Being alone doesn't feel the same
You're on my mind and whose to blame?
I want to yell I want to cry
I want to love you i want to die
you're in my dreams all the time
I wish I could make you mine
what do I do where do I go?
I want to run I can't let you know
I'm tethered to you I feel the thread
The thoughts of you race in my head
I know that I didn't want to stay
but I dig my grave deeper everyday
I wanted you to know I cared
I felt too much and now i'm scared
of losing you and losing friends
I don't want this to start or end
Nov 19, 2017
Nov 19, 2017 at 2:28 AM UTC
To even think of her name makes those words bounce around my brain,
As hard as a head would be thrashed around a car in a crash,
For one To make me feel these very emotions, it makes me feel insane,
once they're out of your life its a missing piece never the same.
My chest aches and throbs like the bones of those passed their time in a nursing home frail, alone, waiting to die closing in on the last goodbye.
Her jade coloured eyes glisten like the gems they are, but only in a picture of my mind that it had taken, despite me wanting to forget, trying to not let regret stab through like a bayonet to my heart, it spikes through when i'm lonesome and the sadness overcomes my mind at dark times.
After All the time that passed all the tears we cried everything we learned I feel I'd rather die than lie and say i'm okay while drying my eyes and quickly running off with a quick goodbye.
Than have your name come back to me have my body shake and my conscious scream trying to escape this dream turned nightmare trapped in this reoccurring theme.
But for now you're gone and it might be for good for nothing I do can ever come close oh what I wouldn't what I couldn't say to make you stay
All the stones skipped to the sea making wishes on stars for thee all those coins in the fountain, all the words I put together a failed art none of which could fix my heart
I still wish I can I wish I might wish once more for this love to start almost every night hoping something might. just bring your beauty back
But there still nothing but aching in this sinking heart with no end in sight
Nov 16, 2015
Nov 16, 2015 at 2:12 AM UTC
My heart breaks as i hear my sigh
echo through the midnight sky
wondering, thinking, asking why?
what causes these loves to pass me by
Leaving without so much as a word
leaving all the thoughts in my head broken and unheard
I never told you how I feel
Cause your love towards me was never real
I live loving who I think you were
Drinking away the feelings till memories blur
I'm stuck down here asking why
Why I let these people make cry
I consider myself so unlucky you see
Cause you fell for him instead of for me
But, We will soldier on put our hearts in a cast
Because one day we will find a true love to last
Aug 28, 2015
Aug 28, 2015 at 2:23 AM UTC
so much can be stolen when we live for ourselves
I can't live this way much It makes life a hell
I'll give all to others and hope for the best
trusting giving to others will end the aching in my chest
some call me modest and selfless and look on with pride
others call me selfish and foolish and see hate in my eyes
whatever they do I hope my actions keep true
because one day I hope I can laugh it off with you
i'll cut off bit by bit of the dreams I have left
cause the things I want for myself seem to be taken by theft
my words fall on deaf ears as if they're pretended
cause so many others left their dreams unattended
Apr 27, 2015
Apr 27, 2015 at 7:20 AM UTC
My words don't carry the weight that they should
If there was something I could do to make you care I would
But you're so far away and our love will never be
all these things I feared to foresee
I've been waiting for your call skipping stones to the sea
knowing I won't hear back cause there are loves better than me
all these letters don't go the distance to reach you
but i'm so far gone from your life that they don't need to
I feel embarrassed to say that I need you
our lives had to split cause of errors that we all do... you though me so untrue
truthfully I wished to take back all the things I did so crude
the late hours of the morning keep me up with this awful mood
I wonder why you're still always there in my dreams at night
but when I wake up you're never there by morning light
Mar 16, 2015
Mar 16, 2015 at 9:06 PM UTC
it's strange that every time I look at you
I regret the things I couldn't do
I can feel my heart shattering all over again
through all the numbness I still feel the pain
but you're such a beautiful work of art
that I can't look away at all
I wish I could win your heart
reality hits me like a cannon ball
it tortures me that you're not mine
and that I couldn't fix the errors I made
I want everything to be fine
but it's not changing no matter how much i've prayed
Feb 13, 2015
Feb 13, 2015 at 3:07 AM UTC
you find it strange I have to write down all the words that come to my head when I think of you
poetry, an artform
I find it stranger that you're a work of art yourself and you don't even have to try
thats way more beautiful than my words could ever be
Feb 5, 2015
Feb 5, 2015 at 2:32 AM UTC
all these nights writing rhymes
thinking through all the same ****
wasting all my ******* time
hoping luck might come my was a bit
asking myself whats the point to it all
trying to help but wasting my breath
going through stupid medication withdrawal
thinking of ways to bring my own death
everything thing seems to be gray now
I can't even write **** trying to make this poetic.... **** everything
Feb 4, 2015
Feb 4, 2015 at 5:05 AM UTC
pure soul with shining eyes
your absence leaves me wondering why
what could I have done to save you and I
the thought of our love brings me to cry
spending all theses nights watching the sky
getting caught up in our own lies
I want to give it another try
but all i'll get is another goodbye
you shouldn't have left my heartstrings tied
because without your kiss i'll surely die
Feb 4, 2015
Feb 4, 2015 at 4:53 AM UTC
I know you probably heard it a thousand ******* times
But this life it will get better so keep your dreams alive
One day this rain will let up
So keep the dream alive
The weather always changes
In life's skies throughout our lives
Some days things just don't work
We get trapped in our minds
Waiting for miracles to show up
We think we waste our time
Spending nights I'm segregation
With broken minds and broken hearts
Don't let it **** your motivation
You're a gift you were from the start
Maybe there will be days where the magic kinda fades
This world it's sorta tragic but we'll make it through the pain
It can't always be like this
We won't spend every single day
Bound to a depression
From what the others say
Someday we'll make it out of here
We'll be stronger from it all
The skies will part and clear
Cause our greatness isn't small
Jan 28, 2015
Jan 28, 2015 at 12:04 PM UTC