you
are my salvation
you
save me
I live without you
but it feels lacking and lonely
how did I do this before?
I want to breathe your air
I want to fall into your arms
and feel your lips against me
I want to feel your love and know its true
I want you
I want all of you
without you
it's cold and it's dark and I can't get away from myself
I want to be with you
always
every hour of every day
I want you
I miss you
I miss you so much it hurts me
it hurts me
it hurts me so much I don't know how I get through it
I don't know how I make it to sunset without falling apart
you kept me together
you held me together
you made me want to stay that way
you changed everything
I gave you everything
I poured my heart and soul into loving you
you're gone now
and I don't know how to get it back
where am I without you?
I am lost, adrift out at sea
I can save myself
I know I can
but the wound you left feels like a bullet
shot through my heart
and all I have are bandaids to patch it together
I have to live without you
I have to live with missing you
one day this will be over
one day I'll stop feeling the ghost of your touch
one day I'll erase your smile
your eyes
your voice
from the workings of my soul
and I will learn to breathe again
and I will learn to save myself
and be my own salvation
Dec 27, 2018
Dec 27, 2018 at 3:01 PM UTC
love me
thrill me
kiss me
**** me
wrap those arms around me
and tell me i'm yours
keep me close
close to you and close to your heart
warm me with sweet kisses trailing down my spine
tell me you love me
but show me too
laugh with me
play with me
be with me
whisper to me in the darkest hours
find your way to me down the fading path
we'll be together, darling
we'll hold each other up, always
i'll be yours if you'll be mine
we'll tangle ourselves up in these hearts
until the knots are too much
and it'll tear us apart to break free
the leaving would ruin us
ruin me
to thrash and struggle to walk away
would be apocalyptic
but don't think of that now
i know nothing lasts forever
but our love will blossom and grow
within this fleeting gasp of eternity
Dec 27, 2018
Dec 27, 2018 at 2:50 PM UTC
This weight
on my chest
slipping into my core
and pooling there
eating away at everything else
and leaving only this hollowness
I am empty, I say
I am hollow and cold, I say
fill me, warm me, fix me
But you don’t need fixing, they say
You don’t need anyone but yourself, they say
I know I know I know
but
what do I do with this heavy hollow feeling?
it drags me down like an anchor into the dark depths
I want to laugh and dance and go wild
I want to breathe in life
and exhale everything else
I want to be held, to be touched – anything please
I want to talk to kiss to love – something please
I want meaning
passion
burning desire
but more than anything
I want calm, quiet, perfect happiness
I want love
I want to be known
Dec 27, 2018
Dec 27, 2018 at 2:36 PM UTC
I want a love that devours me
not in one big bite
with a snap of sharp, hungry teeth
but piece by piece
nibbling around the hard edges until it meets the soft and chewy center
until it tastes the very core of me
the heart – my heart
I want a love that devours me
not all at once
but slowly – slowly now
so slowly I don’t even notice until that last crumb dissolves
I want a love that consumes me
I want a love that makes my pulse go wild and steals the breath from my lungs
I want a love that makes me smile at the thought
a love that threads itself through dreams
that holds me close and keeps me warm through the coldest nights
I want a love that’s all mine
I want love that envelops me in its tender embrace
and drowns me in the weight of this new
strange
happiness
Dec 27, 2018
Dec 27, 2018 at 2:28 PM UTC
whisper to me
of death and misfortune
sing me a song
of tragedy and terror
lull me with a lullaby
of pain and sorrow
do not whisper
sweet nothings
that mean nothing
do not sing
of love
everlasting
there will be no lullabies
of elegant happiness
picture perfect
tell me your truths
your lies are only empty words
and a waste of breath
Jul 25, 2018
Jul 25, 2018 at 10:43 PM UTC
Breathe me in
Let me slip past the part
of your lips
And run down your throat like honey
like thick sweetness
soothing and smiling
Take me into you
Let me take a part of you
and make it mine
And I will have a piece of you
a souvenir of this love
that I will cherish always
Hold me close dear
Wrap those arms around me
Feel my warmth bleed into yours
My breath your air
as our mouths touch and transform into a kiss
Kiss me sweetly dear
Whisper of our love
of how our two hearts beat as one
Touch me softly
and pull me into you
Forever is a fantasy
only fools fall into
But I would be a fool for you
If you would be a fool for me
Because this?
This is perfect happiness
This is love, truly
And, baby, it's ours.
Jul 25, 2018
Jul 25, 2018 at 8:03 PM UTC
Sing a siren song for me, love
Draw me in with empty promises
and sugar sweet lies
Hold me close
Kiss me dear
Take my breath, pull it from my lungs
I'll long for your embrace long after you're gone
My broken heart an anchor lost to sea
Jul 25, 2018
Jul 25, 2018 at 7:56 PM UTC
There's nothing he can say
to make me forgive him
and maybe that's unfair
but not everyone deserves a second chance
Jul 3, 2018
Jul 3, 2018 at 6:12 PM UTC
MY SEXUALITY IS NOT SOMETHING FOR YOU TO GAWK AT
MY LOVE IS NOT FOR YOUR ENTERTAINMENT
OUR KISSES ARE NOT PERFORMED FOR YOU
WE ARE NOT AN EXHIBIT THERE FOR YOUR VIEWING
'TOGETHER' DOES NOT INVOLVE YOU
SO KINDLY **** OFF
Jun 23, 2018
Jun 23, 2018 at 3:42 AM UTC