I GUESS YOU DIDNT MEAN ALL THE SOBER WORDS BECAUSE THE TRUTH CAME OUT WITH THE ***** AND MAYBE I WOULD'VE LEFT YOU IF I COULD STAND ON MY OWN WITHOUT FALLING OVER
BUT IM FILLED WITH THIS EMPTY BURNING WARM FEELING WHERE YOU SHOULD BE
I SWEAR YOU NEVER LOVED ME SOBER BUT MAYBE THATS JUST ME
Jan 10, 2015
Jan 10, 2015 at 1:35 PM UTC
I hated the way
you smoked 2 packs everyday
concered for wrinkles
May 15, 2014
May 15, 2014 at 6:55 PM UTC
Hell isn't a place but merely a moment, but for me hell is my life bcs the devils living inside of you
I remember when you used to say you loved me before walking out the door each morning
Although I don't quit remember when it stopped it's apparent that it did
Now I get fake sympathy, pity love but even that's scattered and broken
I remember when I was the invisible girl for 6 days straight
You didn't look at me or talk to me so I spent my time outside making friends with the rocks and worms
While you spent your time buying his love
((I would've just given you mine))
I remember when I had hope so I went searching for the good in you
To bad all of it had vanished, replaced with cold emptiness that seeps out of your mouth, glazes over your eyes, and is embedded in your fists and pretty soon the darkness crept it's way into me
I remember when you told me you loved her more then you'd ever love me, oh how I've always wanted to be as perfect as my sister
Oh how I wish you loved me just half as much as you love her
I remember when I wanted to be just like you when I grew up
How sad that day will be
To bad I got what I wished for
I heard you crying alone in your room
Giant sobs that shook your fragile body
I heard this and the corners of my mouth turned up
For the first time in years you made me smile
The futures inevitable, I'll grow up to be just like my mom
Apr 19, 2014
Apr 19, 2014 at 3:00 PM UTC
Deceived to think I was living in heaven when it merely turned out to be hell
Discovered the devil had made a home of you, planting seeds in your darkest places
Who knew those seeds would grow into trees and root themselves deep within your veins branching out towards everyone around you
I remember a time your knuckles implanted the seeds in me while your neglect of 3 words helped them to grow.
I tried for so long to get the seeds out, plowing my skin with a razor
Desperately trying to unearth them from my veins
But these seeds aren't going anywhere, they've made a garden out of me and they'll grow out of my bones when I finally dig to deep
Apr 19, 2014
Apr 19, 2014 at 10:06 AM UTC
She told you she was sad and you told her she was the sun. Warm rays penetrating your skin making you feel happy and free, but when the sun stopped shinning so did you
She told you she stopped eating and you told her she was a flower. Unique and beautiful in the most imperfect way, but when the flower wilted away so did you
She told you she cut and you told her she was a river. Winding and twisting creating deep cannons all over the earth, but when her rivers over flooded you drowned in them
She told you in her note she was sorry and you wanted to tell her she was the sunset. Breath taking and colorful, never being able to see her true beauty, but this time the sun set and never rose again.
Apr 19, 2014
Apr 19, 2014 at 1:00 AM UTC
SHES DEAD SHES DEAD
I COULD'VE HELPED
BUT I LAYED HERE INSTEAD
UNABLE TO MOVE
TRAPPED IN MY BED
THE WORLD IS TO MUCH
TEARING ME TO SHREDS
SEEMS NOTHING BUT DARKNESS
LAYS UP AHEAD
PRETTY WHITE SHEETS
NOW COVERED IN RED
ITS TO LATE NOW
SHES DEAD SHES DEAD
Apr 3, 2014
Apr 3, 2014 at 9:57 PM UTC
Seriously ****** up in the mental
Dreaming to see my grave
These scars on my skin weren't accidental
Sadness comes in waves
Drowning in my own thoughts
Submerged in voices that aren't my own
My mind is tangled in knots
Deeper under the waves I'm thrown
Extremely messed up in the brain
Wishing to lay 6ft underground
All the life in me has been drained
I'm not going to wait and hang around
I'll take a boat, plane, even a car
As long as it takes me far away
A gun, rope or pills in a jar
In my mind I'm not about to stay
Immensely ******* up in my head
Where did I go so wrong
All I want is to just be dead
You were right all along
I'm beyond the point of relief
For me the world has gone dull
So don't you dare give me grief
I'm caught up in my skull
Mar 25, 2014
Mar 25, 2014 at 8:42 PM UTC
As I lay here in my bed
I've decided
I'm going to rid these voices from my head
Or die trying
Mar 20, 2014
Mar 20, 2014 at 11:33 PM UTC
Laughter is the best medicine
Except when you've been faking it for 2 years
Then laughter becomes the best disguise
And sooner or later
You won't remember what a real laugh even feels like
Mar 20, 2014
Mar 20, 2014 at 11:24 PM UTC
I know people care
that's not the problem you'll see,
It's just people care but don't share
there feelings for me
Or maybe people haven't noticed,
maybe people haven't seen,
maybe people just turned a shoulder,
at all the marks carved into me
I wished someone would realize
and come and save me.
But I know it doesn't work like that,
Once people notice they usually flee.
When I'm standing here all alone,
after I've beaten myself to the bone,
Id just like someone to say
"I love you, I want you to stay"
But there's no one here for me on my last fateful day
Mar 16, 2014
Mar 16, 2014 at 12:37 AM UTC