I still remember
That god awful day
I said I liked you
And you took it the wrong way
I remember how I cried
Pleaded
Begged
And you said it's what I needed
'Stop'
'Please no'
'No more'
'One more go'
Dec 10, 2020
Dec 10, 2020 at 12:28 PM UTC
'its been a minute
look at you
you seem so well'
you look at me
'are you okay?'
you're concerned
'of course! why?'
'You don't look the same..'
I stare at you
'I'm fine'
You turn
And leave
Dec 10, 2020
Dec 10, 2020 at 10:47 AM UTC
No one would care
Not even me
And I should care
The absolute most
But I don't, I can't
Why should I try?
It's not even worth it
It never really has been
Dec 9, 2020
Dec 9, 2020 at 11:44 AM UTC
I'll stay as long as I have you
In my corner
Because I'll always be
In yours
Dec 8, 2020
Dec 8, 2020 at 9:38 AM UTC
They tell me to pray
Like god is the way
Like there's something to save me from
Like my heart isn't a drum
And with every beat
Is another defeat
Knowing how they think
Makes my thoughts turn to ink
Pray
Everyday
Like its the only way
I'll be saved
Dec 8, 2020
Dec 8, 2020 at 9:19 AM UTC
I can do so many things in this life.
Good things and bad things.
But those things hold no meaning.
Nothing does.
All that matters is me.
My body and its form in this world
And you. Your presence.
Your thoughts, Your actions, and Your meaning.
Me and You.
And all the others.
The others. The millions of people that live each day while dying.
Trying so hard to find themselves with so much out there.
But none of it holds true meaning.
Me and You and The Others.
When so many things are distorted,
We are the only real things out there.
Dec 4, 2020
Dec 4, 2020 at 12:32 PM UTC
It's like a hole. Where my feelings are supposed to be.
It's not like I don't feel, I do feel certain things.
But it's a brief passing of an emotion.
When I'm happy, it's only for a moment.
Yet when I'm sad, it hits hard and heavy
It's like a hole.
But I feel that hole
All the time
Dec 4, 2020
Dec 4, 2020 at 10:04 AM UTC
During the day
I feel okay
'I'm fine'
Is not a lie
I'm happy
Almost sappy
I'm so sad
It makes me mad
During the night
I'm still alright
But 'I'm fine'
It's only a line
I'm empty
My feelings need an entry
But they won't arrive tonight
Not while my chest feels tight
Dec 3, 2020
Dec 3, 2020 at 11:36 AM UTC
If, for some reason, I don't make it any longer, just know I am not in pain. I spent my last few months questioning and discovering myself. I was born a female. 'A beautiful baby girl.' Onalee was her name. Isn't it adorable?
I spent 15 years thinking, believing I was a girl. That I would grow into a perfect woman.
No. I'm not a girl, my name is not Onalee. Not anymore at least.
Dec 2, 2020
Dec 2, 2020 at 8:17 AM UTC
There is a shadow
under this red rock
(Come in under the shadow
of this red rock)
And I will show you
something different from either
Your shadow at morning
striding behind you
Or your shadow at evening
rising to meet you
I will show you fear
in a handful of dust
Dec 2, 2020
Dec 2, 2020 at 7:51 AM UTC