outside,
the sky flourished with blue,
whistling winds intertwining with clouds,
eloquently
threading through the paleness,
sitting there capturing the light embrace of yours.
Nov 29, 2020
Nov 29, 2020 at 12:55 PM UTC
...
it's your fault people are worried about me,
no, it's my fault, i asked,
but you answered,
the wrong answer,
not even a proper answer,
i feel so toxic, ***** in a way,
i miss you, i miss us,
i want to cry again,
im tired of holding it in,
it hurts
...
Nov 29, 2020
Nov 29, 2020 at 12:43 PM UTC
i listen and help all the time,
i struggle to find solutions to problems that aren't even mine,
i hug and i comfort them,
i make those who feel like crumpled pieces of paper smooth again,
i laugh and i make them smile,
i make people smile and make their work feel worthwhile,
i keep my accomplishments hidden,
i make them feel special, talented, many compliments given,
i don't share my own problems,
i make other people not have to worry about me, let them blossom,
Nov 21, 2020
Nov 21, 2020 at 1:56 PM UTC
late night drives,
cold, warm,
wet, dry,
safe, happy,
alone together,
late night drives,
music loud,
laughing, love,
rain falls,
feelings felt,
late night drives,
gotten later,
colder, darker,
so much darker,
now, everything's gone.
Nov 21, 2020
Nov 21, 2020 at 1:24 PM UTC
why can't i stop ruining it for everyone?
why can't i just **** it up and deal with it like everyone else?
Nov 13, 2020
Nov 13, 2020 at 5:44 PM UTC
who is this?
who is she?
who are they?
i don't know this person,
i don't look like that do i?
my arms, my stomach,
my hair, my face, my thighs,
what is it all?
why don't i look okay for once?
it isn't fair,
not fair at all,
i'm fed up of trying to look pretty,
fed up of meeting standards,
my body is keeping my heart beating,
is capable of carrying and nursing a child,
my body is amazing and that'll never change,
even if my clothes are tight,
even if my face doesn't look like theirs,
even if i can't wear the same things,
even if my skin is darker than theirs,
even if i can't pull off the same hair cut they do,
i am me,
i am myself,
i am here to show what i am capable of,
and no-one, no matter how hard they try, will stop me,
i am beautiful,
we are all beautiful.
-lilac
Nov 13, 2020
Nov 13, 2020 at 1:54 PM UTC
yes or no
☐ ☐
it's your fault my friends are worried about me,
no, it's my fault, i asked, but you answered,
the wrong answer,
not even a proper answer,
i feel so toxic, i feel ***** in a way,
i miss you, i miss us,
i want to cry again, im holding it in,
it hurts.
yes or no
☐ ☒
Nov 12, 2020
Nov 12, 2020 at 1:40 PM UTC
her body painfully riddled with ink,
all the moments that made her heart sink,
stories and words that intertwined within,
look for the patches of free, untouched skin.
that needle brought hope, a fresh, new beginning,
to a past that had seemed to have no chance at winning,
i smile and i'm proud of her skin being covered,
its her uniform of pride, she made it out, unbothered.
-lilac
Nov 10, 2020
Nov 10, 2020 at 5:40 PM UTC