between nightmares and daydreams
the day begins again
the horizon a glow with sunbeams
as the birds bask in them
a moment of glory for all to see
I can feel it in the ether
like it's reaching out to me
maybe an angel or a reaper
telling me to get up now
and face morning sun
I know somehow
my nightmares will succumb
and clear all confusion
about what should and shouldn't be
there'll be an execution
of the demons inside of me
and I will go about my way
and be warmed by the light
it's a new me on a new day
conquering the night
May 23
May 23, 2026 at 9:58 AM UTC
He says I have to share
He says I’m not enough
My heart I now wear
Like a stain on my cuff
Like the pulse of my pain
Relentlessly pounding
Pumping through my veins
Until I am drowning
But my mind is to blame
For sacrificing my soul
My heart now a flame
Burning a hole
Through my being
Through my core
All my life's meaning
Means nothing anymore
But this isn't my first bloodfest
Though it is a new low for me
The stains on my dress
Embue my dignity
So let me bleed to death
Leave me be in this hell
Where I'll pay my debts
And I'll wish him well
May 8
May 8, 2026 at 2:57 PM UTC
he says I have to share
he says i'm not enough
my heart I now wear
like a stain on my cuff
like the pulse of my pain
relentlessly pounding
pumping through my veins
until I am drowning
but my mind is to blame
for sacrificing my soul
and truning my heart aflame
burning a hole
through my being
through my core
I don't know what I'm seeing
yet i've been here before
this isn't my first bloodfest
but its a new low for me
i'm honestly impressed
with the deprived creativity
so let my heart bleed to death
and leave me be in this hell
where I'll pay my debts
and I'll wish him well
Apr 28
Apr 28, 2026 at 10:49 AM UTC
life is spinning
time goes round and round
captivating the moments
until I am spellbound
each day takes me back
to where i've been before
like some fool
always looking for more
help me be satisfied
help me to grow
because i am transfixed
with thoughts of tomorrow
and what it may bring
and how i will react
have i learned my lesson?
....highly doubt that
i'm just a thread in the fabric
of an event horizon i can't see
mesmerized by the void
of a darkness that's blinding
but time keeps teaching me
that before it's too late
fate will take over
and will reiterate
that the past lives with the future
and the present doesn't exist
because i am nothing
yet this moment is the catalyst
Mar 15
Mar 15, 2026 at 9:52 AM UTC
you may break free from these walls
but that's not what imprisons you
you're just a lost child
with many voices to listen to
the demons will speak more and more
and the more that you tune in
the more you'll lose yourself
and they will win
as time goes on
you'll be left to fend for your own
and no one will care how you feel
when you are alone
you know yourself best now
you'll be searching for this person
one day, you'll look at yourself
and find there's nothing worse than
your stupid heart
do not let it lead the way
or you might not be able to let go of your choices
until judgement day
Mar 6
Mar 6, 2026 at 10:05 AM UTC
It’s not enough to want
I could die trying
To find the answers
My soul is vying
For a better understanding
For a clear thought
No conclusion’s satisfying
But with pain wrought
Contemplating the hours
Questioning everything
I am stifled
By what time brings
And the inescapable notions
Of day and night
Yet I try not to overhthink
Or self-prophesize
But inevitably I do
And sometimes i'm right
Nightmares become real
In this blinding twilight
Mar 5
Mar 5, 2026 at 9:24 PM UTC
Monday again
The crescendoing alarm rings
Ice has overtaken the Earth
I dream of spring
The car engine turns
As the forest winds blow
To say goodbye
And dance with the snow
The season has changed
The icy river knows
That I follow its path
And revel in its shadows
Guiding me to reality
As the water freely flows
Through the valley, under the bridge
A path juxtaposed
To the bare mountainside
Where winter’s breath has spoken
The hillside was sliced down
A millennia of rock laid open
All so I can take this path
On my daily routine
I see facets in the snowflakes
And the waters emerald green
Full of twists and turns
But the sunrise knows the way
Through the mountains and rivers
Just like yesterday
Except today is Monday
And work awaits
On this frigid morning
I feel the grace
Mar 2
Mar 2, 2026 at 7:16 PM UTC
This moment is quiet
This place is heavy
I have no control
And I am not ready
Please prepare me dear lord
For the things yet to come
Please guide my heart
Away from the pain therefrom
I am a lost soul
Just wandering the road
Help me take a breath
And put down this load
Before I run out of time
Before space and time close in on me
Help me find peace in the moments
Help me be free
Mar 2
Mar 2, 2026 at 1:10 PM UTC
The universe forgot about me tonight,
It swallowed time, then bled out light.
I drifted through a waking dream,
And caught a glimpse of things unseen.
My breath fell down through the dark,
A dying star without a spark.
If this is life, then what’s the end?
I’ve loved the void as foe and friend.
Dec 16, 2025
Dec 16, 2025 at 4:15 AM UTC
I was born to be tested
by a world so unkind
My greatest efforts bested
all my victories fought blind
I am weak and tired
in the midst of this battle I find
All my bullets now fired
and my pain now binds
These moments together
I can't look behind
Or confirm whether
this is all in my mind
Or is the war in everything
it continues to remind
My life hangs by a string
and I am inclined
To keep the thread whole
to manipulate the twine
I know the goal
and the glory is mine
Dec 14, 2025
Dec 14, 2025 at 9:42 AM UTC