I open my eyes and I believe I have come to my last setting.
I have been travelling through my mind,
As it shows me my worst fears.
But there is one more to come,
The worst of them all.
I begin to feel my body decaying,
From the inside out.
All my childhood memories begin to come back to me,
I am dying.
A striking chill suddenly comes upon me.
My skin turns to blue and purple,
As I crouch down into myself to attempt to keep warm
I am breaking.
My confusion is unsettling,
I am motionless,
And nervous.
Why must life end?
The last bit of light begins to fade away from my sight,
I don’t want to be in darkness,
I don’t want to be alone,
Who will protect me?
I start to lose feeling to my body.
First my feet,
Then the numbness travels up my legs and through my spine.
My mind is the last part of me that is conscious.
My breathing becomes uneven and heavy,
I start wheezing,
My chest rising high then dropping, then rising high again,
As my lungs try to grasp onto any remaining air surrounding me.
I must not over think,
I am alive,
I am free,
I am not afraid.
Then, all sounds fade away into nothing,
And the silence becomes deafening.
I lay back peacefully,
And shut my eyes.
Jul 12, 2015
Jul 12, 2015 at 4:47 PM UTC
Beautiful blue eyes
Glistening in the sunshine
Two worlds become one
Jun 9, 2015
Jun 9, 2015 at 7:06 PM UTC
She is so beautiful,
You don’t get tired looking at her.
Even when she has tears streaming down her face,
Or when you see her just after she’s gotten out of bed in the morning.
You never worry if she is smarter than you,
You know she is.
She doesn’t even have to study the work to get an A.
But you can’t get jealous,
You’re just amazed.
She is funny without ever being mean.
She would never hurt anyone,
No matter how much they hurt her.
No matter how much pain is caused,
She’ll try her best to wake up with a smile on her face.
I love her.
She makes my heart ache is ways I didn’t even know.
I love her.
I am so lucky to love her,
Van Houten.
You don’t get to chose if you get hurt in this world, old man,
But you do have a say in who hurts you.
I like my choices,
I hope she likes hers.
What else?
You’ll never find anyone like her.
Jun 8, 2015
Jun 8, 2015 at 9:35 PM UTC
How I yearn for the salty air,
And the warm sun beating down on my head.
The memories give me a sense of happiness,
But they leave lingering sadness behind them.
The rocky shores were my home,
You made it my home.
Your laughter allowed me to stay youthful,
And I will be forever grateful.
I will never forget the sandy rain boots,
And the breeze blowing through our hair.
I will remember your glowing face,
And your calming eyes.
When I am older,
And have children of my own,
I will tell them of the adventures we had
And pray they will remember in years to come.
Our family grew up under your care.
Your beautiful personality will fly with the birds,
And swim deep down in the Atlantic.
I wish the world will give you all the best.
Jun 8, 2015
Jun 8, 2015 at 5:55 PM UTC
It is the dreams,
The unconscious mind,
That can never be understood.
When we lay to rest,
Our sense of reality begins to alter.
We are no longer alive to the world,
But alive to the mind.
Our senses enhanced,
And our emotions intact.
We drift into a world that is no longer our own,
But to the thoughts within us.
Memories, thoughts,
Insecurities, and fears,
Become present,
And realism is overturned.
After all,
It is the dreams,
And the unconscious mind,
That can only be understood by one.
Jun 8, 2015
Jun 8, 2015 at 5:20 PM UTC