I've missed you
more so than you'd think.
I've also realized,
I have the worst luck
with love.
Oct 6, 2014
Oct 6, 2014 at 5:48 PM UTC
I feel like I didn't tell you that I loved you as often as I thought,
and that maybe if I had looked you in the eyes and told you I
loved you as deeply as I felt, I would still be able to love you in person
instead of having to hide behind words that wont come out.
And even though I can't have you now, I am loving you more deeply
than I have ever before and I would give anything now
to feel your lips against mine and to have your body close again.
I have never missed anyone so much before.
I want this feeling of emptiness to be filled with the presence of you being here, but instead my body aches with your absence.
Oct 5, 2014
Oct 5, 2014 at 1:03 AM UTC
I don't know exactly what I was feeling,
But my hands were shaking and it felt like the words
were never going to come out. My nerves had taken over,
It had been forever since I had seen you, and you...
you changed so much. You are so beautiful,
and all I wanted to do was engulf myself in your presence.
I wanted to be near you and learn everything I had missed.
I wanted to know how you though.
I wanted to know everything I could.
It had been so long, but suddenly you are so important to me.
I need you.
Sep 29, 2014
Sep 29, 2014 at 1:56 AM UTC
I can't stop thinking about kissing you.
The though of our lips meeting sends shivers through my body.
I long to hold you in my arms again,
I long to feel your breath against my neck,
and your hand on my thigh.
I ... I love you.
And it scares me to think of what I would do for you,
Because honestly, I don't know if you would do the same for me.
I have loved you unconditionally and have been nothing but loyal to you.
I was wrong about you. So so wrong.
You made me believe that I was the only one.
Obviously I am not good enough,
Will I ever be good enough?
I love you. I love you. I love you.
Why can't I stop loving you?
I want to tell you how you've hurt me,
But I'm afraid that I will send you away.
It's selfish to want you all to myself.
Aug 25, 2014
Aug 25, 2014 at 8:37 PM UTC
Time is a valuble thing;
and although it is merely a concept we came up with ourselves,
we still tresure it deeply.
"I don't have enough time"
Make your own time,
If you want so badly for something to happen,
you have to make it happen.
I've been sitting by for too long waiting for things
to fall right into the palm of my hands.
I wanted the world to give into me.
Then i realized; the world wasn't mine to dominate.
In itself, the world is it's own being,
For years its been captivating life far beyond our capibility.
And for people to think that our mother earth as just an object,
that we can take complete charge of,
is simply a misunderstood idea.
You see; you are exactly like the world,
You are your own being,
I wanted you to fall into me,
but then I realized that you can not take charge of other living things.
You have to let them live on their own.
If they so choose to do things for themselves; let them.
Live for yourself, not others.
Help out when you can.
Love often.
Let things grow.
Jun 28, 2014
Jun 28, 2014 at 9:38 AM UTC
How is it possible to miss someone,
whe you're sitting right next to them?
I guess I just missed the idea of us together.
But the thing I lack the most,
is knowing if you miss me too.
At that moment all I wanted to do,
was wrap you in my arms, and kiss your lips.
I wanted you to stay holding me forever.
For some reason, I felt safe, I felt secure.
You are extremely good at taking my pain away,
And all you have to do is just be there.
Jun 27, 2014
Jun 27, 2014 at 2:27 AM UTC
It was only a dream,
but honestly... it was so much more.
The time i got to spend with you,
will forever be important to me.
You will always hold a special place in my heart.
It was only a dream...
but the moments we shared,
felt so real.
When you kissed me,
It felt like i belonged somewhere.
When you kissed me,
I felt whole.
It was only a dream...
but everything about it felt so right.
Jun 15, 2014
Jun 15, 2014 at 2:45 PM UTC
I guess I was saying I wanted to get drunk
because I was too afraid to say what I actually wanted.
I was terrified to tell you how I really felt.
I figured if I told you I loved you while I was intoxicated
It could easily be covered up with the excuse that I was drinking.
I want too badly to tell you how I feel,
But I am terrified about how you'll take it.
Apr 2, 2014
Apr 2, 2014 at 1:27 AM UTC
I no longer feel joy within myself.
I'm always searching for something more
and It's ruining me because I never know what it is.
I want to be happy,
But at the same time
I don't want to feel any happier
than what I'm feeling now.
I know that if I search hard enough,
I'll find what I'm looking for
but I have to find motivation first.
It take way to much effort to even be able
to get out of bed.
Or even look at myself in the mirror.
How can I go through life
if it pains me to look at myself.
I can't keep going like this.
Dec 25, 2013
Dec 25, 2013 at 12:08 PM UTC
It's like my skin was ice,
and all I wanted to do was skate.
With the sharp metal pressed against my body
I had no more thoughts left to stop me.
I was being consumed by the monster,
that lived inside my mind.
Not only was I left with physical scars,
I was damaged on the inside.
The monster trying to claw it's way out
beat me until there was nothing left.
I sat in wonder,
trying to figure out if he was still with me.
I had no signs, but I could never be too sure.
He always had a way of letting me know of his presence,
Sometimes I would meet him in my dreams,
or I would see his name in the blood on my skin.
but more often than usual,
I could always find him in my shadow.
Nov 21, 2013
Nov 21, 2013 at 11:32 PM UTC