It's another year coming to a close -
A time to give and sit around
Talking about all the wonders
Unexpected, and crossed fingers for - alike
A new box we now have filled
With brand new moments
And snapshots of memories
Nights we danced like crazy
And those we spent staying up talking, far crazier
Dreaming and stretching out our fingers
To grasp the distant future
And hold the best of new days close
A whole new box of all wonders
And reminders of when we were most human
To open and sift through, picking apart
And piecing together the parts
Of our lives and holding on
To the fewest, the brightest
And those we can't live without
On the bleakest of days and the longest of nights
For all we have is this firecracker of a life
The last five seconds between
Lighting and setting off
And on to the explosion we become
We've spent our years sitting and holding on
To one last glimmer of hope
A slow burn, simmering
Almost never going off
And right before we've all but given up
We're taken aback
By the loud crack and the dancing of lights,
Falling embers and exposing new dimensions
Now there is more to discover
Time to spend
And create
The next great adventure,
A hopeful new year, lasting long and
Filled with sights and stories
Two in the morning worries sitting on the roof,
Long swigs and watching the faint trail of smoke
Days for searching and nights spent answering
Questions that make up an existence
And those that give life
To the new year
And how it posits,
Theorizes all three sixty five new ways
The odds are fought, not so much as even defied
But goes down among storied days
It remains and awaits
With the grace of kind hearts and warm cheer
To be remembered and placed
On the footnotes and small scraps
Of history and the infinite loop
Of memories that together, create.
Jan 3, 2017
Jan 3, 2017 at 7:56 PM UTC
all we have are
all those stolen moments -
late nights and
wee hours of the morning
long walks and talks
that got me wondering
are these all we're ever getting -
the laughter in the backseat,
and little exchanges in the crowd
you showing up unannounced
or driving by late at night to hang out
the casual arm around my shoulder
or your guiding hand on my back
when you peeled me off the sidewalk
and drove me around campus
sat down beside me
on the steps
of that hallowed hall
at three in the morning
after everyone made sure
to have me remember them
and so I was kept more than drunk
when I gave you a hug
then the world spun around me
out of alcohol,
or perhaps the end swirling around
and as I made my way inside
I kept your eyes on mine
even as I closed the door
because I had this plane to catch
while you, your plans to draft
and between us our entire lives
so, maybe, all those moments
are all we're ever really getting
Jul 8, 2015
Jul 8, 2015 at 2:13 PM UTC
north
&
north
we pull
each other
in,
always a little
more
towards
each
other
yet just when we feel -
we've come
too close
we
push
each
other
away
to circle around
the inevitable,
the lofty,
all things up there -
mighty
and dancing
right above our heads,
making us
a little
less
possible
with each
turn
and
twirl
and
the steps
forward
and
back
we just can't seem
to take
altogether
now,
north
to
north.
Sep 21, 2014
Sep 21, 2014 at 3:58 PM UTC
how we remember
and tell the same
stories and
jokes and
all those
grand moments
and little things
that always make us
laugh -
maybe
we'll be like this
even when we're
eighty-two,
never mind
that no one else
understands us
because we'll have each other
and our
moments
together
Aug 26, 2014
Aug 26, 2014 at 3:17 AM UTC
outside the door
heavy with leaving
our story barely closing
Aug 2, 2014
Aug 2, 2014 at 1:04 PM UTC
the world is
s p i n n i ng
madly,
around us
and I'm down
to my last puff
in a row of shots
the last drop
but let's linger
a little
longer -
we'll play our songs
on repeat
and sometime later,
maybe when we think
we're done talking
and telling
and recalling
all those moments
that got us
f a l l i ng
I'll get up,
take your hand
and pull you up
to your feet
I'll reach out to you -
put my arms around
your neck
and let yours
embrace
my waist
I'll ask you
do you
remember
how we swayed
together
and
will you
even after
this is
over
or maybe,
just maybe,
I won't
perhaps
I'll ask you this instead
close your eyes
*count
one
two
three*
I'll tell you,
make a wish
leaning in,
I'll whisper,
you can always
ask for this
and right before
you're about to
finally
believe,
just as how
you had me
r e e l i n g
I'll
slowly
slip away
and
leave
Aug 1, 2014
Aug 1, 2014 at 3:25 PM UTC
There we were, side by side
With our arms around each other
Wearing the 1am madness
Of flushed cheeks
And tired feet,
Weary hands
And tainted breaths
That can only come
From fiery drinks
And fancy words
That we danced with in the streets
Skipping around
In
Random
Beats
Illuminating the darkness
Under the faint glow
Of faraway street lamps
With our stories in the sun
And dares in the dark
Together we while the worries away
And never wish
For the hours to hurry and say
That we've got to get up and leave
And put all those behind us
Because there lies an honesty
In the tales told at dawn
That is elusive during the day
When there is more light
As we speak in riddles
Masked in mirthless giggles
So we raise our glasses -
In the face of this madness
To the wobbling of knees
And falling face flat
As we collapse in heaps of uncertainty
That beholds the realm
Of storied infinity.
