lostfaerie - Hello Poetry

My mother always says "you don't need a person to be happy." But I don't think she understands; because when you're not around my heart feels like its caving in, It trys to stop beating but the little reminder of you keeps it going, My limbs feel weak and I fall everytime I try to walk because You're not holding my hand or holding me up, My breathing slows down to just abouy nothing and I pretty much need my inhaler 24/7, I am only happy when I am with you, You keep my heart from caving in and you keep it from stopping, You keep my limbs from going weak, You keep me from falling, you hold me up and hold my hand, You keep my breathing at an almost normal pace, So I guess so my mother is wrong because I need you to be happy.

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Jun 25, 2014

Jun 25, 2014 at 4:01 AM UTC

Mother always says...

My mother always says "you don't need a person to be happy." But I don't think she understands; because when you're not around my heart feels like its caving in, It trys to stop beating but the little reminder of you keeps it going, My limbs feel weak and I fall everytime I try to walk because You're not holding my hand or holding me up, My breathing slows down to just abouy nothing and I pretty much need my inhaler 24/7, I am only happy when I am with you, You keep my heart from caving in and you keep it from stopping, You keep my limbs from going weak, You keep me from falling, you hold me up and hold my hand, You keep my breathing at an almost normal pace, So I guess so my mother is wrong because I need you to be happy.

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most of the time when I try to write about you, all of my words get mixed up and I end up not saying the things I really intend to say, the feelings I try so hard to explain sound so bland and untrue when I read them or write them down, It is very hard to write about you, Because no amount of words written down could muster up enough of who you are, How great you are, Or how much I love you. Words are nothing But Writers block is everything, When I try to write about you. You're the thoughts and ideas, The sky and the ground, But when I try to write you down You're like fire and water I pretty much get nowhere when I try to write about you But that is okay because you're more than words on paper to me..

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Jun 25, 2014

Jun 25, 2014 at 3:59 AM UTC

Worth more than words???

most of the time when I try to write about you, all of my words get mixed up and I end up not saying the things I really intend to say, the feelings I try so hard to explain sound so bland and untrue when I read them or write them down, It is very hard to write about you, Because no amount of words written down could muster up enough of who you are, How great you are, Or how much I love you. Words are nothing But Writers block is everything, When I try to write about you. You're the thoughts and ideas, The sky and the ground, But when I try to write you down You're like fire and water I pretty much get nowhere when I try to write about you But that is okay because you're more than words on paper to me..

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I've only been camping a handful of times and this is the first we've been in about a year and its very nice and the outdoors is very comforting. The stars in the sky shine so bright tonight, they remind me of my lovers smile. The bugs chirp and make so many noises it keeps me up, at late hours. The weather is hot and its humid so my hair sticks to my face and I sweat. I have to *** so bad but everyone is asleep and the bathrooms are unbearably disgusting. It took us almost an hour to set the tent up and we had hamburgers and hotdogs for dinner. The bonfire was warm. I can't wait to get out and go swimming in the lake later. Camping is alright.

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Jun 22, 2014

Jun 22, 2014 at 4:58 AM UTC

very dumb thoughts about camping today

I've only been camping a handful of times and this is the first we've been in about a year and its very nice and the outdoors is very comforting. The stars in the sky shine so bright tonight, they remind me of my lovers smile. The bugs chirp and make so many noises it keeps me up, at late hours. The weather is hot and its humid so my hair sticks to my face and I sweat. I have to *** so bad but everyone is asleep and the bathrooms are unbearably disgusting. It took us almost an hour to set the tent up and we had hamburgers and hotdogs for dinner. The bonfire was warm. I can't wait to get out and go swimming in the lake later. Camping is alright.

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i love you i love your voice even at 4 a.m. when you're so tired its raspy because it is my favorite sound i love your smile even if you fake it because it could light up the whole town i love your laugh even though you think its obnoxious because its a nice sound in my ears i love your eyes even though you wish they were any color but green and you hate the dark circles underneath because they're like nobody elses mossy and obvious that you're tired and can't sleep i love your hair even though you cut it because you don't because its soft and you let me play with it i love your tummy even though you'd like to lose weight because its cute and pudgy i like your personality even though you don't know why because its original i like how you're complicated even though you question why i do i like how you make me fall in love with you even more each day because i would have never thought that was possible i like it that you don't always agree with me because its okay to argue every now and then i like how it is so easy for you to make me laugh or make me cry because the emotions you give me are important the way you make me feel is extraordinary you're extraordinary, important you're so interesting like the stars in the sky or the footprints at a crime scene no matter what you see as a flaw I'll always find something great about it you're so much more than what you think you are you're not just plaster on a wall you're bright, colorful, paint you're worth everything in this world and everything more than this world if you're lost that's okay I'll take your hand and guide you into my heart climb in carve a niche let it be your home i promise it'll be warm and safe and you'll never feel like something less than bright, colorful paint i love you.

