What happens when the price of beauty
Is suffering
What is left
When often I'm too willing to pay
What happens when looking in the mirror and what looks back at me
Is never satisfying
What is left
When I give and give and grow empty
It won't come easy
But it will come
Jun 25, 2018
Jun 25, 2018 at 7:43 AM UTC
She wants to go home, but nobody's home. It's where she lies, broken inside.
Jun 15, 2014
Jun 15, 2014 at 3:12 PM UTC
Today we started speaking
After what felt like years
While my heart continued breaking
Day by day I was drowning in my tears
Crying myself to sleep every night
Wondering why he left me to dry
With an overwhelming desire for one more last love bite,
For you to give us one more try
But now I feel dead inside
Without you here holding my hand
I would run back for you but
I have too much pride
Everything's gone, you, me, our names in the sand
Today we started speaking
After what felt like years
Though my heart continues breaking
I still love you after all the tears
Jun 3, 2014
Jun 3, 2014 at 7:31 AM UTC
Its sad really
Because the only reason I haven't killed myself yet
Is because I don't want to hurt anyone
But the reason I want to **** myself is because everyone is hurting me
Jun 1, 2014
Jun 1, 2014 at 2:39 PM UTC
Its something I realize everyday
And each time I think about it, there's so much to say
You always make me smile
I've got xoxo with your name on papers all in a pile
Everything I say to you I really do mean
You make me the happiest human being
Your someone whom I cannot get out of my mind
So please say you'll forever be mine
No one can ever love you like I do
And I hope the feeling is mutual too
Hold my hand and don't break my heart
I knew you were for me right from the start
My heart is singing a love song
Its telling a story of us
I may be right or wrong
But our love is built on faith and trust
I gave you all of me
And you gave me all of you
Whatever happens let it be
And believe in us like I do
And out of the blue
I think about how much I love you
May 30, 2014
May 30, 2014 at 2:23 PM UTC
Heartbreak is its own form of amnesia
And sometimes music is there to numb the pain as well
But the unbearable pain has given me a seizure
Is this the end of the road for me? I can barely tell
I bleed just to feel alive
I cut everday hoping to survive
Yet the more I cut, the deeper I get
I feel further from the death trap I've set
It gets harder everyday just to breath
And when someone says they care, I find it hard to believe
Is ther anything for me in this cold world
Because I'm walking alone with no one to hold
I bleed just to feel alive
I cut everyday hoping to survive
The more I cut, the deeper I get
I'm closer to the death trap I've set
There's no one by my side
And its left me feeling broken inside
May 30, 2014
May 30, 2014 at 2:17 PM UTC
I don't want to care
So I hide all trace of emotion in all the make up I wear
'Cause when you care, you feel
And I'm trying to numb the pain in hope that I might heal
These voices in my head are driving me insane
But the more I try, the more they sound like someone real
That's all because when you care, you feel
The emptyness I fell has become more easier to bare
But there's no one beside me, which seems quite unfair
Everyday I feel as if I'm dying, but really I just want to be saved
Yet, I get a sense of relief at the thought of a tombstone with my name engrave
There's some days where I'm overcome with a feeling of despair
As my heart is now broken far beyond repair
That's all 'cause when you care, you feel
Everything I've been through has turned me cold-blooded
This gruesome journey has now left me broken-hearted
That's all 'cause when you care, you feel
May 30, 2014
May 30, 2014 at 2:13 PM UTC
Sitting in a corner all alone
Refusing to talk and feeling cold to the bone
I have isolated myself from people
To keep safe from all the bad and evil
But this isn't really me
I'm driving all my friends away
And I know they'll stop trying one day
I'm alive but I'm barely breathing
But I know this isn't really me
May 30, 2014
May 30, 2014 at 2:07 PM UTC
Do you ever wonder why bad things happen to you
In my life I constantly do
Can I maybe live someone else's life
'Cause I'm sick of always resorting to my knife
Whenever this monster inside me decides to arrive
And break me down , making it harder to survive
In the beginning I felt comfort in my misery
There were days of happiness that disappeared in a hurry
Too quickly for me to grasp on to
The things I say and the things I do
Seem to be said or done when I'm unaware
Which resulted in me finding no one there
Deep down I really did care
But I was controlled by a monster that I call beth
She took over the thoughts in my mind
And barried the old me, making it harder to find
She took pleasure in seeing me constantly cry
And her aim was for me to eventually die
There's a monster inside me that I call Beth
And day by day she slowly drove me to my death
May 30, 2014
May 30, 2014 at 1:52 PM UTC