I am a plum—
io sono la tua prugna
and I fit in your palm,
in its tender arch
upturned, stately
and I curl in its pits
of lines that quake
with the warmth of my weight.
My flesh grazed by your teeth,
a hymn that carries
across the gleaming sea
and intertwines with the tempest
that soaked your black curls
but not your mouth—
your mouth dripping
with my plum juice.
Jun 30, 2018
Jun 30, 2018 at 4:08 PM UTC
I strain to return to myself—
a peony dewy-eyed, unbeknownst to
the bittersweet taste of your chocolate eyes,
yet biting into it
while you watch.
I dared to do that.
I became your dream
with my pure red mouth,
arched back,
eyes singing.
You wanted to listen some more, didn’t you?
But then, that is all you ever did:
You wanted,
nothing more, nothing less,
and look what you’ve done;
My heart crumbled into pomegranate seeds—
I pick them up on my knees,
smear my mouth with them,
staining it red
as I eat them.
I pretend they are remnants of
the good girl I used to be,
white peony petals.
I don’t want you any longer;
I want her back.
Dec 10, 2017
Dec 10, 2017 at 10:28 AM UTC
my love, I think
I flourish in winter,
for while I slept
a serene dream
brushed its lips against
my cheek and for
a small moment of
naivety and frailty
I saw you and
you saw me—
your eyes spoke what
your scarlet mouth couldn't
and I listened,
your hands trembled
as did I
at the thought of
what they want to
write on my naked body—
solo mia, solo mia.
my love, I think
I flourish in winter,
for when I awoke
a snowflake sunk
into the fullness of
my lips and then
I knew I'd been
kissed by you,
so I smile
as I stand by
the window where for
a small moment of
naivety and frailty
I wallow in my joy,
for I know too
it will last not.
Dec 3, 2017
Dec 3, 2017 at 9:08 AM UTC
I lost a sense of myself
in the silk of sadness,
sprawled on my bed
of lilies and night-long moans
in lingerie and stockings.
Come look for me.
This darkening heart of mine
desires one dulcet dream only—
to see you dauntless,
throwing your head back,
desperate and divine;
Ah, please—
Come look for me.
And at last when you do,
Ah, my lying love,
like a longing prey for you
I will lament not
the loss of myself,
for I know well
with your lace-like touch
you will lift me
from this silk of sadness
and not only will I become
your little poet, no—
I will be ultimately pleased.
Nov 20, 2017
Nov 20, 2017 at 6:17 PM UTC
lord, I ask you—make him good for me,
give him courage; make him mine
and in the meantime, let me dream sweetly
of feverish summers, him and his eyes
please do not deepen my agonies,
do not blacken them
make my agonies of beauty,
silky and sunlit with peonies,
birds singing, my mother laughing
because how will I stand yet another
bad dream about him?
please do not deepen my agonies,
do not blacken them
if you will not give me him, give me beauty
spat out of your mouth, warmed by your hands
I shall love it as if it were a lover
May 14, 2017
May 14, 2017 at 8:02 AM UTC
how can I write
when I am curled up
in these unblooming tulip
petals, the sunlight cast out
when I most need it
to pour it over me
and the whiff of
winter in this unmerciful spring
how can I bloom
when this melancholy I carry
flush against the bud
of my heart rips open
my flesh—
my throat dry,
my cheeks tear-stained
May 1, 2017
May 1, 2017 at 6:23 PM UTC
it burns black—
god made our
eyes see each
other so my
tender heart could
write
Apr 22, 2017
Apr 22, 2017 at 9:11 AM UTC
I lace my fingers
with the snowy night
as I rest upon
carmine linen and lilies,
my hand out of
the window,
wet snowflakes caressing this
open palm of mine
with heavens I speak
of slumbering spring and
your name and how
both of you see
my stars, my peonies,
yet you
hide yours from this
open palm of mine
I lace my fingers
with the snowy night,
for I am weary
of you and winter
my hand out of
the window,
wet snowflakes soothing this
open palm of mine
Apr 20, 2017
Apr 20, 2017 at 8:26 AM UTC
I dream of rivers
and that sparkle of theirs
sleeping upon sunlit waterlilies
my eyes sink into
that shimmering night of mine
and there I see
yours darling as sin
unsure of what to do
unblinking, wishful, gazing into mine
have I darkened them?
that tenderness within them
tell me, was it my doing?
drowsy river droplets kiss
that throat of yours
like I crave to
I dream of rivers
and that singing voice
of theirs lulling me
deeper into my slumber
the sun sets into
that gentle pomegranate color
of your unholy mouth
as you avert your gaze
then turn it back
and you speak about my
stars while you think
I am aware not
of it but I turn
in my sleep and
I shine brighter than
your foolish infatuation and
my eyes sink deeper
into the night of mine
I am a river
and that gaze of yours
will not halt my flow
I crave to sing
in that forest of your
heart but then sweetly
I remember mine is starlit
Apr 19, 2017
Apr 19, 2017 at 7:55 PM UTC
The sultry evening falls like the silk upon my shoulders
I kiss your throat as you write to your mother
It conflicts you, does it not?
The memory of her weeping and the very act of your hands
One clutching your pen, the other gliding over the inside of my thigh
Both ever so foolishly stained in the purest of black
It certainly conflicts me, my love, for all my tender heart longs for is this:
Stain me
Grip my hair, press me harder onto your lap, blacken me
Let me see the sweetest stars—
And may they be sweeter than the relish of raspberries upon my mouth
Write to your mother about me
I shall kiss you for it
And thus, as we clasp hands dreamily, become your muse
Mar 13, 2017
Mar 13, 2017 at 5:28 PM UTC