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Jun 21, 2014

Jun 21, 2014 at 2:32 PM UTC

you're bright, colorful paint.

i love you i love your voice even at 4 a.m. when you're so tired its raspy because it is my favorite sound i love your smile even if you fake it because it could light up the whole town i love your laugh even though you think its obnoxious because its a nice sound in my ears i love your eyes even though you wish they were any color but green and you hate the dark circles underneath because they're like nobody elses mossy and obvious that you're tired and can't sleep i love your hair even though you cut it because you don't because its soft and you let me play with it i love your tummy even though you'd like to lose weight because its cute and pudgy i like your personality even though you don't know why because its original i like how you're complicated even though you question why i do i like how you make me fall in love with you even more each day because i would have never thought that was possible i like it that you don't always agree with me because its okay to argue every now and then i like how it is so easy for you to make me laugh or make me cry because the emotions you give me are important the way you make me feel is extraordinary you're extraordinary, important you're so interesting like the stars in the sky or the footprints at a crime scene no matter what you see as a flaw I'll always find something great about it you're so much more than what you think you are you're not just plaster on a wall you're bright, colorful, paint you're worth everything in this world and everything more than this world if you're lost that's okay I'll take your hand and guide you into my heart climb in carve a niche let it be your home i promise it'll be warm and safe and you'll never feel like something less than bright, colorful paint i love you.

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I think back to last summer when everything seemed okay, but just under the surface, everything wasn't. I wasn't truly happy with anything. I'd stay out of the house till 3 a.m. with the boys, getting high and pretending I was an explorer. I lost so many people that summer, but still had the boys, we'd get high every night so high it was like we were forever stuck in the clouds. I got addicted to nicotine that summer, the bitter taste of sadness in my mouth and reminders of everything bad. I turned to getting high and nicotine instead of self harm and thought everything would be better. But I was wrong. I wanted a cigarette again and again and again. I wanted to be high again and again and again. I was still harming myself all over again, I didn't care and neither did the boys as long as I was chilling with them it didn't matter about our health. And I think that's why I got so lost last summer, because I found friends that didn't care, I didn't care.

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Jun 20, 2014

Jun 20, 2014 at 11:08 PM UTC

Last summer.

I think back to last summer when everything seemed okay, but just under the surface, everything wasn't. I wasn't truly happy with anything. I'd stay out of the house till 3 a.m. with the boys, getting high and pretending I was an explorer. I lost so many people that summer, but still had the boys, we'd get high every night so high it was like we were forever stuck in the clouds. I got addicted to nicotine that summer, the bitter taste of sadness in my mouth and reminders of everything bad. I turned to getting high and nicotine instead of self harm and thought everything would be better. But I was wrong. I wanted a cigarette again and again and again. I wanted to be high again and again and again. I was still harming myself all over again, I didn't care and neither did the boys as long as I was chilling with them it didn't matter about our health. And I think that's why I got so lost last summer, because I found friends that didn't care, I didn't care.

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When I think about our future, I think about lounging on the couch, Sunday afternoon, watching our favorite t.v. show and eating pizza hut in our underwear; because we were too lazy to cook dinner and we like being comfy. I think about playing hide-n-seek, tag, and many other childish games because deep down we'll never truly grow up. I think about having our own privacy, exploring each others bodies like they're undiscovered art at the bottom of the ocean. I think about having to wake up early for work, how we'd kiss goodbye and say "I love you." (we'd always say "I love you." too much) I think about how I'd always call during lunch breaks, and if you happened to not answer I'd leave a voicemail just so you could hear my voice and know I was thinking of you. I think about getting home late, running through the front door and yelling "Honey, I'm home!" at the top of my lungs; being showered in kisses and being carried to bed. I think about how I'd make up silly rules like "No clothes allowed!" how you'd just laugh at me for being such a dork, but you'd still follow the rule. You'd strip down to nothing then pick me up and carry me to our bedroom and take my clothes off of me, laughing when you fumbled with my bra strap and me laughing along as I helped you. I think about how after making love we'd just lay there together and sleep. Two messes all tangled up in bed sheets. I think about how some nights we'll keep each other up late at night, talking for hours about anything and everything. I think about how we'll treat each other like we're a king and a queen living in a castle for all eternity. I think about how we'll fight- not a lot, but believe me we will. Though of course, with a fight, will always come a make-up. And boy, will we make-up. We'll cry and hold each other no matter how tough life gets. We're invincible, me and you.

