It's so hard to tell, what all am I going through
The rain has drenched me wet, my eyes are all blue
My lips smiles soft, as in not to give my truth away
But the emptiness creep in, the hole in my heart's doorway
It's all in a mess, my mind isn't the same
There are terrible facade of happiness, all of which is sham
The counsel of whats, ifs and all the buts
The uneasy feeling that gnaw me from inside, always in my guts
As if something is broken all from the inside, a knife that carves
Pieces by pieces it's falling apart, in shards and plenty of halves
I am my own saviour, my own hero as long as I go
There are no good mornings, no good byes, no hello
Unable to share myself to anyone, this burden gets heavy more than it should
But, even if I do, it won't make any sense, as you all fight your demons, you should
And again, its all momentarily, where I learn to fly above all these with wings
Around the silver lining, above the clouds of hope, but coming down is the hardest thing
It's getting tougher and tougher each passing day
And yet, somehow, I am supposed to feel, it didn't happen yesterday
Apr 6, 2019
Apr 6, 2019 at 8:15 AM UTC
Little one, little one
The sky is falling
Your lifeboat of dreams
Is now sailing
In the wake all the way
No rhyme or reason
Your gloomy eyes
Shows your heart rains a rainy season
Little girl, little girl
Why are you sighing?
Inside your restless soul
Your heart is really crying
So, Runaway
From the river to the shore
And find yourself within
You're the reflection of your hopes
There is always places you can go
You only get to live it all, only once
@manauwer raza
Feb 16, 2019
Feb 16, 2019 at 2:17 PM UTC
Remembrance, a story of trying to put things together
Where the best moments drifts through floating
While I look at my hands and spaces between my fingers...
The sparks of life would make all those darkness fade
Bring light of hopes and wishes to come true
The marks of which are now completely erased...
But these are the memories I already know
Which need no luxury, no expression to show
It's all about the disappointment of just letting go...
It's based on something that can't be saved
All blatant lies, the falsity, the blame
For things have changed and they can't stay the same...
Sometimes I wonder if you're even here
For my mind refrain to speak your name
And the picture I see seems so unclear...
So, I'll just say what needs to be said
The fights are fought and the elegies are read
But for remembrance of you, my memories are all numb and dead...
@manauwer
Jul 8, 2018
Jul 8, 2018 at 2:43 PM UTC
the sky overhead
turned red
as if, there was a sign
for a storm to come by
and may be
the early breeze
was just a comfort
to reach out to you
to make you realize
the things you are to endure
is better, if you kept the breeze
in your mind and soul...
Jun 13, 2018
Jun 13, 2018 at 2:35 PM UTC
it's sad to realize and hurts to see
how humane is it to be human
and the worst that could be
for I see people turning themselves apart
delusional with false sense of pride
they are just beautiful faces with an ugly heart
Jun 3, 2018
Jun 3, 2018 at 6:55 AM UTC
she...!!!
walking playfully, gleaming, smiling...
well I don't care what she's doing and why...
except her reaction when I see her come by...
I approach...
but I feel the sensation, and vertigo...
when my world turns upside down...
unable to discern and yet not I frown...
I freeze...
as i fixate all my attention to her eyes...
thinking of something intelligent to say...
but turns out fool, all in that way...
I turn around...
but my throats already dry...
I cannot help it with, words...
even if I had enough guts to say anything to her...
another day goes by...
without saying a word...
its not that easy you know...
because I'm just too...
shy...!!!
Aug 3, 2017
Aug 3, 2017 at 11:04 PM UTC
i've written countless wishes
in the corners of my notebook
but the hopes remains closed
and none, but none of them came true
and i just left things behind
and then words went flying
flying flying flying
wherever i went
flying forever and ever
with wings of wax
@manauwer
Jul 9, 2017
Jul 9, 2017 at 12:23 PM UTC
comfort in shade and shadows
trust in all lies that follows
like fools believing
of truth that never been told
and hope for the better tomorrow
and I for one, am the liar
throw up in the stairs
stained with the spoils of time
some broken words
and wishful scream, echoes
death, doesn't takes you afar
and I for one, am the liar
sleepless nights, turning sour
silence to tears, tears to cries
denial of the days passed by
will be there always, end of time and
consumed by sudden loss
and I for one, am the liar
reasons none, and a cheating love
not your fault but mine
your heart being on the line
expecting accepting from where it came
but body and not your soul
and I for one, am the liar
its empty in words and makes less sense
valleys of fears and harvest left behind
becoming something that you never were
finding strength in all the pain
its just me or is it my name
and I for one, am the liar
Dec 13, 2016
Dec 13, 2016 at 11:41 AM UTC
pulverized,
when they need someone to rely on...
someone to talk to,
someone to share thoughts upon...
they turn to me,
for i always be...
in the dark and in hopelessness
i stand there, and they see...
but, enough already...
for my feet are sore and the shoulders heave...
and helping others, i have lost me, time and beyond
i remain, still without peace...
Sep 4, 2016
Sep 4, 2016 at 2:53 PM UTC
m not sure, whats been through all
i try not to stare
but my eyes slips through the wall
you standing there in your beautiful blue
we see each other and smile
and the dimple deepens, i see it too
'm replaying those moments of you
thinking what all were said
but i remember, they are always a few
so these are moments only you could make
without doing nothing, but,
i promise, i am not saying it for your sake
this could take time and a while
and i just want you to know
without trying or knowing you can always make me smile
Jul 28, 2015
Jul 28, 2015 at 12:10 AM UTC