I remember this day pretty well.
I remember this was the day that I knew you were the best decision of my life.
That we did it.
That you were mine and I was yours.
I remember every time I kissed you felt especially magical that night.
I remember you waltzing out of the bathroom.
I remember I felt invincible.
Like anything could happen and nothing could break us.
Like we were flying through galaxies at the speed of light,
but time was still.
Your eyes, forever the perfect color.
Your laugh, forever my favorite memory. Chicken-chicken a hilarious late night.
Dancing in the kitchen to no music.
Walking down the street in the darkness.
Falling off scooters.
Riding one two many on one.
Telling me I have the body of a Goddess.
Making love all day, only to cuddle in between. No food needed. Just love. All day. Every day.
I’m sorry if I ruined it. But all I want Is so have it back.
Apr 28, 2020
Apr 28, 2020 at 8:21 AM UTC
Is it easy to remember?
Or hard to forget.
Maybe for you, it’s just me
Have I hit the nail yet?
I never know your head anymore
We sync up some times,
But you act blank
And ignore me, say nothing’s wrong
But you don’t speak to me.
I’m annoyed, and honestly hurt,
You don’t want to do things
Just to help her.
I get it you’re tired,
These things are exhausting
But I thought you were passionate
That’s what I’m trusting.
We will get out of this mess,
I can see light in the clearing,
Don’t give up my love,
It’s life, and we’re steering
The best we can in rough waters
Jan 22, 2020
Jan 22, 2020 at 12:38 AM UTC
This is ******* breaking me to pieces,
but if this is going to be a goodbye I want you to know some things:
1) I used to always wonder why I wasn’t good enough for you.
People told me I did too much for you, that I tried to hard for you.
But I didn’t believe that.
2) I thought ‘maybe I’m not pretty enough.’
‘Maybe I’m not outgoing enough.’
‘Maybe I’m not smart enough.’
‘Maybe I’m not strong enough.’
3)So I worried and worked on these things.
Trying to gain confidence.
Trying to gain composer.
But I was gaining all this attention and not yours.
4) Truth is you liked me for me,
but I was too blind to see.
5) I didn’t know there was an eternal battle.
6) I didn’t know it was your own thing.
7) I didn’t know you Really loved me.
8) I always wondered why it wasn’t me?
9) Why couldn’t you be addicted to me?
Why can’t I be “her” ?
Why can’t he call me?
When will he see me?
10) But he did.
I just wasn’t most important.
Dec 5, 2019
Dec 5, 2019 at 9:57 PM UTC
I now have “The Day it felt over” picture.
It’s unreal.
I am currently in shock or maybe denial, at this point.
It was sad yesterday, but this,
I don’t know this is real?
I guess... your attitude seems to have changed.
But you say I’ve changed too,
I guess you didn’t like the better me.
Well, I like the better you.
Go do what you need to do,
I’m supporting you from afar.
If you need me, I’m here.
I miss you already.
Thank you for everything.
I love you, I always will.
Oct 19, 2019
Oct 19, 2019 at 10:43 AM UTC
You’re not a quitter.
Where’s the fight in you girl?
You don’t give up.
You were never one to give up.
I know you’re tired.
I know you feel so weak.
But it’s not over. It’s never over until you say it’s over.
Keep fighting.
Keep pushing.
You love yourself.
You have to.
How can you expect anyone to love you, if you don’t?
You can’t.
So love that little girl.
Even when she’s weak,
even when she wants to give up,
even when she’s hurting,
because she’s worth it.
You’re worth it.
Remember, you can cry,
but only standing up.
Sep 28, 2019
Sep 28, 2019 at 4:03 PM UTC
Over the years,
I have learned that I am fantastic at fixing lonely.
So fantastic, I often forget my own lonely.
Some times me and lonely sit together.
Burning pictures of our enemies.
Which look a lot like me.
Nov 18, 2018
Nov 18, 2018 at 1:34 PM UTC
I should've just said no.
But I've never been good at that.
Sep 11, 2017
Sep 11, 2017 at 2:31 PM UTC
Oh, God, that- that smile
Look at her
Those teeth, the way the left side of her lip curls up first.
Lord, her smile, it shows so much.
This little girl trying
Trying to break free.
Jesus, that smile, it just glows every time I see her
So why, in pictures, do I not see her?
Oh- God... that beautiful impeccable smile.
The one that lit up my day, my world.
The one that made my heart warm.
The one that stoped tears and made babies laugh.
That could bring pride to her mother's eyes and fear into her father's
That smile--
Is gone, and so is she.
Aug 4, 2017
Aug 4, 2017 at 12:16 PM UTC
I tried to forget you once
I had been without you for longer than I had been with you
and it just felt like it was time to rid myself of you
I spent my time saying "I won't think about him."
If people ask me about him, I will simply say:
I no longer hear from you.
When people tell me that you're going to be somewhere
I'll just not attend, and say something came up.
My food after I was asked how you were.
You, in my head when I drive by ...
Jun 18, 2017
Jun 18, 2017 at 7:47 PM UTC