
forgot i was able
forgoe the sugar cane
horse towed them over the edge
coarse hair
coerced into the trap
willing and able
are you able?
are you billing me?
is this thrilling?
have we been feeling
the same?
come over here
something else over there
i'm forgetful
i'm a disgrace to the top
upper crust societors
upper cut so much science
tons of honor
tons more scholarly journals
hurtled over the canyon wall
carried by the wind to those unlistening
wishing they could hear you
sifting thorugh the river for rocks
to deliver you
giver of too many
stories we already know
tore off all of our clothes
promised tonight would be
different than so many
others i laughed at
others i couldn't have
summer is ours to be
somewhat more into fear
someone to hold you dear
come one come all to hear
believer of something more
deliverer of sudden storms
of folk tail magic token
now open your eyes to your own faults
now look to the sky and know the hawks
are staring down with hungry eyes
they're bearing down they see you in the crowd
falling allover selfish rags
hagship tailors
flag waving tagless sleeve cutters
closing shutters in your mechanism
exposed to low level flash bulbs
just enough to imprint the entire night into something more
we would never remember if not for your loose grip
where you fell to the floor
and
saved another for
the last night you swore you wouldn't take a sip
Jun 25, 2013
Jun 25, 2013 at 11:47 AM UTC
i shouldn't be allowed to like things.
you know what i do.
you've seen.
i've heard.
so shinyprettyprecious.
so new.
this thing.
it makes me want to curl up and die,
i love it so.
let's run the tape back and see that one more time--
one more time--
one more time--
one more time--
one more time--
let's run the tape back--
every once over
every last glance
every 'oh it's so beautiful'
i want to shove my words back down my throat
make sure they're properly digested
it's too perfect.
too good to be true.
certainly too good
for you.
'well you see, this is what your problem is...'
you're stuck in a fantasy, you are
do you not see this?
yes i do.
i know it, and i see it every time, thank you.
you are so wise.
how could i not see?
fuckin' a.
indeed.
i don't need to be reminded.
i am well aware.
i think i've learned enough on my own.
you were there.
you saw.
i told you everything.
you know the tale better than myself,
and it was i who endured the affair.
oh christ.
hey, let's not bring Him into this, okay?
you're right, i apologize.
we know better.
yes we do.
is it as good as when it started?
was it ever that good?
does it need to be?
will this always be this way?
"is this going to be forever?"
oh 'God' i hope.
if there is someone on the other end of this rope
please pull me up.
meet me on the other end
see if we can't
make the most out of this dance floor.
i want to talk until my throat is raw.
you kiss my lips until i swear i saw
my future in a song i never heard before.
the sound reverberates
reverberates
my stomach shakes
heartbeating in my throat
and breaks
into a million tiny pieces
floating above our heads.
better than wearing it on my sleeve
i'll just throw it on the ground for you
to pick it up.
hold it forever.
it's yours.
or raise your foot and bring it down
as you probably should.
maybe all i want is to be miserable
so the pursuit of happiness
will never end.
every day a little better than before
every day a little more hopeful for
what we've promised ourselves we'll find.
a clever trick if you can
believe in your own lies...
the happiest man is
the one who feels
the least discomfort with
the lies he tells himself.
you've become addicted to life
and the pleasures that it brings you
and every day you spend
still breathing
shows your greed for what isn't yours.
and that may be so,
that i'm an addict,
and if it is
i hope i die of an overdose:
happy and a liar.
Apr 2, 2013
Apr 2, 2013 at 2:17 AM UTC
A rude awakening:
A friend’s best impression of
A thousand,
Deep,
Bellowing trombones.
“BWAAAAWWWWP!”
Shake it off.
Walk home and go to bed.
Fasten hat to head:
“Bye everybody.”
(wave)
Good choice on the hat,
‘Tis chilly.
Text her, “Hi,” just because.
Just in case.
Long walk home
Late at night
And still groggy.
Those trombones still ringing in my ears.
I feel new.
Like a kitten.
Every sound on the street inspires shudders.
Cars approaching from behind:
Crescendos dropping into empty ringing silence.
Someone laughs down a dark side street.
Head jerks,
And looks away.
There it is again.
Is it for me?
Walk faster.
I might still be sleeping…
Although I’m pretty sure—what’s that?
A bicycle,
Or the amplified sound of an insect
Cleaning itself.
Where is that shadow coming from?
Is something floating above this intersection?
Just keep walking.
But only after
I push this button
That does nothing.
I guess I’m just a pigeon
Flapping my wings.
But don’t I know it.
How sad is that?
Where’s that Morpheus with my **** pills?
Home base.
Olly olly oxen free.
Apr 1, 2013
Apr 1, 2013 at 2:58 AM UTC
Shred it
Forget it
Leave it where it lies
Toss dead weight aside
Shoot it right between the eyes
It's dead
I loved it for a moment
Now it lies there lifeless
And it's dragging me down
Hold me back
Back
Back against the wall
I'm punching out the bricks one by one
Crumble as the masons cry
The glutton
He needs no introduction
Too much is never enough
They gladly provide
What more could you want?
