It's hard to forget the past
When it takes away something
That I felt was meant to last
So I'll wait for my phone to ring
No line and hook to be cast
We'll see what time will bring
Jul 16, 2023
Jul 16, 2023 at 8:41 PM UTC
Deep within blue eyes
I see a constellation
I'll find nowhere else
Jul 15, 2023
Jul 15, 2023 at 10:07 PM UTC
My wounds runs deep
Steeped in time
Memories to keep
Into my prime
Testing my virtues
Taking a deep breath
Walking in my earth shoes
Feeling like ego death
I must stay focused
On what I desire
Despite this fire
Thoughts like a swarm of locusts
Time to embrace the new
That being with you
I refuse to be static
Time with you is chromatic
It's a complete headliner
With you it's all about the major and the minor
Jul 15, 2023
Jul 15, 2023 at 6:54 PM UTC
I pick my scabs and wonder why I keep remembering
Jul 15, 2023
Jul 15, 2023 at 12:24 PM UTC
I find myself in that familiar place
where wounds reopen
and the feeling of danger
beckons to race
Old scars wanting to tear apart
like a stray bullet to the heart
Old habits emerge so mindless
despite being met with kindness
I question if I've really healed
If these years have anything to yield
Uncomfortable is how I've felt
Do I peek at this hand that is dealt
I'm at a crossroad of old and new
Simply locked scared at what to do
Yet I know I will choose you
I will always wear my heart on my sleeve
No matter the times it's torn away
In the work I've done I believe
Will keep you beside me day by day
This 'uncomfortable' is my test
Trust me that you'll get my best
My work will not be undone
because what we have has just begun
Jul 15, 2023
Jul 15, 2023 at 1:15 AM UTC
"I rebuilt my Temple, just to jump from the roof."
Nov 6, 2021
Nov 6, 2021 at 2:55 PM UTC
I can't just simply love
Simple words mean nothing appealing
When there is an absolute depth
To how I am really feeling
I love you like the first bloom in Spring
The singing of birds
The chatter of the bugs
I love you like picnic hugs
I love you like Summer's first heat
The blazing sun and a giant pool
The sweet repeat
The charcoal grill with searing meat
I love you like the first fallen leaf of Fall
You are the crunch of the leaves beneath my toes
You are the blanket
You are the first chill breeze that tickles my nose
I love you like the first Winter snowfall
Pure white, with footprint flaws
You are the snowflake upon my finger
Unique among them all, but here with me you've come to fall
To fall with you is what I'll do
I don't love in simplicity
I love in pictures and feelings
This is just a glimpse of what you mean to me
Aug 13, 2020
Aug 13, 2020 at 5:43 PM UTC
"We quote the good, but are poetic of the bad."
May 22, 2020
May 22, 2020 at 9:37 PM UTC
I thought I found the best
A god among the rest
But it was just a test
It's just a jest
A joke to show me I'm not real
To show me I'll never truly feel
How to love in life
Without the strife
Without the pain of past
Showing me it can't last
A fist full of lies
Punching the inner me as it dies
I'm on my last bump of hope
As if it's a form of dope
Thinking I'm gonna be alright
Without the will to fight
I just lie here and frown
I'll wear my smiling painted mask
And I'll drown
In enough liquor to fill an endless flask
May 22, 2020
May 22, 2020 at 8:28 PM UTC
I'm wrapped up in my head
Through that forest fogged with dread
Congrats to my demons you won
I'm tired and numb
You've convinced me my fears are real
That I've lost and made a deal
Trapped in rewind
The same emotions are what I find
It's too good to be true
Now I wonder what to do
I'm angry and morose
Taking in depression like a drug overdose
I hate my own reflection
I'm always trying a new deflection
To pretend that I can't feel pain
In my forest, it begins to rain
I'll choose to die inside
I'll choke on my pride
***** what we call life
Next time, stab me with a real knife
May 22, 2020
May 22, 2020 at 8:17 PM UTC