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Jun 20, 2014

Jun 20, 2014 at 9:11 PM UTC

When I think about our future...

When I think about our future, I think about lounging on the couch, Sunday afternoon, watching our favorite t.v. show and eating pizza hut in our underwear; because we were too lazy to cook dinner and we like being comfy. I think about playing hide-n-seek, tag, and many other childish games because deep down we'll never truly grow up. I think about having our own privacy, exploring each others bodies like they're undiscovered art at the bottom of the ocean. I think about having to wake up early for work, how we'd kiss goodbye and say "I love you." (we'd always say "I love you." too much) I think about how I'd always call during lunch breaks, and if you happened to not answer I'd leave a voicemail just so you could hear my voice and know I was thinking of you. I think about getting home late, running through the front door and yelling "Honey, I'm home!" at the top of my lungs; being showered in kisses and being carried to bed. I think about how I'd make up silly rules like "No clothes allowed!" how you'd just laugh at me for being such a dork, but you'd still follow the rule. You'd strip down to nothing then pick me up and carry me to our bedroom and take my clothes off of me, laughing when you fumbled with my bra strap and me laughing along as I helped you. I think about how after making love we'd just lay there together and sleep. Two messes all tangled up in bed sheets. I think about how some nights we'll keep each other up late at night, talking for hours about anything and everything. I think about how we'll treat each other like we're a king and a queen living in a castle for all eternity. I think about how we'll fight- not a lot, but believe me we will. Though of course, with a fight, will always come a make-up. And boy, will we make-up. We'll cry and hold each other no matter how tough life gets. We're invincible, me and you.

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The sun is out today. Do you remember the day I ran around outside with joy? The smile I had on my face? My uncontrollable laughter? The way I kissed your cheek and asked "isn't today lovely?" You just nodded and I could tell that you were uninterested. I asked you what you would like to do, but you just shrugged... You seemed a million miles away from me and I remember just sitting down next to you, trying to figure out where you were... The next day you disappeared, the sun didn't shine, it rained all day, I didn't know what to do. How could you leave me? Why didn't you tell me you felt so wrong inside? Why didn't you let me help? I'm so sorry... It's been a year now, I'm still having trouble coping, you left me, now I'm going to leave too..

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Jun 20, 2014

Jun 20, 2014 at 8:50 PM UTC

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The sun is out today. Do you remember the day I ran around outside with joy? The smile I had on my face? My uncontrollable laughter? The way I kissed your cheek and asked "isn't today lovely?" You just nodded and I could tell that you were uninterested. I asked you what you would like to do, but you just shrugged... You seemed a million miles away from me and I remember just sitting down next to you, trying to figure out where you were... The next day you disappeared, the sun didn't shine, it rained all day, I didn't know what to do. How could you leave me? Why didn't you tell me you felt so wrong inside? Why didn't you let me help? I'm so sorry... It's been a year now, I'm still having trouble coping, you left me, now I'm going to leave too..

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i miss you as the rain pours my tears follow falling to the ground in a storm of emotions

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Jun 20, 2014

Jun 20, 2014 at 8:42 PM UTC

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i miss you as the rain pours my tears follow falling to the ground in a storm of emotions

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Curse you bad habits I have bitten my fingernails down to the nub Curse you bad habits I cannot shut my mouth and words spill out Curse you bad habits food calls my name so I eat and eat Curse you bad habits my hair is just about dead I have dyed it so much Curse you bad habits I've found a love so strong and I'll never let go Curse you bad habits.

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Jun 20, 2014

Jun 20, 2014 at 8:40 PM UTC

Curse.

Curse you bad habits I have bitten my fingernails down to the nub Curse you bad habits I cannot shut my mouth and words spill out Curse you bad habits food calls my name so I eat and eat Curse you bad habits my hair is just about dead I have dyed it so much Curse you bad habits I've found a love so strong and I'll never let go Curse you bad habits.

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Bless you my dear for showing me a love that is so deep not even the ocean can compare Bless you my dear for the happiness inside of me that dwells to escape everytime I see your face Bless you my dear for the comfort of your arms and the warmth of your words Bless you my dear for being there for me even when I'm not there for you Bless you my dear.

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Jun 20, 2014

Jun 20, 2014 at 8:37 PM UTC

Blessing.

Bless you my dear for showing me a love that is so deep not even the ocean can compare Bless you my dear for the happiness inside of me that dwells to escape everytime I see your face Bless you my dear for the comfort of your arms and the warmth of your words Bless you my dear for being there for me even when I'm not there for you Bless you my dear.

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