I HATE HOW MUCH I ******* MISS YOU
LIKE HOW AND WHY DO I HAVE TOO?
YOU WERE MY ROCK YOU KEPT ME SANE
NOW I AM HERE GOING CRAZY AGAIN AND WHERE ARE YOU?
I GET THAT YOU DIDNT LOVE ME I DIDNT LOVE YOU LIKE
THAT EITHER BUT MOTHER ****
YOU COULD AT LEAST LET ME KNOW YOURE ALIVE
****
Jul 24, 2016
Jul 24, 2016 at 1:53 PM UTC
I've spent a lot of my life feeling
unwanted
unneeded
unimportant
I never thought you would make me feel like that
but you have
Mar 10, 2015
Mar 10, 2015 at 1:54 AM UTC
come on just take one breath
just a tiny gasp of air
please for me?
be alive and be here?
maybe reach your hand out?
touch my outstretched fingers
just once just for a moment
i know it hurts
i know that pain
and even though
i wish you wouldn't
you'll feel it again
but right now just for me
take a breath
start to breathe
i'll wait right here
promise not to leave
but for one moment
one tiny second gone
take a breathe and
please hold on
Feb 15, 2015
Feb 15, 2015 at 6:19 PM UTC
the quiet
the loud
the soft
the hard
the hands
the lips
the body pressed like this
touching you
touching me
sighing soft
laughing weak
the painful strokes
the loving smacks
i fear i'll never get
it back
your angel wings
wrapped round me tight
our future perfect and insight
you
Feb 15, 2015
Feb 15, 2015 at 6:11 PM UTC
I have a Question for you...
It'a kind hard to say......
It fills me with sadness.....
I think it everyday.....
It's only a few words......
But volumes do they speak.......
Thinking this question always makes me weak........
OK I'm gonna say it......
Just rip the band-aid off....
1....2....3....
Do you Miss me at All?
Jan 7, 2015
Jan 7, 2015 at 12:31 PM UTC
bare face down panting before the first graze of the soft felt
so soft hiding the harsh sting and throb caused by its many strands
in this moment the ecstasy takes me and my mind flies
over the homes around us to the soaring heavens where you sit
resplendent on a throne of bodies lay at your feet those who
give of themselves to serve and honor the magic that lies in those
soft harsh strands
they leave my heated skin and i brace for that first hard impact
i hold my breath......for you
Dec 2, 2014
Dec 2, 2014 at 2:53 PM UTC
I Miss....The feel of your hands running thru my hair
I Miss....The touch of your lips on my neck
I Miss....The taste of your soul poring over my tongue
I Miss....The click of the keys as you speak to me
I Miss.... The sound of your heart beating under my ear
I Miss You....I Miss You tho you were never mine to begin with.
Nov 26, 2014
Nov 26, 2014 at 9:03 PM UTC
youre happy now
you smile
you laugh
youre happy now
i'm glad
although i'm sad
youre happy now
i get it
dont worry
youre happy now
dont need me
you dont even see me
your happy now
without me
and i'm just here
alone
Nov 16, 2014
Nov 16, 2014 at 7:58 PM UTC
im sorry i am not my sister
im sorry im not strong
like you
im sorry i am in pain and sad
all the time
im sorry i cant breath
im sorry that you hate me
that i've ruined your life
im sorry i dropped out of school
and broke all your plans
im sorry i am not the one you thought
id be in the end
im sorry that i didnt give up my
dreams for you
im sorry that i didnt take care of you for years
that i left and didnt come back
im sorry you had to rely on others
im sorry im dissapointing
im sorry ive broke your heart
im sorry i followed my dreams and left you alone
but mostly im sorry i was born
beacuse i did take care of you
i did save your life
i never asked for anything this just
isnt right
i never told you no i never rose
my voice i gave you everything i never had
a choice
i never followed all my dreams never
got out of this town
and now ill rot here inside
beacuse you've broken me down
so thank you for all your love that
burned right through my soul
thank you and i love you
i dont remember why though
Oct 13, 2014
Oct 13, 2014 at 11:19 PM UTC
im in love
im not in love
you cant love someone
who loves someone else
who is with someone else
who thinks only of them
and never of you
so im not in love then?
ok im in like with a big
******* handful of lust
so not love or like
lust i lust you
thats right right?
so do i
love?
like?
lust?
or is it all just a deep never ending lie?
Oct 13, 2014
Oct 13, 2014 at 11:16 PM UTC