You love her too much
I envy the power of it
She doesn’t know you
You don’t know me either
But I know you
And you feel like you do know her
Until yours become the only way
To end this agony
I want to love you too
Help me to end my own agony
But its too much
Too deep and hurt
But when will we meet each other
When we’re too busy
Catching the heart that doesn’t want to be reached
Mar 29, 2019
Mar 29, 2019 at 11:49 AM UTC
This heart should be, already,
Hurt-proof
Or one side love-proof
'Cus I've learned it that way
That back you thrown at me
Walked off to the departing gate
Should have known it would be the end of this
It supposed to be die right there
But the feeling seemed lurking
They ghosted on the small side of my chest
Waited patiently there
'Till the shine of your light blasted through the flesh
I wonder what to call this feel
Should it be love or passion
Or an amusement, instead of possesion
To recall your embrace 'till my tears are all reckless
Supposed to hate you
Supposed to summoned you away
But these beats after beats,
They told me I'm dying without you
Boy, I'm dying without you
Do not ruffle my hair anymore
Do not smile at my joke anymore
Just do not, do not you dare at all
This time, do not you dare to love me anymore.
Jun 25, 2018
Jun 25, 2018 at 12:15 PM UTC
Once I was in a place to shed a tears
of the silent scream I don't let anybody know
to watch them all laughing,
as the agony I feel
for the invisible tears
rolled down my cheek
they laughed at me,
for always
at the sight of myself
and that's the truth
for what the lie is
I smiled at them in return
Apr 4, 2018
Apr 4, 2018 at 9:36 AM UTC
Whispered as a dark voice,
in an unoccupied night
there is, lonely, waiting
for me knitting in spinning
of the past and the future
and today is forgotten
like the wind on the skin
but feels just a snap
then disappear
Apr 3, 2018
Apr 3, 2018 at 2:13 PM UTC
From all the things I'm running from,
they are killing me,
designed to test me.
Maybe it's the temper or the patient,
Whether to quit now or then,
But for as long as I know,
The matter of time,
Is always the same,
And in another part of universe,
It's okay,
to say the time is up,
Now.
Aug 16, 2017
Aug 16, 2017 at 8:45 AM UTC
I hope the rain could breath,
So they knew,
How fantastic their smell is.
Could it be today, when my path,
Brought me to the dew,
Of the morning sun glories.
May 7, 2017
May 7, 2017 at 1:10 PM UTC
It was my seven birthday,
They called me menaced and shut my mind down with their own imagination
Too young, too devil to born they said
I came to the point where no one to believing
Said it was too young to think out of the cage
They was sad when I said I want to be me
They said you want to be you, then you lose me
What even I try to forgive when my mind hard to forget
See, the light ever tried to blind me down,
But I said put the light on, more
And **** me
And when will you see I’m trying?
When is the right time to finding me?
The sky is open, same like the wound on my chest
The wound on my arm,
The wound on my heart,
You know you cant see but you kept crafting of it
Hate me hate more if that could make you get the me more
I want to ******* **** it all the way down
But do you see me now?
All the scars was the painless art soul
They draw me, they create me
**** they talked braved me
To the point I hate seeing you smile
To the latest blood from my razor will be my last tears
I hope not to be the one you concern
I hope not to be the one you played
The drama inside your brain,
I’m not the actor
Keep pushing my head down
I’m showing you the hell from it.
I’m showing you the part of me
Which I keep in a hush hush **** my head
They wont tell a lie, they wont find a way.
Jan 14, 2017
Jan 14, 2017 at 1:32 PM UTC
the atmosphere,
the cat and hiding behind the bench,
the tears you are afraid to say,
life a like, like rain under thunderstorms
silent, silent like a death body underground
but the king, the government, the rich, and the happiest people alive?
they are loud,
they are laughing
they are crying,
with tears and joy and pain you do not have money to pay for,
but the show is still going on,
and you are already as a spectacle
in a life you don't want to.
Oct 7, 2016
Oct 7, 2016 at 8:20 PM UTC
Close my eyes with both of your hands
Tell me the greatest lies with myself in it
And I will believe you
Let me count your heartbeats and tell me,
Tell me it’s beating faster just for me
And I will believe you
Just as the sky chose to getting dark and hiding the sun
You will be there standing and smiling,
Never be, you are alone, you whispered.
But still, I gave you my hand and no hand yet reaching for it.
Not your hand,
Even since the first time.
Then again, you hug me as the pain disappeared with the joy
Tell me again all lies with me inside of it
And still, I believe in you,
But, you don’t.
Aug 26, 2016
Aug 26, 2016 at 5:53 PM UTC
Wherever I try to stop my eyes at something,
Still, the sight of your body lingered there
As the silent stabbing the back of my mind
With a knife of nightmare and regrets
Of letting you go, or instead, of ever letting myself knew you.
Aug 26, 2016
Aug 26, 2016 at 5:49 PM UTC