When the one below hurts a queen
Why, when she fights back, it is mean?
When the world so CRUEL, learns to bite
searching for every ounce of spite.
Her voice so loud compared to the whispers she had to tolerate,
little ****** forming boundless hate.
Years and years of keeping still.
One wrong move and it will spill.
Tears and blood, maybe a throw of violence
seems to break their sense of "rightness."
Throw her away, for one mistake.
tell me why
they sent me away.
May 1
May 1, 2026 at 8:32 AM UTC
When I told you no
And you pushed anyway
Ripping of claws through flesh and blood.
Blood.
You only stopped when I leaked blood.
Days and days
Weeks you never said a word to me after
I wanted to die.
To stop feeling nothing
It broke me
Andrew.
You do not understand my mercy.
I could **** your dreams with the same dagger you ripped my heart out with.
It would be so easy.
So quick to tell an adult who won’t tolerate you the way I did.
and wow.
you’d be gone.
My mother wants you gone, as does my father. Your father doesn’t understand what you’ve done. I have no clue what fable of lies you told to him was.
Maybe, how I “came onto you”
when all I wanted was to be held in an embrace of security
Or how I “pushed”
WHEN YOU WERE THE ONE TO TOUCH ME, YOU SICK *******
I can’t explain or show to you how much it hurts because nobody
I mean
Nobody
Will really understand it all.
God knows they tried.
But they’re tired of me bringing it up
Searching for a solution they don’t have.
God knows your regret.
I hope.
Because I sure as hell won't forgive or forget.
We have a festival in two days.
My stomach churns at the thought of being on a bus with you again.
pain
pain
pain
pain
why did you do this to me
why didn’t i stop you
why did you break me
what is wrong with you
i still feel it all
the marks
the pain
the memories
how i tried for so very long to get you to love me, and you did for a week.
i loved you for five years.
you loved me for none.
not the real me, at least.
I am not a saint
I am not a god
I am me.
pain
pain
pain
It hurts
you hurt
I cannot even look at you.
not without regret or lingering love.
I didn’t leave because I stopped loving you.
I left so I could love myself.
touch.
a fickle thing.
something I no longer want.
I want to be held by someone who never hurt me the way you did.
Is that too much to ask?
pages.
at least 113 letters were given to you of my love and volition
the last
w a s n o t
It declared my pain and sorrow
YOU IGNORED THEM ALL.
AGAIN AND AGAIN I ASKED
DO YOU LOVE ME?
You would say yes.
YOU DID NOT.
tell me now, you wretched, disgusting man.
did
you
love
her
?
I hope you had fun while it lasted
cause you’ll never get that chance again
Your mind won’t let you.
i dont want to let you break me
you have
doesn’t mean i didn’t fight back.
Everything you gave me that I could hold through a night
Is gone
The voices of you remain
now i hate touch
in all ways shapes and forms.
My parents are hurt by this
My dad
Unlikely as it is,
Understands me more than my mother.
I’m just too scared of boys trapped in a mans body to ask.
Apr 13
Apr 13, 2026 at 4:10 PM UTC
