lady-ju
My name is Lady Ju (@itsladyju). Instagram (itsladyju) I am part of the hip hop group United Devoted Comrades. I rap, play the guitar and love to do spoken word. Thank you for checking out my poetry! :D / / You can check me out on soundcloud at https://soundcloud.com/united-devoted-comrade
She longs to fly
But her wings are broken
She cracks a smile but her joys been stolen...
She just wants to be free but freedom seems so far...
Her loads way too heavy from the weight of these scars...pain
Oh how she has experienced her share
Still mad at life cuz her daddy's not there...still mad at life cuz who **** cares...
The world?
Not at all...it's your job to get up every time that you fall...
And this type of thinking comes with a pretty big wall....
so how does she free herself and let go of the past?
When she's drowning in tears from the things of the past?
A student of life she's still taking its class. She's mad. Her hearts been through it. Trying to find God and religion won't prove it. In our silence we find answers it's the battle within.
Until she battles within she'll never be free again.
May 1, 2015
May 1, 2015 at 2:06 AM UTC
What if we started over?
Or are these mistakes valued more than a range rover?
****
There we go again
Trying to find the middle ground but wound up at the end
Fine, I’m diving in
Or maybe it’s just too late
You told me to move on
But my heart insists to wait
Great. Now what am I to do?
When everything I’ve ever wanted I found in only you.
Apr 30, 2015
Apr 30, 2015 at 3:09 AM UTC
If we don’t make it then I’ll lose trust in it all
Still thinking that you’re gonna text me or call
Wrong..
I don’t deserve it do I?
This is why I never wanted to get close and you knew why
Now I’m over here with a bottle straight zoning
You’re waiting on faith and I just keep on going
I think that’s where we fell off again
I’m pushing past mistakes
And you’re counting your sin
Never thought I was perfect
but we were perfect together
Now we’re flying two distances
With a new patch of feathers
So we’re reaching new heights
And both found a new place
But I'm wondering now did you save me a space?
Apr 30, 2015
Apr 30, 2015 at 12:36 AM UTC
What If Your Memory Erased
Every past mistake
Your heart wasn’t concerned
How the future would take place
The only thing you knew how to do
was live for today.
Then, would you finally enjoy the moment?
-Lady Ju
Jul 17, 2014
Jul 17, 2014 at 7:31 PM UTC
Every thought of you
Puts my heart in a coma
I thought I graduated from love
No wonder why I haven't received my diploma
I'm still repeating your class.
Jun 18, 2014
Jun 18, 2014 at 1:42 PM UTC
Hello Poetry,
Do you have a minute?
My mind keeps drowning in this pool that I've been diving in
It keeps on talking but my heart's just not listening
I hear a knock between my chest that doesn't seem to end
It mentioned love
And I don't want to let them in
Cuz last time, they ran off with my heart again
Anyways I thought that I would share this with you
Its the only way to get these words through
You seem to listen
And I appreciate that
I hate to admit but this love is more permanent than the skin on my back
I'm black
I know theres no changing that
And the time I wasted with them there's no changing back
But I miss them
Why is love sometimes the enemy
They say that I'm crazy
Because I'm the only one defending me
See, everyday the same ritual
My only fear is that the feelings aren't mutual.
Jun 5, 2014
Jun 5, 2014 at 1:34 PM UTC
You're the frame to my picture
Perfect
Not painted by Picasso
But your value to me is more than worth it
Am I crazy for the love I have for you?
Or crazy to think I could live my life without you?
I'd clear the roads just for you to enjoy a smooth ride
Swim through the depths of the deep end
Just to be by your side
I'd tackle your giants down with you
Tag team me in
See I let you in
Tore down my walls
As tall as Berlin
So you're sewn in my heart
without a needle or pin
Just the bond that we hold
Is so strongly within
I can't comprehend
Although I know that I'm intelligent
But truth is, I don't have to be a genius
To know that you were Heaven Sent. - Lady Ju
May 18, 2014
May 18, 2014 at 11:00 PM UTC
I know you still love me
It's kind of easy to tell
When the heart loves someone
There's no way to lock it up in a jail cell
Because it will explode through with emotions
crashing down like waves in an ocean
You can try and deny
But hearts don't lie
Those it has chosen
And I've spent a good deal
Wondering if you still cared
I guess previous conversations with others
Made me question was the love really there
I guess I never knew tears tasted sour
Until the day you said goodbye
Because you were always there
To catch them falling from my eyes
And all I can think about is will it be the same
If I have a problem will I now come to you in vain
Will you catch my tears like in the past
Will you get tired of me and the love not last
Will our hands interlock if I'm frightened or scared
Or will I pretend like it was never there
The fear haunts me daily
I guess I shouldn't be concerned if your love is fading
But tell me if your love for me is changing
I deserve to know. -Lady Ju
May 18, 2014
May 18, 2014 at 8:07 PM UTC
Perfection would be nice
But Perfect I am not
I OFTEN make bad decisions
Even when I have Good Intentions
If I measured myself next to you
Would you say that I'm bad?
But since I measure myself next to God
I've quite aware of the mistakes that I've had
But I'm not covered in "mistakes,"
I'm covered in His Grace
So when you ask me about my "sins,"
I already know they've been washed away
Take it easy there
Why do we condemn others, puff up our chest
Do we forget that we've all made a mess?
*** Check.
Drunk you bet
Lied? Why yes.
You have a list? What's next?
I've never tried to hide that I'm a mess
And even in my worst days, I'm still incredibly blessed
Isn't it so easy to measure the "sin" of those who show it so well
But the ones covered in pride, greed, envy, deceit (etc) are those you can't tell
Shall we judge those that sin differently than me and you
Or let He or She cast the first stone if making no mistakes is what you do
I've wrestled with bitterness from the pain that needed my validation
But what can a hard heart fix, but admit it needs help,
crying out in desperation
If my sins are forgiven, past, present and future
Why am I still so slow to repent?
Maybe my "spiritual walk," has made me this content
Maybe this spiritual walk has made me rather distant
Am I searching for God
Or just not listening
Meaning, sometimes I can be overly consumed with rules
Like I'm not doing it right
When God says its simple
Just move to the light
I'm free so if I feel locked in chains
What will remain?
A Slave to my man-made traditions instead of committed to God
And even in trying to do the "right things,"
I still make mistakes
But I'm not covered in Mistakes
I'm covered in Grace
See Perfection would be nice
But perfect I am not
I often make bad decisions
Even when I have good intentions
Traded in my contacts
To see God's vision
Because, I live in my flesh
Every battle comes with a new test
Some I win, some don't end
And I've been hit with the curse called, "I'm Human."
C.2014 Lady Ju
May 17, 2014
May 17, 2014 at 7:51 PM UTC
Let me run my hands gently through your hair
Staying up all night kissing you everywhere
Gazing at the moon and wondering how it got so bright
Then wrestle like two kittens that like to play fight
Let the innocence of love like kids
Bring us excitement to have fun
Not wondering about tomorrow
Or what's yet to come
As the seasons pass
Let the intimacy of our minds grow in development of each other's hearts
Then we'll be able to detect if we were truly meant to be
Or grow apart - Lady Ju
May 16, 2014
May 16, 2014 at 12:30 PM UTC