It's just sad
That when I push people
Away
They just go
And don't even try to
Stay
Mar 20, 2019
Mar 20, 2019 at 9:25 AM UTC
There is a desire that resides deep within her soul to run away.
To escape to an unknown future.
To wander around eternally, without destination, without home in sight.
It is always there just beneath her skin, humming in her veins, vibrating on her bones, just barely on the back of her mind, always withing gasp.
To carve a new path. To start a new adventure, a new life. To change her name, her looks, her identity, and personality. To forget. To go somewhere where no one knows her. To start all over again. To never look back.
Jan 7, 2019
Jan 7, 2019 at 10:53 PM UTC
Are your jokes still funny now?
The shoves, the trips, the sadistic grins?
You stole everything from her
Your words tore her fragile being to shreds
Because of you, she lost her soul
She lost her heart
She lost her will
She lost her joy
You killed her in every way but physical
But yet your mouth hangs open with shock
When you discover her,
bleeding on the ground,
content smile on her lips,
Two feet from the school building
Every bone in her body broken
You did this to her
You killed her mind,
her will to live,
And now her body has followed.
Nov 9, 2018
Nov 9, 2018 at 12:43 PM UTC
Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
Sugar is sweet
and perhaps you are too,
But the roses have wilted,
the violets are dead,
The sugar bowl is empty
And your wrists are stained with red,
The sun isn't shining,
The sky isn't clear,
there's no silver lining because your gone
Rain keeps pouring,
There's no end in sight,
you're standing there frozen
so far from the light,
Your beauties unreal,
your smile the sun,
but time can't be turned nor your actions undone,
The words you wrote that only I read,
"I love you so much, please don't cry when I die"
A bond that we formed,
a love that ran deep,
a pain that we shared,
a friend I could keep,
I wanted to hold you,
wipe the tears from your eyes,
been there the moment you said your goodbyes,
I want to forget but sometimes I don't,
I want to let go,
but I know that I won't,
Tears on my face,
memories burned in my head,
The roses have wilted,
The violets have died....
Oct 30, 2018
Oct 30, 2018 at 3:26 PM UTC
Feeling hollow and weary
Fighting a duel with an invisible enemy
Everyday is a battle to feel alive
And now, i'm struggling to survive
Life is the sleeping at night
It's the only time you have peace at mind
But death is the working at day
Where you feel the pain that always stay.
Home was like a prison
I can't feel the love anymore
**** don't know the reason
Just please, leave me alone
I really wanted to tell you, my friend
But I decided to just keep it to myself
The girl who always makes you laugh
Is now on the verge of giving up
Oct 29, 2018
Oct 29, 2018 at 9:26 AM UTC
Can't run from it
Always a step behind
The worst is that i'm trapped
In my own mind
The end is near
I can't keep trying
Stop asking if i'm okay
I'm tired of lying
My fake smile is getting heavy
Eyes can't hold back
My mind has won
Done living in the black
Going through the motions
It's almost time to quit
Most fear death
But others pray for it
Oct 24, 2018
Oct 24, 2018 at 10:20 AM UTC
If you're going to
Leave my life
At lease close the door
Behind you
Because the cold winds
Still rush through the door
And linger around my home
Leaving an eerie chill
That just reminds me of you
And of course I get curious
So from time to time
I follow the footsteps
You left behind
And each time I see you
You seem
Perfectly fine...
Oct 24, 2018
Oct 24, 2018 at 9:36 AM UTC
It took me seventeen years
to understand
what they meant
when they said
That the monsters don't live
under beds.
Oct 23, 2018
Oct 23, 2018 at 12:55 PM UTC
Today
Is the day
To stop pretending
That you are okay
With not
Being okay
Yesterday
could have been the day
You lied your last
"I'm fine"
Tomorrow
could be the day
you actually
mean it
If you do not
Pull the weeds
In the garden
The flowers
Will never
Grow.
Oct 23, 2018
Oct 23, 2018 at 12:05 PM UTC
You asked
What is the scariest part?
I answer
The scariest part
is not the feeling of loneliness
or the darkness that fills you
despite the looming pain
of emptiness
The scariest part
is the realization
that you have lost yourself
completely
sinking in as you lay awake
at 2 AM
because you lost the ability to sleep
and you can't even cry
because you don't even care
Oct 9, 2018
Oct 9, 2018 at 11:14 AM UTC