maddy-van-buren - Hello Poetry

i try to open up and bees and moths and venom spurt from my chest my rib cage so hollow you knock it down tear the tissue from my outline i am just a shell the skeleton my biological walls built to protect me broken to tease me i feel like you've been hammering on my heart for years now so much i can't say with punctured lungs

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Jan 25, 2017

Jan 25, 2017 at 11:39 PM UTC

an explanation

i try to open up and bees and moths and venom spurt from my chest my rib cage so hollow you knock it down tear the tissue from my outline i am just a shell the skeleton my biological walls built to protect me broken to tease me i feel like you've been hammering on my heart for years now so much i can't say with punctured lungs

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i am a robot machine i was conditioned to believe success is documentation standing in line and sitting rows write down sentences regurgitate regurgitate survive blindly now i am successful, what is there to do

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Jan 25, 2017

Jan 25, 2017 at 11:37 PM UTC

conditioning

i am a robot machine i was conditioned to believe success is documentation standing in line and sitting rows write down sentences regurgitate regurgitate survive blindly now i am successful, what is there to do

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makeup smears the people jeer cameras flash and we all fall down

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Jan 25, 2017

Jan 25, 2017 at 11:35 PM UTC

i just ran out

makeup smears the people jeer cameras flash and we all fall down

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i think hell is driving through your hometown in the middle of the night, like a ghost you wander through the aisles of the gas stations hostess snacks and beef jerky and your cold, dead hands you picking out a pack of cigarettes the love of your life a whole state away never even realizing you've been dead this whole time you were doomed the day you were born until the day you die and after that

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Oct 29, 2016

Oct 29, 2016 at 1:45 PM UTC

i don't know what i did wrong

i think hell is driving through your hometown in the middle of the night, like a ghost you wander through the aisles of the gas stations hostess snacks and beef jerky and your cold, dead hands you picking out a pack of cigarettes the love of your life a whole state away never even realizing you've been dead this whole time you were doomed the day you were born until the day you die and after that

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falling through cracks living alone knowing I needn't take you back the hurt is the same withstanding quiet disapproval forgetting you want to get away for a moment you are mine the moment is fading you've never said to me the right line I've wanted to love you for so long I'll do anything, anything to make you want me this long

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Oct 14, 2016

Oct 14, 2016 at 11:08 PM UTC

grasping at straws

falling through cracks living alone knowing I needn't take you back the hurt is the same withstanding quiet disapproval forgetting you want to get away for a moment you are mine the moment is fading you've never said to me the right line I've wanted to love you for so long I'll do anything, anything to make you want me this long

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I was too soft spoken before to point out your rotting flesh and lying mouth but now let a man ever defy me, dare touch me, who cannot love me let him die for me from me by me because it's been all about me I've just been too shy to believe in the land I walk on crowned holy by my ***** feet you should call yourself lucky that I ever allowed my porcelain fingertips entry to your ragged existing that I ****** you that I loved you you never did notice I was breaking apart each moment you chose to use my face as your mirror your personal centerfold

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Oct 14, 2016

Oct 14, 2016 at 11:06 PM UTC

center-fold

I was too soft spoken before to point out your rotting flesh and lying mouth but now let a man ever defy me, dare touch me, who cannot love me let him die for me from me by me because it's been all about me I've just been too shy to believe in the land I walk on crowned holy by my ***** feet you should call yourself lucky that I ever allowed my porcelain fingertips entry to your ragged existing that I ****** you that I loved you you never did notice I was breaking apart each moment you chose to use my face as your mirror your personal centerfold

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I'm drunk here are the things I never said to you I don't know why we're fighting i want you to love like I do I'm trying my hardest not to stare at the screen of my phone it's not a picture of you I want it to be I'm doing better though I don't think I need you I just really want you as comfort no matter how many times you upset me and pull the trigger I'm just drunk and you're what I want

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Oct 14, 2016

Oct 14, 2016 at 11:03 PM UTC

I'm drunk

I'm drunk here are the things I never said to you I don't know why we're fighting i want you to love like I do I'm trying my hardest not to stare at the screen of my phone it's not a picture of you I want it to be I'm doing better though I don't think I need you I just really want you as comfort no matter how many times you upset me and pull the trigger I'm just drunk and you're what I want

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when I was the happiest I found a glimpse of true friendship in sparklers and smoke bombs driving to the town over to stand in the dark blasting out our ear drums I had never had anything like that before the days were long into the night when I sat on the top of the hill where my life began where I thought it ended the place I gave my heart away twice I pushed the seat down and blared the music I cried for something better than this if I only knew I'd been having fun all along it was all just a game I had liked to play too much until 2 years too late I sat in an empty apartment messing the floor with ribbons of red coming from my wrists they should have been at my sides next to the boy whose fingers were broken and I held them in mine and told him his hands looked like me

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Oct 14, 2016

Oct 14, 2016 at 11:01 PM UTC

summer before college

when I was the happiest I found a glimpse of true friendship in sparklers and smoke bombs driving to the town over to stand in the dark blasting out our ear drums I had never had anything like that before the days were long into the night when I sat on the top of the hill where my life began where I thought it ended the place I gave my heart away twice I pushed the seat down and blared the music I cried for something better than this if I only knew I'd been having fun all along it was all just a game I had liked to play too much until 2 years too late I sat in an empty apartment messing the floor with ribbons of red coming from my wrists they should have been at my sides next to the boy whose fingers were broken and I held them in mine and told him his hands looked like me

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we were built by the chaos theory no outward motion of science ever led us to believe or left us believing in each other one small wing from a butterfly brought me nearer to you and farther now when my head is on your shoulder and your heart is with her

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Aug 13, 2016

Aug 13, 2016 at 7:22 PM UTC

the light

we were built by the chaos theory no outward motion of science ever led us to believe or left us believing in each other one small wing from a butterfly brought me nearer to you and farther now when my head is on your shoulder and your heart is with her

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one minute you are the love of my life the next you are the crumbs on my floor and the sirens in my head I don't blame you for your faults you can be so distant when I'm only an inch from your face to mine the stitches on my legs are breaking and I've thought about running from time to time I don't know if I can get away do you love me enough to say more than what you've been swallowing throughout the years as they pass and go I go do you want to leave yet? I go for broke and you are my only gamble you give me **** for roses and laughs for aches I've never wanted to be so distant than I am now I'm pulling myself back to, how, how, how? a funny word I said again to myself how am I here again

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Aug 13, 2016

Aug 13, 2016 at 12:54 AM UTC

___

one minute you are the love of my life the next you are the crumbs on my floor and the sirens in my head I don't blame you for your faults you can be so distant when I'm only an inch from your face to mine the stitches on my legs are breaking and I've thought about running from time to time I don't know if I can get away do you love me enough to say more than what you've been swallowing throughout the years as they pass and go I go do you want to leave yet? I go for broke and you are my only gamble you give me **** for roses and laughs for aches I've never wanted to be so distant than I am now I'm pulling myself back to, how, how, how? a funny word I said again to myself how am I here again

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