Nothin's never in short supply
Leave these scraps
Out for rabid dogs
Lapping up like last meals
Glad to have a master
******* never misses one
Eyes always bigger than his innards
What's for dinner's gonna finish him off
Waste not want not
Never heard that one before
He lost everything in the fire
Now he's out to go find more
Things he never had
Thankful he's still breathing
Maybe one last kiss for old time's sake
Now please be quiet the movie's starting
Apr 1, 2013
Apr 1, 2013 at 2:40 AM UTC
you are a fractal
in a sea of branches
you are the air between
the dust that spirals in the sun streams
the decimal point in the equation
the dividing line between oblivion and infinity
you are a loose end
fraying
made of left over dry skin
you are the chemical
you poison my drinking water
you are
the secret ingredient
the last place they'd ever look
you are
the dark matter
the imaginary number I can't wrap my head around
you cure my melancholy
we are
alveoli
we breathe fire
seen through telescopes
we believe we are alone
we'll believe anything they tell us
they won't love you
they can't see you
you are too much
they'd never understand
you don't give
what you don't receive
you give life
as you breathe through me
I see you when my eyes close
I trace your shape on frosted windows
you spark the fire that hijacks my biology
you draw upon my skin with ***** fingernails
your handwriting is embedded in my DNA
your name echoes still
unfamiliar voices without faces
your secret's safe with me
hidden in massive outer space places
untraceable
mastermind configuration
takes ages just to give up out of frustration
Mar 30, 2013
Mar 30, 2013 at 2:53 AM UTC
Move your body move your mind
Still your heart Still your mind
My mind it moves my body
My body moves my mind
My mind it moves
Be still this heart
Beat
Beat my body
Bring my mind out from the inside
I won't crawl my way to your feet at the head of the table
Begging for scraps
I won't walk to your door with the world behind me chanting slogans
With a list of demands
I won't stand up in the middle of class, shaking
And say what was really going on when he painted that
I won't hold you close when we're alone
Whispering there's nothing left for me here
I won't apologize
I'll welcome my sentence
I'll gladly walk to the other side
Find a place to lie
Maybe make some money making nice things
Moving when the ground gives way to the weight of those standing around doing nothing
Move your body move your mind
Still your heart Still your mind
My mind it moves my body
My body moves my mind
My mind it moves
Be still this heart
Beat
Beat my body
Bring my mind out from the inside
Mar 30, 2013
Mar 30, 2013 at 2:44 AM UTC
WHEN DOES FOREVER START
WHEN
does life reveal it's startling plot twists and turns
WHEN DOES NEVER END
DOES
Neverland exist
STOP PLAYING WITH FIRE
DON'T
you see it burns
EVERYTHING IT TOUCHES
THE
weight of the debris
CRUSHES
MY CHEST CAVITY
THROW EVERYTHING YOU HAVE AT ME
I've been training
I CAN TAKE IT
MAKE IT HURT
as much as you want
I WANT TO FEEL SOMETHING
IT WON'T
last forever
WANT TO DO ME A FAVOR
STOP
praying for a savior
TO RISE UP FROM A GRAVE
YOU'RE JUST
digging your own
AND THEY'LL PAVE RIGHT OVER YOU
BECAUSE 'GOD'
told them to
BUT THE 'DEVIL'S' FAVORITE GAME
INVOLVES
using other people's names
FOR HIS OWN PERSONAL GAIN
GULLIBLE's
written on the ceiling
THE WALLPAPER'S PEALING, REVEALING
what you've been
FEELING
all these years but were too afraid to share
FIND SOMEONE WHO CARES
MAYBE
they've been there
STARE THEM IN THE FACE WITHOUT BLINKING
FEEL
your
SELF
sink into a place
THE SPACE BETWEEN THEIR EARS
A
cavern filled with fears
NOW
STEP BACK THROUGH THE MIRROR
ALICE
PLEASE PUT DOWN THE CHALICE
DID YOU ASK WHAT WAS IN IT
THE TRUTH sounds different
DEPENDING HOW YOU SPIN IT
SPIT IT OUT
your mouth is tasteless
LIKE THOSE JOKES TOLD BY THESE FACELESS
PUPPETEERS
dressed in 'wastecoats'
*THESE WORDS I'VE WROTE HAVE NOW BEEN SPOKE
SO LET'S STEP BACK FROM THE MACHINE
AND FIGURE OUT WHAT'S REALLY BROKE.*
Mar 28, 2013
Mar 28, 2013 at 2:36 AM UTC
I take comfort knowing you will never
read this. Even if you are, there's no
way you could ever know. But you will
never read this because you do no exist.
You are what appears when I think
about a person I once knew. A
manifestation meant to keep me
moving forward. Who are you now?
Who have you become without my
eyes, my hands, my lips to taste?
I've written countless letters that you
will never read. I've drawn the sweetest
parts of you as I can remember them
so that when I fall asleep my mind
will assemble them into a version of
you that you have never seen.
