lostnotfound - Hello Poetry

You becomes I,You become what you always have wanted.I have searched through the seas and the skies for this moment. I close my eyes and imagine I’m floating. Drifting. Falling without moving, if this is what peace felt like. I was finally at ease. I jump and dance in the wind , becoming one with it. I swift my arms around my body and flow through the movement of the wind. Floating back and forth.But you trip and fall. Fall on your own words, fall on your own mistakes, fall on your own wild imagination. Suddenly the ground opens up beneath you and your tumbling, tumbling through the dirt and the soils of the earth. You are Alice in your own Wonderland. Suddenly the loud sounds of busy traffic, horns from mechanical beings erupt you. You smell the heavy smell of chemicals through your nostrils, it burns,burns the surface of your skin. The light , the birds, the hayfields, its all gone. No sunlight, no peace or silence, no moment of ease.

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Aug 6, 2016

Aug 6, 2016 at 9:18 AM UTC

The Tip Of The IceBerg

You becomes I,You become what you always have wanted.I have searched through the seas and the skies for this moment. I close my eyes and imagine I’m floating. Drifting. Falling without moving, if this is what peace felt like. I was finally at ease. I jump and dance in the wind , becoming one with it. I swift my arms around my body and flow through the movement of the wind. Floating back and forth.But you trip and fall. Fall on your own words, fall on your own mistakes, fall on your own wild imagination. Suddenly the ground opens up beneath you and your tumbling, tumbling through the dirt and the soils of the earth. You are Alice in your own Wonderland. Suddenly the loud sounds of busy traffic, horns from mechanical beings erupt you. You smell the heavy smell of chemicals through your nostrils, it burns,burns the surface of your skin. The light , the birds, the hayfields, its all gone. No sunlight, no peace or silence, no moment of ease.

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I don't know anymore, I don't understand myself and my surroundings, I don't like who I am becoming. A moment I'm okay and then in pain. The soft sounds of melodies , flow through my brain, reminding me that I'm not sane. I don't know if this is normal and I couldn't really care, I'm just so sad and I don't understand. I'm scared and it hurts to much to care, I wish I understood this feeling because now.... ...I don't know who I am.

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Oct 20, 2015

Oct 20, 2015 at 10:21 PM UTC

Who am I?

I don't know anymore, I don't understand myself and my surroundings, I don't like who I am becoming. A moment I'm okay and then in pain. The soft sounds of melodies , flow through my brain, reminding me that I'm not sane. I don't know if this is normal and I couldn't really care, I'm just so sad and I don't understand. I'm scared and it hurts to much to care, I wish I understood this feeling because now.... ...I don't know who I am.

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Today I was free, Today I was fine,I remembered what it felt to feel alive. I remembered how it felt to breathe, the air within my lungs. But I knew it wouldn't last this long. I heard whispers at the back of my mind, stopping her to thrive. It didn't matter, today was good.Thats all that was truly on my mind. It was great, today I made my Escape.

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Aug 13, 2015

Aug 13, 2015 at 3:41 AM UTC

Escape

Today I was free, Today I was fine,I remembered what it felt to feel alive. I remembered how it felt to breathe, the air within my lungs. But I knew it wouldn't last this long. I heard whispers at the back of my mind, stopping her to thrive. It didn't matter, today was good.Thats all that was truly on my mind. It was great, today I made my Escape.

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Today I feel okay, I could make it through the day, but still something lingers growing at the back of my mind. It's her .I know it is. Her voice whispers lingering here and there, slowly I start to wonder and I can't see the air. I kick and punch stronger than before, but still she screams "I don't think so you ***** I stare at my reflection and cry and ask why Why do I fight myself, Why does she not die? Today I won another battle, hope gleams in my eyes, Today her voice has weaken.Today I truly tried.

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Jul 29, 2015

Jul 29, 2015 at 10:56 PM UTC

Her Voice

Today I feel okay, I could make it through the day, but still something lingers growing at the back of my mind. It's her .I know it is. Her voice whispers lingering here and there, slowly I start to wonder and I can't see the air. I kick and punch stronger than before, but still she screams "I don't think so you ***** I stare at my reflection and cry and ask why Why do I fight myself, Why does she not die? Today I won another battle, hope gleams in my eyes, Today her voice has weaken.Today I truly tried.

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Everyday she scream's and yell's louder than ever before, I hear her screaming louder inside my head yearning to reach the surface. I fight her as hard as I can slowly,losing inches of myself,As she gets stronger and stronger I lose myself deeper and deeper. The girl I once knew is slowly gone, fading into the darkness now called home,I ponder on whether hope still exist.I wonder if I could ever win this. It's not the fear of others or whats around, but the demon inside my head fighting to get out.I push and kick as hard as I can, but I seem to get tired and drown in quick sand. I'm losing my sight I can no longer see, there's darkness placed all around me.I see the world with my own two eyes, but there it is dead inside, the darkness has become a familiar fate. All I can do now is sit and wait.

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Jul 28, 2015

Jul 28, 2015 at 8:09 AM UTC

Lost Within Me

Everyday she scream's and yell's louder than ever before, I hear her screaming louder inside my head yearning to reach the surface. I fight her as hard as I can slowly,losing inches of myself,As she gets stronger and stronger I lose myself deeper and deeper. The girl I once knew is slowly gone, fading into the darkness now called home,I ponder on whether hope still exist.I wonder if I could ever win this. It's not the fear of others or whats around, but the demon inside my head fighting to get out.I push and kick as hard as I can, but I seem to get tired and drown in quick sand. I'm losing my sight I can no longer see, there's darkness placed all around me.I see the world with my own two eyes, but there it is dead inside, the darkness has become a familiar fate. All I can do now is sit and wait.

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Everyday she scream's and yell's louder than ever before, I hear her screaming louder inside my head yearning to reach the surface. I fight her as hard as I can slowly,losing inches of myself,As she gets stronger and stronger I lose myself deeper and deeper. The girl I once knew is slowly gone, fading into the darkness now called home,I ponder on whether hope still exist.I wonder if I could ever win this. It's not the fear of others or whats around, but the demon inside my heard fighting to get out.I push and kick as hard as I can, but I seem to get tired and drown in quick sand. I'm losing my sight I can no longer see, there's darkness placed all around me.I see the world with my own two eyes, but there it is dead inside, the darkness has become a familiar fate. All I can do now is sit and wait.

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Jul 28, 2015

Jul 28, 2015 at 8:08 AM UTC

Lost Within Me

Everyday she scream's and yell's louder than ever before, I hear her screaming louder inside my head yearning to reach the surface. I fight her as hard as I can slowly,losing inches of myself,As she gets stronger and stronger I lose myself deeper and deeper. The girl I once knew is slowly gone, fading into the darkness now called home,I ponder on whether hope still exist.I wonder if I could ever win this. It's not the fear of others or whats around, but the demon inside my heard fighting to get out.I push and kick as hard as I can, but I seem to get tired and drown in quick sand. I'm losing my sight I can no longer see, there's darkness placed all around me.I see the world with my own two eyes, but there it is dead inside, the darkness has become a familiar fate. All I can do now is sit and wait.

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