Why do i feel alone in a relationship thats supposed to be build on two people
I have never felt lonelier than when i was begging for your attention
Your effort to call or text or talk
Your effort of telling me i am the only one for you
When you said i was everything and more
When it went from goodmorning i hope your day is amazing i love you so much
To
Goodmorning i love you have a nice day
to
Goodmorning i love you
To
Goodmorning love you
To
Morning ly
To
Gm
To
Apr 10
Apr 10, 2026 at 10:08 PM UTC
When she looks at me
I forget how to breath
When she smiles at me
I feel like I fall
Her short, fluffy, brown hair
Framing her face
Her hazel eyes
Filled with stars
I don’t know why I never noticed
The way she smiles
And the way she laughs
But now I can’t get it out of my head
Mar 8, 2021
Mar 8, 2021 at 5:18 PM UTC
I will never have the privilege to call you mine.
I will never hold you in my arms.
I will never kiss you.
I will never have those long talks in the middle of the night with you.
I will never wake up laying next to you.
I will see you being happy without me.
With someone that isn’t me.
And I just have to accept that we were never meant to be.
Mar 8, 2021
Mar 8, 2021 at 5:06 PM UTC
I am feeling empty
like the trees
that have thrown off
their leaves
Dec 26, 2020
Dec 26, 2020 at 3:22 PM UTC
Why do I feel empty
When I've had plenty?
Didn't know when to take the last shot
Or when it was enough
All I want to do is to give up
No more strength in my body
To lift a single cup
Always trying to be someone I'm not
I've grown tired of pretending
And tired of existing.
I am empty
I am lost
I am broken.
I am sad and I am miserable
But no one listens to me
Please just listen to me!
I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!
Please!
Just listen to me.
Dec 16, 2020
Dec 16, 2020 at 6:57 PM UTC
I miss your eyes when they sparkle of joy
I miss your smile when it lights up my world
I miss your voice when you tell me you care
I miss the thought of you just being there
I'm longing for the feeling of your touch
The feeling of being in your arms and knowing I'm enough
I'm longing for you to pull me close
And place feathery kisses on the front of my nose.
I want you to lock your lips on mine
And you to tell me that we'll be just fine
I want you to hold me tight
And to love me with all your might.
I wish I could tell you how I really feel
But we both have layers that we still need to peel
Before I can open up completely
And our encounters can be more than just briefly.
I wish I could tell you all this
Everything at once and not only in small bits
I wish I wouldn't only imagine
And that I would be your only attraction.
Cause I can't stand the feeling of being far from you
Yet I can't close the distance that's between us two
Seeing another in your embrace
I can't help the tears from falling down my face.
Wishing your words were more than empty
And that we'd talk when you had less than plenty
But I guess my wishes will never be heard
Leaving me to miss you with only half a heart.
Nov 2, 2020
Nov 2, 2020 at 10:36 AM UTC
The moment that I met you
Was the moment I let myself
Drown in your eyes
And drown in your words
Unable to breath
But not willing to swim to the surface
Scared of losing you?
Or scared of losing myself?
Why am I afraid?
Am I actually suffering?
The cold water is a comfort
Flowing around me and hugging me
Not being able to breath
I can give up
If it means I can be this close to you
And let myself drown in your eyes
The moment that I met you
Was the moment I saw a light
You gave me a smile
And I saw something shine so very bright
You gave me hope
You gave me comfort
You gave me a light
You gave me something bitter and sweet.
Sweet and bitter.
Joy but still fear
Fear of losing myself?
Or fear of losing you?
But why am I still afraid?
Afraid of drowning?
Not really
Afraid of fighting and reaching the surface?
Yes
But why?
Feeling the light slowly vanishing
And the darkness creeping up
Being ****** farther and farther down
The surface farther and farther away
up there
somewhere.
Why can't i swim?
Even though I really want to?.
I want to breath
I want to fight
I want to see and feel your light
But i guess it's too late now
It's dark down here.
The water is cold
And it is hurting my skin
My lungs are filled with water
I'm unable to breath
I am afraid of drowning
Now I know for sure
I should have done this
I should have done that
I should have put my trust in you
And given in to you.
Now I have nothing left
Now I have lost myself
And the worst part is
That I have lost you as well.
Nov 1, 2020
Nov 1, 2020 at 9:43 AM UTC
Your eyes tell me how you really feel
The once bright stars I used to see
Are now lost in your blue eyes sea
The glowing is gone
And I know
I will never have you
The way that I used to
Oct 31, 2020
Oct 31, 2020 at 12:25 PM UTC
Dear Mum,
You gave birth to me so you are my Mum.
You raised me so you are my Mum.
You taught me things so you are my Mum.
No matter what, you are my Mum.
You are my Mama
My Mutti
My Mother
and my Mum.
You make me feel bad and guilty.
You tell me what you bought for me and what you made me.
You criticize the way I look and control how much I eat.
You tell me when I gain weight and tell me not to cheat.
You say I am no good, when I do something wrong.
But you tell me you love me and that you only want me to be strong.
Maybe I have stopped knowing
What the meaning of love is.
Maybe this is just your way of showing
Thinking I'd give you cheers and happy tears.
But you tell me not to cry.
It makes You look weak.
You tell me to **** it up
And not to speak.
Whenever something happens you stand by.
You only watch while I apply.
Concealer and foundation to cover up.
On my skin another layer of makeup.
Covering up the signs of sleepless nights
Not showing to the outside what really happens at night.
The blue and purple spots on my skin
Caused by my own will and sinn.
You wonder why my brother never calls
Calling him ungrateful and starting new brawls.
Not with him but with me
Hating that he is living carefree.
Free from your words and actions
And free from your reactions.
You say that you have it oh so tough.
And that we give you a time that is oh so rough.
You always awake my sympathy
Making me a prisoner while you hold the key.
We should be grateful to have a mother like you.
That we’re not going through the same things you went through.
You are so much better than your own mother
And you most definitely are better than your own father.
You might not do the ***** work yourself.
But still I feel ***** hearing your words.
Manipulating me left and right
Making me shiver and cry at night.
I have nothing left for you than feeling sorry.
You could’ve done things different but instead you chose to worry.
Worry about your image and what people say
Too focused on having the perfect family image to portray.
In a few years I will be leaving this place you call home
I’ll finally be free and leave you to figure out your own syndrome.
And one thing I know for sure is that my life
Will leave you not being a mother but merely a wife.
Oct 31, 2020
Oct 31, 2020 at 12:17 PM UTC