i found you
when i wasn’t even
searching
a breath of fresh air
after being in deep water
for so long
a running and laughing down an empty hallway
type of love
a love where i don’t say that i’m sad
you just feel it
a love so pure
that nothing needs to be said
it is known.
May 6, 2021
May 6, 2021 at 8:42 AM UTC
i have struggled to make decisions
all my life
so they’ve always been made for me
what i wear
what haircut i have
what i eat
indecisiveness has always been
my worst enemy
but i chose you
and that’s the only choice
that i am sure of
the decision was mine
nobody made it for me
i own it.
Dec 31, 2020
Dec 31, 2020 at 12:01 AM UTC
sometimes
the person who you'd do anything for
who you feel that you can't breathe without
who you love so deeply
is the worst thing for you
you can be in love with someone
but that doesn't mean you're good for each other
but it's because you love each other
that you can't go on.
Mar 26, 2020
Mar 26, 2020 at 1:17 AM UTC
because i paint a pretty picture
slight smirks
and jokes
that make your eyes squint and your body fall over
compliments
that illuminate your face
and make you shuffle in your seat
touch
that makes you quiver
but that makes you feel loved
a relationship where you feel beautiful
but not just in someone’s bed
it’s easy to fall in love on the surface of me
because it’s the only thing you see
but as soon as you scratch through it
it’s already too late to get out.
Feb 23, 2020
Feb 23, 2020 at 11:26 PM UTC
heartbreak doesn't have to look like it does in movies
it can be quiet
even silent
it can be all on the inside
with smiles and laughter
covering up the aching in your chest
and the sound of your ribs crushing
when you know that it's over
don't let anyone let you feel inadequate
or make you feel that
your feelings aren't valid
i promise you
they are
let them out
feel them freely
heal
and become the best person you can be.
Dec 23, 2019
Dec 23, 2019 at 9:22 PM UTC
look up when it's raining
you'll see my eyes
and you know it
the damp ground
will remind you of what you did
and how it made me feel
i was promised forever
but how long is it?
a month?
a year?
five?
all in all
our definitions weren't the same
and that's okay
because i know you'll always think of me
when the skies are grey.
Dec 23, 2019
Dec 23, 2019 at 9:15 PM UTC
i still drink coffee
even though it makes my hands shake
and my anxiety spike
i still smoke
even if it burns my lungs
and turns them to tar
i still drink
even though it makes my throat burn
and makes my words slur
i still love you
even though my heart begs for me to stop
and my mind can't take it anymore.
Dec 23, 2019
Dec 23, 2019 at 9:05 PM UTC
nobody knows what they want
not when they're 17
and not even when they're 40
people look for their best option
whatever is going to fill the void in their heart
at that moment
whether it be a job
a sport
a hobby
or a person
some people don't always choose correctly in the moment
it's hard to know what you want
to decide what's best
that's why so many people choose wrong
because
nobody knows what they want
not until
it's right in front of them
Oct 29, 2019
Oct 29, 2019 at 9:57 PM UTC
someone told me today
"i've never seen you without a smile on your face
you always have a front"
i laughed at her words
i thought
that's how i have to be
i can't be bringing people down with me
drowning them in my sadness
i need to make others happy
it's like she read my mind
because she smiled and said
"sometimes you need to take down that front you put on
take care of yourself"
i hardly knew how to do that
and that's when it dawned on me
i need to put myself first
i am a priority
not an option
i am my first choice
not last
i am my best friend
no one else.
Oct 29, 2019
Oct 29, 2019 at 9:47 PM UTC
i think there is someone in our lifetime
that makes us feel emotions
we didn't think were possible
someone you'll just love and love
with everything in you
and you won't look for them
you won't meet them
intentionally
they'll come into your life
at the strangest time
when you least
expect it
Aug 7, 2019
Aug 7, 2019 at 3:18 PM UTC