with open arms to the Above place and do not want to leave but home is a subjective term and time doe not stop for nostalgia; i am glad no one else will get to see the Above the way i do.

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i hate it when you leave me to fall asleep on my own but god **** if i don't love when you crawl into bed and then inside of me

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Apr 7, 2016

Apr 7, 2016 at 2:25 PM UTC

shared spaces

i hate it when you leave me to fall asleep on my own but god **** if i don't love when you crawl into bed and then inside of me

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i am half priced but full quality. you told me we weren't alike because when i sit in the sun i feel sick. but here we are alike and touching my hands hold yours but mostly yours hold mind and i am very scared.

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Mar 13, 2016

Mar 13, 2016 at 10:39 PM UTC

sunburn pt. 2

i am half priced but full quality. you told me we weren't alike because when i sit in the sun i feel sick. but here we are alike and touching my hands hold yours but mostly yours hold mind and i am very scared.

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losing my wisdom teeth and losing you felt similar; i only had them (my teeth) briefly, two months maybe, just like you. and when they took them (my teeth), it reminded me of all the chemicals i put in my body when i was too young to understand the consequences. and when they took you, it reminded me of all the chemicals i put in my body now that i'm old enough to understand the consequences.

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Mar 13, 2016

Mar 13, 2016 at 10:35 PM UTC

28 vs. 27

losing my wisdom teeth and losing you felt similar; i only had them (my teeth) briefly, two months maybe, just like you. and when they took them (my teeth), it reminded me of all the chemicals i put in my body when i was too young to understand the consequences. and when they took you, it reminded me of all the chemicals i put in my body now that i'm old enough to understand the consequences.

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i spend a lot of time thinking about setting myself on fire i used to hold hot irons to my forearms i am no stranger to feeling cold i often feel cold i spend a lot of time thinking about setting myself on fire

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Feb 18, 2016

Feb 18, 2016 at 8:06 PM UTC

i shivered violently until i was consumed by the blanket you handed me

i spend a lot of time thinking about setting myself on fire i used to hold hot irons to my forearms i am no stranger to feeling cold i often feel cold i spend a lot of time thinking about setting myself on fire

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white sheets in a strange room dim lights, bright eyes. i love it when you **** me, i love it when you're inside of me.

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Feb 16, 2016

Feb 16, 2016 at 8:34 PM UTC

we talked about death in the bathtub

white sheets in a strange room dim lights, bright eyes. i love it when you **** me, i love it when you're inside of me.

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i feel like a sunburn waiting to happen and my teeth have looked so white lately. i let you see my body last week; every part (or as much as i could fit in a 4 inch screen) and my teeth have looked so white lately.

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Jan 19, 2016

Jan 19, 2016 at 7:05 PM UTC

sunburn

i feel like a sunburn waiting to happen and my teeth have looked so white lately. i let you see my body last week; every part (or as much as i could fit in a 4 inch screen) and my teeth have looked so white lately.

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