Aug 1, 2014
Aug 1, 2014 at 2:23 PM UTC
Most nights
I don't spend sleeping
I lie awake
I don't feel,
It doesn't feel
Like I'm here -
Lying on this bed
For hours on end
Thrashing and turning
And thrashing again
Left to right,
Flat on my back,
On my stomach,
Then on my back
Staring
At whatever darkness
I could make out of the ceiling
And beyond, whatever hovered
Right above it
I wish I could lie
Swear it
By the stars and the sky
Say -
I haven't got a clue
As to what's keeping me up
But I'm past the point of untruth
And I've already come too far now
So this one I'll let out
I know as much
It's everything -
***** dishes in the kitchen,
Bills that need payment,
Reports to be written
Letters to be sent
Dates to be set
My parents' health
My siblings' texts
A friend who needs my dress -
And off my mind wanders
Farther,
Much farther
Than I would want it to
Than I know it should
Up north, down south,
West to east and back again -
Wherever you lie at night
Or sit during the day
Wondering about
*How tall is that skyscraper you're building
Still no cheese in your popcorn
Sunday Star Wars marathons
And James Bond impressions
Three cups of coffee
And a steaming mug of tea a day
Are you still the same
That pub that had our drinks out
Before we even got there
Does it still stand
Two blocks away
Like me
Do you still
Lie awake and
Think most at night*
But
More than a different place, is
A different time
I cannot keep up
One of us
Could still be in 2008
Replaying every single moment
The day we met,
Lost
In the littlest details -
The green of your sweater
Hair right above the shoulder
And the faintest of crinkles
Your eyes showed
The first time you smiled -
But the other, already
Ten, twenty years down the road
Pieces picked up along the way -
How you liked your steak
The bed you never make
Oreos when you're up at midnight
Beer for conversations
And ***** for celebrations -
Now just tucked away
In a tiny box you keep
Under your bed
Or perhaps,
In one of those storage spaces
You now rent
For all those trinkets
That no longer suit
Your sharp, new apartment
Or maybe
(I especially like this theory)
Thrown away
Never to be found again
Oh, really, I wouldn't know
And there's no way how
After all
It's five in the morning
My time
And in yours,
Wherever you are now
Do they still
Keep track of time
The same way they do today
In 2008?
Jul 31, 2014
Jul 31, 2014 at 2:49 AM UTC
The way I would take, say,
Contraband
Something I'm not allowed to have
But best administered in small doses
Not even on a regular basis
Drawn to you, like faint, bright lights on a dark night
Blinking at the far end of the road
Waiting, but
I'm not even sure if they're real
I'd take you all in
Clear waters I would drown myself in
And never having to come up for air
I'd rather breathe you in
Sweet familiar scent of 3am walking around the city,
Endless 2am rooftop conversations,
And the 4am anticipation of sunrises
In last night's clothes of drinks and dancing
To the music of our laughter filling the air and
Shots of attraction that burned our throats,
Quenched our thirst
But left us still
So parched and wanting more
Than electric shocks of desire quickly coursing through our veins
Giving me nostalgic chills twenty years down the road
In tomorrows we won't share
Because we'd rather fall off cliffs now and
Dance around the inevitable
Tonight
And all those nights
As we break free of all our memories
The photographs, little notes in library books, restaurant receipts, and movie tickets
All the little snippets of all those moments
We'll always have
But can never take to
Tomorrow and
All the way down that road
So here we'll part
Sometime
When you're lost
In another long story you're recalling
In great detail, for my sake
I'll take a left
And you won't even see me disappear
Hey,
I'll tell myself
Over
And over
Again
At least I get to keep you
In the faintest of afterglows.
Jul 30, 2014
Jul 30, 2014 at 1:19 PM UTC
we talked about our dreams -
as if they were stars
we could pluck out
from the sky,
like we could reach for them
anytime
to hold
in our hands.
Jul 30, 2014
Jul 30, 2014 at 4:55 AM UTC