kzarina-leonardo - Hello Poetry

It's been awhile since I've spoken to myself. Lately, I've been ignoring my feeling and thoughts. I am sorry but then again I'm not. Because this is the only guaranteed way that I won't end up crying in my bed at the end of the night. What a sad world this is.

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Dec 16, 2014

Dec 16, 2014 at 5:18 AM UTC

Hi again.

It's been awhile since I've spoken to myself. Lately, I've been ignoring my feeling and thoughts. I am sorry but then again I'm not. Because this is the only guaranteed way that I won't end up crying in my bed at the end of the night. What a sad world this is.

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Why doesn't this feel right? Why is it that it seems like you don't want to be with me? Our love isn't as strong. Or maybe because one of us doesn't want to be in this love anymore. What should I do? Let you go and no longer have you feel like you have to force yourself to love me? Or keep lying to myself that our love will get better. Like a dying animal, I think we all know what's best. -K.L.

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Jun 27, 2014

Jun 27, 2014 at 5:46 AM UTC

Why?

Why doesn't this feel right? Why is it that it seems like you don't want to be with me? Our love isn't as strong. Or maybe because one of us doesn't want to be in this love anymore. What should I do? Let you go and no longer have you feel like you have to force yourself to love me? Or keep lying to myself that our love will get better. Like a dying animal, I think we all know what's best. -K.L.

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I not going to say you never loved me, because I know you did. But that's the thing, "did". Why did you have to lie me & yourself that you still loved me? God knows how long you've been lying... It's just depressing because this love was once so beautiful and unlike no other. I believed that this love was going to last forever. But you proved me wrong, not everything last forever. If only you would have hurt me with the truth, rather than to comfort me with lies. So here I am doing you a favor, I am letting you go, completely. I won't hold you back no longer. I am setting you free. But before you leave, I want to thank you for being my first love. For being the man to showed me true happiness & true love. I know that next girl you love will be the luckiest girl in the universe. You will forever be in a special place in my heart. & no, I don't hate you. I love you. That's why I'm letting you go. Because I can't force you to love me the way I love you. So Thank you my love. For everything. <3

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Jun 8, 2014

Jun 8, 2014 at 3:41 AM UTC

Note #56

I not going to say you never loved me, because I know you did. But that's the thing, "did". Why did you have to lie me & yourself that you still loved me? God knows how long you've been lying... It's just depressing because this love was once so beautiful and unlike no other. I believed that this love was going to last forever. But you proved me wrong, not everything last forever. If only you would have hurt me with the truth, rather than to comfort me with lies. So here I am doing you a favor, I am letting you go, completely. I won't hold you back no longer. I am setting you free. But before you leave, I want to thank you for being my first love. For being the man to showed me true happiness & true love. I know that next girl you love will be the luckiest girl in the universe. You will forever be in a special place in my heart. & no, I don't hate you. I love you. That's why I'm letting you go. Because I can't force you to love me the way I love you. So Thank you my love. For everything. <3

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No longer will I take this pain. You've suffocated me with your lies. Stabbed me in the back too many times. & You've broken my heart so much that there is no longer anything to break. My heart, my soul, is nonexistent. -K.L.

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Jun 4, 2014

Jun 4, 2014 at 11:05 PM UTC

No longer.

No longer will I take this pain. You've suffocated me with your lies. Stabbed me in the back too many times. & You've broken my heart so much that there is no longer anything to break. My heart, my soul, is nonexistent. -K.L.

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It's funny. Just last night you told me how much you miss me & how much you love me. I believed you. Then today I saw you talking to the girl who ruined our relationship. It hurts because I know your feelings for her. I know you think she beautiful & independent. You said it yourself. I know you like her. I can tell, because the way you looked her, well that's the way you use to look at me. -K.L.

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May 29, 2014

May 29, 2014 at 7:58 PM UTC

Ouch.

It's funny. Just last night you told me how much you miss me & how much you love me. I believed you. Then today I saw you talking to the girl who ruined our relationship. It hurts because I know your feelings for her. I know you think she beautiful & independent. You said it yourself. I know you like her. I can tell, because the way you looked her, well that's the way you use to look at me. -K.L.

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My top favorite quotes are: "Never give up." "Everything will be okay at the end, if it's not okay it's not the end." "Never regret anything because at one time it was exactly what we wanted." "Karma is only a ***** if you are." & "Life becomes easier when you learn to accept an apology you never got." <3

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May 29, 2014

May 29, 2014 at 2:09 AM UTC

Quotes.

My top favorite quotes are: "Never give up." "Everything will be okay at the end, if it's not okay it's not the end." "Never regret anything because at one time it was exactly what we wanted." "Karma is only a ***** if you are." & "Life becomes easier when you learn to accept an apology you never got." <3

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11 was your lucky number 13 was mine. So we made "11:13 make a wish." I still make a wish even though you're not here to make one with me. I wish that I could go back in the past & fix the mistakes I made. Then again I know that wish wouldn't come true. So, I wish that whoever you end up with, they will be able to give you the happiness I couldn't provide. You will always have a special place in my heart. My first love, I love you. -K.L.

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May 27, 2014

May 27, 2014 at 2:21 AM UTC

11:13

11 was your lucky number 13 was mine. So we made "11:13 make a wish." I still make a wish even though you're not here to make one with me. I wish that I could go back in the past & fix the mistakes I made. Then again I know that wish wouldn't come true. So, I wish that whoever you end up with, they will be able to give you the happiness I couldn't provide. You will always have a special place in my heart. My first love, I love you. -K.L.

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Before when I called you, You would answer with, "Hi beautiful." Now you answer with, "What?" Before you would end the call with, "I love you more than anything." Now you end it with, "I gotta go." Before you would write me love letters. Now you don't even call me back. I need a lot of super glue so I can glue our love back. Because this love, is corrupting... -K.L.

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May 25, 2014

May 25, 2014 at 10:22 PM UTC

Before & Now

Before when I called you, You would answer with, "Hi beautiful." Now you answer with, "What?" Before you would end the call with, "I love you more than anything." Now you end it with, "I gotta go." Before you would write me love letters. Now you don't even call me back. I need a lot of super glue so I can glue our love back. Because this love, is corrupting... -K.L.

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Remember when we first Tangoed? Remember those summer nights where we'd FaceTime till sunrise? Remember that night we poured our hearts to each other? Remember when you asked me to wear your jersey? Remember our first date? Remember our first kiss? Remember when our love was stronger than no other? What happened? -K.L.

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May 23, 2014

May 23, 2014 at 1:50 AM UTC

Remember when.

Remember when we first Tangoed? Remember those summer nights where we'd FaceTime till sunrise? Remember that night we poured our hearts to each other? Remember when you asked me to wear your jersey? Remember our first date? Remember our first kiss? Remember when our love was stronger than no other? What happened? -K.L.

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Nights like this I want to lock myself in my room & lay in bed. I want to listen to Daughter & Adele. I want to watch Forrest Gump Then lay in my bed and cry myself to sleep. -K.L.

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May 22, 2014

May 22, 2014 at 12:14 AM UTC

Nights like this.

Nights like this I want to lock myself in my room & lay in bed. I want to listen to Daughter & Adele. I want to watch Forrest Gump Then lay in my bed and cry myself to sleep. -K.L.

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