i pray to god that the memories of me
stick in your mind like honey on a spoon
i hope my laughter haunts you
like the ghost in your apartment
i hope my name burns in the back of your throat
like all the liquor you'll drown yourself in
in memory of me
i know you feel so lost without me
but god, i've never felt so free
Oct 24, 2017
Oct 24, 2017 at 4:56 PM UTC
trace the familiar contours of my body with your fingertips once more
place your hand on my thigh and tell me you miss me
rest your lips on mine and whisper "i love you" under your breath
because when i wake up,
you won't remember
but i will never forget
Nov 16, 2016
Nov 16, 2016 at 6:47 PM UTC
another cup of coffee and a few more cigarettes
is all i need to replace the thought of you for a minute or two
Nov 16, 2016
Nov 16, 2016 at 9:01 AM UTC
i dont think its healthy
to be at constant worry if im gonna lose you
i dont think its healthy
to only listen to the music that you like
no, i dont think its ******* healthy
to be lying in my yard looking at the stars in complete awe
but wishing i could be staring at you instead
Nov 8, 2016
Nov 8, 2016 at 9:10 AM UTC
a couple months ago, i was okay
a couple months ago, i was poking a skateboard into my thigh
a couple months ago, i found myself in your arms, hoping you'd never let go
a couple months ago, you'd lie to your dad so you could spend the night
a couple months ago, we were in love
but now, i'm not okay
now, i'm leaving art class to cry in the bathroom
now, i'm chainsmoking marlboros, even though i know you hated when i smoked
now, i'm wandering downtown wishing i'd bump into you
now, i don't know if i can handle myself without you
now, it's not okay
but now, i'm still in love
Sep 26, 2016
Sep 26, 2016 at 9:44 AM UTC
and in that moment, i thought i was over you. that moment when i was kissing another guy, you weren't on my mind. but now, you never ******* leave. my eyes strain from staring at my phone, reading our old messages. i'm already sick, but the endless tears and migraines are making me sicker. i thought i could work without you by my side, just like i did before but this time it was different. i depended on you for months but you slowly crept out of my life. there are points when i think i'm over you but i see something and all of a sudden, you're right back in my mind again. it's been about a month since you broke up with me, but every single nights since then i've been getting ****** up so i'm able to forget i miss you. sometimes i wish i could die so i'd never see your stupid ******* face again but i know if i go through with it, i'm stuck with you forever.
and recently, i haven't been eating, drinking, sleeping because i know if i do, it'll remind me of you.
Sep 26, 2016
Sep 26, 2016 at 9:14 AM UTC
i enjoy sunrises and sunsets but i'm yet to experience one as beautiful as you
May 12, 2016
May 12, 2016 at 6:22 AM UTC
take advantage of me,
of my love
my body
just as you did her,
and her
and her
but i want you to treat me differently,
i want you to love me
Feb 15, 2016
Feb 15, 2016 at 6:16 AM UTC
I am
deceived and taken advantage of, by you, an every day viewer.
I am
thrown to you, at you, by you
Piercing into flesh, leaving a scar that not even tender kisses from mother can heal them
Scar after scar, life after life, taken away by me. By us.
I am
ripping you piece by piece
I am
devouring on your precious soul, until there is no more left.
I am them.
I am you.
Feb 2, 2016
Feb 2, 2016 at 10:49 AM UTC
whenever i hear your voice
or that name of yours
my insides cramp,
and i find myself lighting another menthol cigarette,
once again realizing that it’s much sweeter than you ever were
Oct 30, 2015
Oct 30, 2015 at 9:01 AM UTC