If it were me I'd keep you away from
me. I've seen what I have seen, what I
can do, what I have been. I was there,
and I would ruin you. The I that I was,
the I that I see, the I that stares back at
me. Hidden, faded beneath the skin,
an image, an impression, a trace of
someone you might recognize. If you
had eyes to see. Yours are the only two
fit to lay rest upon the scene that falls
before you. As hard as it is to imagine,
as you are, the me that I am, and the
you that I see, fit together perfectly.
Nothing and nothing makes infinity.
Yours and mine makes exactly what
we need it to be. Altogether lovely in
our own little way. You and I've got
nothing that nobody can take away.
Mar 28, 2013
Mar 28, 2013 at 2:29 AM UTC
I want you
I want someone to want me
but
you don't want me
please want me
don't!
I'm broken
you don't want a leaky faucet
that
self repairs
with duct tape and silly putty
I'll recite you the backs of cereal boxes
and
throw away the locks on the doors of our common places
I'll keep a smile on mine if your face feels too tired from the weight of what your mind is speaking out your eyes
Everything.
Every string
that hangs off of well worn sweaters
snags on finger nails and pealing calluses.
I'll draw the curtains
if
and ONLY
IF
you first admit that you
are
BEAUTIFUL.
and i know it.
Your doubt should drown.
We'll drink it down.
Sipping wine only to set the scene
because
WE
already ditched our inhibitions
and
we decided that what was best for each other was to feeds each other's needs with the other's body.
This letter.
This note.
To you.
The long lost women of my dreams
the shape shifting goddess
who floats freely through the open windows of my memories.
Will this be enough to summon spirits to lift me to your level without being beaten to life by a trigger happy judge's gavel?
I built my prison to your specifications.
The measurements may be off
but
the bed...
The bed is warm
and cozy.
And
it fills my heart to see your cheeks turn that rosy
rosy red
that same
rosy red
that fills my heart
and
flows through yours.
Kept inside
but
peaking out in moments of vulnerability.
Shed your false
heavy
layers of security
toss them in the water and...
Flush skin of lips and finger tips
other places where my mind can only wander
wondering where in the world we will
meet again.
It's half past ten or some other hour,
I don't know and you don't mind
because
we're alive!
and our heart beats will set the pace
keeping time in place.
THE STORM IS LOUD
MY VOICE
is softer
now...
Okay--
Alright--
*
I'll give you your space{
But
YOU
BETTER FLY.
And NO MATTER HOW HIGH
NOW IS YOUR CHANCE TO SHOW
to TRULY KNOW the color of your wings.
And
I'll continue singing
because
someone else may be listening.
And
although these tears won't quench my thirst
I'm learning more about myself through my time searching
through my ***** laundry:
Bags of rags
and forgotten junior high and high school notebooks.
Failed jokes took to heart
the stinging silence of laughter kept inside.
Broken funny bones
NUMBED by repetition [repetition]
DUMBED down
COMFORTABLE BEING SUBMISSIVE
Well, I'm not sorry
NOT SORRY
to tell you
this mouse
whose mouth you shut is now stirring
Stirring the ***
Kept at temperature
All the right spices and slices and dices to enlighten you as to what the taste of life is.
..............................................................................................................
Please sit, here is your chair.
I love what you've done with your hair!
let me know if you would like seconds
but
that depends on if you brought your appetite.
I know I'M Hungary [hungry]
but
I won't slurp my soup if it offends you.
We'll take it slow
because
I know that
I still don't know you that well yet.
And I think we both could cool it down on the unnecessary judgement.
I'd really like to know you well, so I won't try to sell you anything that you're not buying.
And call me out if you think I'm lying, but I promise to be as honest as you want.
But it's a two way street
and I know you're probably tired from running down it so long
in which case I would gladly rub your feet
or your shoulders if you'd like to be a bit more discrete.
However, it still may be too soon for that
in which case I'll take a couple steps back.
Do you like music?
How bout dancing?
It doesn't have to be romantic
I just enjoy the feeling when I'm moving to the rhythm in time with other bodies.
Does you mind maybe feel clearer now that your body's moving free
or
are you holding back because you falsely feel that you lack the ability to let the music move
Your soul's of you feet.
Let go
and hold on to me.
I won't let you fall unless you're ready
but I'll catch you
please don't worry.
We are free
here.
Let's just be
here.
Forget fear
and see where that takes us
in a year.
Or more
Or less
Or until you decide
that your dress
is not
the most comfortable thing
you
could be wearing...
I'm just glad we can share the same air
and not care that our hair's getting messy.
But...
This...
is the best I've felt.
In a loooong while...
Spinning out of control
Lying
With you here next to me.
Mar 21, 2013
Mar 21, 2013 at 2:16 AM UTC
we **** in towers
he missed the bus by hours
clean out the garbage pail with high pressure hoses
I want to stick my nose in it and pledge allegiance to its cleanliness
he feels the lows
the lower it goes
god only knows
this world is just for show
the real experience is in the back
we're keeping up appearances and paying taxes
"please be quiet and refrain from smoking
this is the first and last time I'll inform you that I'm only joking"
snip the locks
pour the contents
subdivide the rations according to your favorite fetish
better keep this to ourselves...
Mar 19, 2013
Mar 19, 2013 at 3:39 AM UTC