So, no this isn’t a poem today.
This is me trying to reach out.
I feel so alone
And I need someone
Anyone
To talk to.
Please help
I’m running out of time..
Mar 11, 2020
Mar 11, 2020 at 11:25 AM UTC
last night,
I realized something.
I can still remember the first time I came across,
self harm.
suicide.
it was a movie.
'cyber bully'
I was 13 years old.
I remember the song,
playing during the scene
'breath me' Sia.
I remember looking up,
self harm that very night.
getting all these terrible ideas.
I'll admit,
at first I used it for attention.
but, not in the way you may think.
I craved my fathers attention.
so, I cut.
deeper and deeper.
till it became an addiction.
a release.
I felt control for once.
but,
one night my sister walked in on me,
cutting.
that was the moment I decided.
what I'm doing is wrong.
so, I tired and tried.
to over come my addiction.
I wanted to show her that,
it's alright to have rough times.
but, it's all about overcoming them.
being stronger than you may believe you are.
I did it for her.
it took a year and I half.
one step forward two steps back.
but, I did it.
and now, I'm proud.
I'm proud of who I am.
I no longer feel ashamed.
I over came my battle.
and, I've finally came to a conclusion.
that I'd like to share my story.
for all those going threw,
rough times.
to show them, things are possible.
believe in yourself.
May 21, 2018
May 21, 2018 at 10:33 AM UTC
I miss him.
his lips.
smile.
eyes.
mind.
I pushed him away,
now I'm the only one to blame.
May 16, 2018
May 16, 2018 at 11:56 AM UTC
how come, you must rub it in my face.
about how happy you are with him.
the man I love.
you stole him.
gone.
and you feel the need to brag.
why?
how come, you get pleasure..
from making me feel small.
unwanted.
being second choice hurts enough,
without your words.
please.
go.
May 16, 2018
May 16, 2018 at 11:49 AM UTC
I am no poet.
just a lost girl expressing her word.
and sometimes wondering weather or not,
I belong in this world.
with cold shaking hands,
I find it had to stand.
this world is so cruel.
why can't it just be me & you?
I am no poet.
but, here I am
waiting for you.
I'll give you a hand.
May 14, 2018
May 14, 2018 at 3:04 PM UTC
you say she's heaven.
but, you let her drag you threw hell.
May 14, 2018
May 14, 2018 at 2:58 PM UTC
I try, but I can’t.
It becomes a long lost friend.
No longer am I able to escape.
My mind starts to run,
I became out of breath.
Suffocating.
All I need is a breath of air.
But, that seems like a far-fetched dream.
I start to collapse.
“Help me!”
Discovering I can’t speak.
Thunder starts booming.
The storm rolls in.
Is this a war I cannot win?
May 12, 2018
May 12, 2018 at 3:21 PM UTC
One hit,
Two hits,
Three hits, four.
My thoughts begin to walk out the door.
Five hits,
Six hits,
Seven hits, eight.
Suddenly I can think straight.
May 12, 2018
May 12, 2018 at 3:17 PM UTC
I used,
I used to feel so alone.
unwanted.
unnoticed.
until, one day.
I met her.
she wasn't like the others.
she thought I was,
kind,
smart.
she didn't believe,
the words others spoke.
looked straight threw them.
with an open-mind.
now,
I feel wanted.
somewhere,
somehow.
im, no longer
afraid.
little does she know,
I was on the edge.
between
life and death.
one kind heart.
changed it all.
saved me.
thank you.
May 9, 2018
May 9, 2018 at 10:23 AM UTC
your heart,
it happens to be,
the size of your,
fist.
but, its no surprise.
your supposed to fight.
for love.
(l.j.t.)
May 4, 2018
May 4, 2018 at 1:50 PM UTC