"i'm sorry."
the two words you uttered that night
the two words that still haunt me today
and the two words i never knew i needed to hear
did you mean it?
were you sorry for leaving me?
were you sorry for allowing your ego to overcome what we had?
were you sorry for what we had?
well, i'm sorry too.
i'm sorry for fighting for you
even when i knew it wasn't right
i'm sorry for holding you back
when you could've been happier with her
i'm sorry for loving you
when i knew you weren't for me
Oct 12, 2016
Oct 12, 2016 at 8:45 PM UTC
my love,
the probability of you choosing me
is pretty slim
but the probability of me not loving you
is much
much
higher
I'm sorry,
I had to let you go.
My arms might have set you free,
but my heart and mind is still captivated by you.
720 hours
42300 minutes
2538000 seconds
is not enough
for my heart and mind to comprehend losing you
720 hours
42300 minutes
2538000 seconds
and I'm still waiting for you to come back
I'm waiting for you
to realize that you should have chosen me
I'm waiting for you
And I will wait for you
as the sun rises and sets
I will wait for you
amidst the chaos this world holds
I will wait for you
until my heart can no longer hold the pain
Jun 7, 2016
Jun 7, 2016 at 12:59 AM UTC
i see you.
but i don't think you see me.
i see you.
your fingers intertwined with hers.
her head on your shoulders.
and your hearts on your sleeves.
i see you.
and oh how i wanna bury my head in the crook of your neck.
oh how i want you to hold me tight in your arms.
oh how i just want you.
you.
just you.
i just really want you.
Feb 9, 2015
Feb 9, 2015 at 7:54 AM UTC
she's here,
but i don't see her.
she's here,
with her dull eyes
but i don't see her.
she's here,
with her fragile body,
but i don't see her.
she's here,
with stained cheeks,
but i don't see her.
she's here,
not not uttering a single word,
and i still don't see her.
i don't see the girl i used to know.
i don't see her.
her with bright, glittering eyes.
her with an enthusiastic soul within a body.
her with that curved up line in her face.
her with too many words to say.
i just don't see her.
Dec 12, 2014
Dec 12, 2014 at 3:07 AM UTC
i am disgraced by the fact that i used the words "i love you"
but i cannot think of any other set of words that is strong enough
to describe my deep affection for you
i love you
with my frail heart
and my battered soul
i know that..
i love you
for my heart leaps
at the sound of your voice
i love you
for my stomach swirls
at the warmth of your embrace
i love you
for my eyes swell
at the thought of losing you
i
love
you.
Dec 3, 2014
Dec 3, 2014 at 4:02 AM UTC
i have hands but i don't see them.
i don't see them doing something different.
i don't see them creating magnificent pieces.
i don't see them writing for a greater cause.
all i see
is what they destroy.
i see the hearts they break,
the egos they shatter,
the minds they shake,
and the souls they crush.
i have feet, but it doesn't seem like it.
i don't feel my feet marching for a better world.
i don't feel my feet going to places it should.
i don't feel my feet running from the negativity of this place.
the times i do see them,
they're walking to the pits of fire
they're running in a maze
they're falling to the pavement.
Dec 1, 2014
Dec 1, 2014 at 5:33 AM UTC
the sun is up
and it's 7am
i lay here awake,
dreaming of you again.
i dream of
the endless possibilities of the love
we once shared
and the places it could have taken us.
i dream of
the times our hands were clapsed so tight because we never want to let go,
the times we spent together,
and the times when we still loved each other.
i dream of you
for i know that what we had was something beautiful
and we were destined for something wonderful.
i guess it was the distance
that caused our love to reach its end
or maybe we're just lost pieces
that don't fit.
the moon is up
and it's 7am
i'm still laying here
dreaming of you again
Nov 24, 2014
Nov 24, 2014 at 6:20 AM UTC
my first thought was nothing
for that was what you left me with
as blank as a canvas
with no colors to fill it in
you were suppose to be the rainbow
that i looked for, after the rain
but instead,
you became the dark cloud
that took my sunshine away.
Nov 19, 2014
Nov 19, 2014 at 6:52 AM UTC
there were a lot of songs
i used to sing
but i never really understood
what they mean
then You came into my life
and little did i know why
You have turned into the
the melody of my songs
and the beat to my rhythms.
You meant more to me
than i have known,
and You gave me the meaning
that i have been searching for.
Nov 14, 2014
Nov 14, 2014 at 8:05 AM UTC
i
have
lost
you
to the world of darkness
and the broken
i
have
lost
you
in a whirlwind
of pain and misery
i
have
lost
you
to reality
we tried so hard to escape
i
have
lost
you
and
*you have left me
in this pit hole of agony*
Nov 11, 2014
Nov 11, 2014 at 6:46 AM UTC