How do you tell someone
that you are tired of your body being nothing
but a burial ground of forgotten memories?
I open myself up,
The scars are there to prove it,
I am searching
For the reasons I feel this way.
Maybe what happened
Is in my bone marrow
Or even my neck,
Words try to seep out-
I don't want to be stitched back together,
I want to find the reason.
Jul 1, 2017
Jul 1, 2017 at 8:59 AM UTC
Loneliness
is echoing throughout my body
and is built into my bones.
It collapses my rib cage
and suffocates my brain.
Loneliness
is weighing my down
like an anchor out at sea.
Sitting upon my shoulders,
Shattering my collar bones.
Loneliness
is crushing me completely.
My wrists can no longer
bear this weight
and my knees are shaking.
Mar 7, 2016
Mar 7, 2016 at 9:41 AM UTC
The first tragedy of the season
slammed me into the ground
like a freight train.
The darkness captured me
into his hands
that smelled of stale cigarettes
and lips with the taste of whiskey.
Hard liquor captured into my lungs
clogging my words
into my throat.
Tar spewing out
of the cracks in the cement
grabbing my legs and sinking me into the ground.
Feb 22, 2016
Feb 22, 2016 at 10:48 AM UTC
I am in a relationship with food
and it is complicated.
A constant tug-of-war
in my mind
fighting each other
as if both sides of my brain
are siblings
and I am the toy.
The constant bickering
throwing me from one side of the spectrum
to the other.
Recovery verse Relapse
is the question.
Am i happier healthy
or not functioning at all?
I am in a relationship with food
and I'm still trying to end it
no matter how many times it wakes me up
in the middle of the night.
Feb 22, 2016
Feb 22, 2016 at 10:40 AM UTC
Your first night without her
is always the hardest.
You turn to find the place she used to lay,
the outline of her body in your sheets,
yet somehow all you find now is emptiness.
To deal with heartbreak
you must cry.
You must cry into your pillow
or weep at the moon.
You must scream until
the pain has left your chest
right in the place
where love used to be.
You must run barefoot
into the woods
and find a field
full of life and lay in the middle of it.
You must feel your body so connected
to the earth
and the nature around you
and you must feel.
To deal with heartbreak
you must feel the broken pieces
of your heart
but not let it damage you.
Feb 17, 2016
Feb 17, 2016 at 9:32 AM UTC
Face first crash,
****** mouth full of gravel,
some say this is how depression hits you.
Others say it is like
a freight train
that collides into them head first
and smashes them against the tracks,
Leaving bits and pieces of themselves
in places they don't belong.
Face first crash into depression,
so unexpected,
always hurts the most.
Feb 17, 2016
Feb 17, 2016 at 9:24 AM UTC
The thoughts in my head
escape through my ear drums
and surround me with my demons.
My bones rattle underneath my flesh
as i try to look them in the eyes
yet i can never look past their feet.
Fear strikes me in more ways than one
and here I am again
trying to fill the voids
inside of me that they scrape away.
Jan 19, 2016
Jan 19, 2016 at 1:03 PM UTC
The car lights
echo behind his eyes
as i see the pain he holds
inside himself quietly.
His fists are clenched against
the steering wheel
as if he's afraid that he may
lose control of himself if he loosens up.
His smile spreads across his face
yet all i see is the sadness
that sits inside his bones.
Nov 24, 2015
Nov 24, 2015 at 9:35 AM UTC
A heavy body slams me
into the ground
and I can feel myself sinking
beneath these waves
that pull me down.
In the darkness
I am surrounded by my demons.
All of them have come to the party
inside my head
that I didn't want to host.
The silent screams
ring in my ears
creating sharp pains
like daggers into my chest.
I try to breathe
and instead I choke on water,
the bitter taste of salt
burning against my throat.
I have built a moat
around me and nobody
has tried to enter my walls,
nobody ever tried at all.
Nov 24, 2015
Nov 24, 2015 at 9:29 AM UTC
The clock is ticking
as I feel my heart
cracking,
slowly breaking open.
My heart pouring
rivers of crimson
for you're on my mind again.
Oct 26, 2015
Oct 26, 2015 at 12:55 PM UTC