Eyes wander
Through a crowd
As I search for someone who
Is not as loud
As I search for someone who
I am allowed
To touch, to feel, and
Unashamedly gaze
Dec 1, 2024
Dec 1, 2024 at 11:55 AM UTC
If foundations were people
If the houses on top
Were those they love
If the builders and contractors
Were a person’s maker
What does it mean
When the foundation
Is set up to fail
With ****** concrete
And cracks forming too soon
When the house realizes
Instability upon which it sits
It will empty and
The foundation is left alone
Needlessly weighed down
When it topples
A few decades later
Lasting shorter than it should
Do we blame the builders
Do we blame the foundation
Oct 23, 2023
Oct 23, 2023 at 6:11 PM UTC
It's said that coffee
Is a bitter drink
Today I swear
It's the sweetest
Oct 18, 2023
Oct 18, 2023 at 4:10 PM UTC
I am of my mother
Tired hands shake
When the days are long
Letting others take
If I'm not strong
Unable to truly hate
Shoulders that carry
Insurmountable weight
I am of my father
Stubborn, obstinate
A ridiculous bother
Against any threat
A mind that curdles
When it is bored
And a heart that hides
When it is adored
I cannot leave
And run far away
From the me I perceive
The price I must pay
To be human is steep
More than my sum
Yet it's all I’ve become
In this body I keep
Jun 8, 2023
Jun 8, 2023 at 9:50 PM UTC
Who told you
To handle me
Like a carpenter handles a saw?
I am made of glass
and I swear
If you love me
I will break.
I will shatter
into a million tiny pieces
and never be the same.
Repaired things are only weaker
never stronger
and I, my friend,
have been loved
too many times.
Jun 3, 2023
Jun 3, 2023 at 7:46 PM UTC
I’m ok, I swear it.
(I’m lying.)
Don’t look at me like that.
(I know you’re seeing through this.)
Yes, that’s my real smile and no ********* I don’t want to talk about it.
(Because you don’t want to hear it.)
There’s nothing to talk about!! I’m doing just fine.
(I’m really not.)
I don’t look sad this is my normal face.
(I just spent 20 minutes crying in the shower.)
Can you just leave me alone?
(Please don’t. I don’t want to be alone.)
No, you don’t need to stay, thank you though.
(Insist on it, please mean it.)
Okay, see you tomorrow!
(Maybe not.)
Apr 1, 2021
Apr 1, 2021 at 11:26 PM UTC
Unfocused and lazy
Tired and vision hazy
Somehow they never see
Who you could be
You’re too strong
You’ve waited too long
Now all you do
Is just to get through
You cant seem to think
And thoughts always sink
Into the black of your mind
Harder and harder to find
Caffeine running fast
The high doesn’t last
Slowly slowing down
Just starting to drown
Dec 24, 2020
Dec 24, 2020 at 5:04 PM UTC
Waiting for the drugs to kick in
Waiting for them to knock me out
Winning the battle is all its about
Demons that destroy and wreck
Beat me to the bone
And wring my neck
I want to be free
I want to be left alone
I beg and I plead
Yet here I am,
Still me
So I take the pills
I think I need
Sep 4, 2020
Sep 4, 2020 at 2:57 PM UTC
I’m not okay
Maybe this time
It's okay to say
I’m not doing well
But none of you
Could ever tell
I’m dying inside
It would be better
If I just cried
Losing control
My tears blurring
Taking their toll
I’m not alone
But my eyes are
Hardened like stone
I’m not angry
Only sorry
That I am me
Apr 14, 2020
Apr 14, 2020 at 11:42 PM UTC
You cry into the night
Your eyes so puffy, you can no longer see
Clutching your pillow with all your might
But it's not who you want it to be
Closing your eyes and imagining with all you’ve got
That she’s still really there
And hasn’t left you and forgot
That she said she would care
You’re so mad it's consuming
But the sorrow is your undoing
For anger doesn’t bring tears
Except when the sadness appears
Let’s cry and cry and shout
And just get it all really out
Maybe it’ll feel a bit better
When you can just
forget her
Feb 24, 2020
Feb 24, 2020 at 11:37 PM UTC