knowingalaska - Hello Poetry

My mind, my Alaska wild and rugged beautiful but brutal survival first burying my demons is the wolf that kills just a puppy? have I finally reached the land so untouchable and wild? isolated and hidden waiting to be found an eternal place buried deep in Alaska where no one goes protection in isolation leading only to confusion you show yourself piece by piece then you run back into the woods unsettled and unpredictable it may erupt at any time beauty built on violence torn apart and broken you lay there bleeding until you're ripped apart and eaten white powder of purity falls on you serene in your silence you become uninhabited and suddenly you're back to protecting cold to touch but you're safe for now hiding in the wilderness of Alaska who are you?

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Feb 9, 2020

Feb 9, 2020 at 5:30 PM UTC

Hiding in Alaska

My mind, my Alaska wild and rugged beautiful but brutal survival first burying my demons is the wolf that kills just a puppy? have I finally reached the land so untouchable and wild? isolated and hidden waiting to be found an eternal place buried deep in Alaska where no one goes protection in isolation leading only to confusion you show yourself piece by piece then you run back into the woods unsettled and unpredictable it may erupt at any time beauty built on violence torn apart and broken you lay there bleeding until you're ripped apart and eaten white powder of purity falls on you serene in your silence you become uninhabited and suddenly you're back to protecting cold to touch but you're safe for now hiding in the wilderness of Alaska who are you?

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I sit and stare at the fragments of myself around me utter demise of the mask I've worn for so long long past helplessness and crying numb in the detachment of who I thought I am no appetite for life lost in a haze of dissociation disconnection in the prison of my mind the world goes by in an unfamiliar pace I'm finely broken I can no longer hold myself together exhausted with trying intrusive thoughts dragging my weak body down time to face what I've hidden from

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Feb 9, 2020

Feb 9, 2020 at 5:23 PM UTC

Fragmentation of Alaska

I sit and stare at the fragments of myself around me utter demise of the mask I've worn for so long long past helplessness and crying numb in the detachment of who I thought I am no appetite for life lost in a haze of dissociation disconnection in the prison of my mind the world goes by in an unfamiliar pace I'm finely broken I can no longer hold myself together exhausted with trying intrusive thoughts dragging my weak body down time to face what I've hidden from

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back and better than ever so distant and numb completely frozen in an never ending hell a different speed walking alone in a blur able to survive the ingrained routine but by night that's when it creeps up on you that unbearable pain in your chest sobbing completely alone wanting to give up more than ever unable to care about the promised better future stuck in only know thinking it will never change a prisoner of irrationality lost in how it makes you feel it told me there's no way out but to leave it wasn't me it changed me took over me it didn't let me write only know as it has been weakened

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Dec 1, 2018

Dec 1, 2018 at 5:10 PM UTC

The Pill

back and better than ever so distant and numb completely frozen in an never ending hell a different speed walking alone in a blur able to survive the ingrained routine but by night that's when it creeps up on you that unbearable pain in your chest sobbing completely alone wanting to give up more than ever unable to care about the promised better future stuck in only know thinking it will never change a prisoner of irrationality lost in how it makes you feel it told me there's no way out but to leave it wasn't me it changed me took over me it didn't let me write only know as it has been weakened

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One of those days where everything is too much you feel the weight of everyone's expression words and emotions drag you down suffocating your fight every sentence slowly drains you every light is too bright noise piercing your every cell to the core the sky begins to fall on you gravity against you your body is dragged down the pressure is too much to bare the world weighing down your mind your mind weighing down the world the ache for silence the need to be alone the anchor of life's energy attached to you the demand of everything needing to be felt the prison of forced empathy one of those days where you feel everything

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Nov 10, 2018

Nov 10, 2018 at 5:18 PM UTC

One of those days

One of those days where everything is too much you feel the weight of everyone's expression words and emotions drag you down suffocating your fight every sentence slowly drains you every light is too bright noise piercing your every cell to the core the sky begins to fall on you gravity against you your body is dragged down the pressure is too much to bare the world weighing down your mind your mind weighing down the world the ache for silence the need to be alone the anchor of life's energy attached to you the demand of everything needing to be felt the prison of forced empathy one of those days where you feel everything

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I fear living for someone centring someone in my universe I fear not not wanting to be alone constant noise in my silence I fear wasting my time on someone putting my life on hold for them to leave I fear a lifetime of small talk being a product of their routines and races I fear not finding belonging not being in control I fear the prison of my mind never finding the person I don't fear with I fear not being special in the insignificance never being not afraid to be vulnerable I fear only existing

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Nov 10, 2018

Nov 10, 2018 at 4:44 PM UTC

I fear

I fear living for someone centring someone in my universe I fear not not wanting to be alone constant noise in my silence I fear wasting my time on someone putting my life on hold for them to leave I fear a lifetime of small talk being a product of their routines and races I fear not finding belonging not being in control I fear the prison of my mind never finding the person I don't fear with I fear not being special in the insignificance never being not afraid to be vulnerable I fear only existing

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It's all a haze a frustrating haze feeling too much thinking so deeply I see the outside life the routine the race a bystander watching the life we're all abosrbed into I can't explain I can't put into words It's too big too complex for the limit of our vocabulary I'm left here in a haze looking for the words truth will never just be there hidden behind the focus we are taught to see I'm trying to see It's all a haze

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Nov 10, 2018

Nov 10, 2018 at 4:21 PM UTC

Haze

It's all a haze a frustrating haze feeling too much thinking so deeply I see the outside life the routine the race a bystander watching the life we're all abosrbed into I can't explain I can't put into words It's too big too complex for the limit of our vocabulary I'm left here in a haze looking for the words truth will never just be there hidden behind the focus we are taught to see I'm trying to see It's all a haze

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You're a dangerous place but I can't help it your darkness intrigues me you pull me in I find myself coming back to you you change me how I feel how I look how I think in silence you're all I hear lost in darkness around you so powerful so strong something, someone no one understands unfamilarity but I want more you drain me you take every ounce of energy I have but you're above all your knowledge your ability I must know more you're my bestfriend you're my enemy Alaska

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Nov 10, 2018

Nov 10, 2018 at 3:59 PM UTC

Alaska

You're a dangerous place but I can't help it your darkness intrigues me you pull me in I find myself coming back to you you change me how I feel how I look how I think in silence you're all I hear lost in darkness around you so powerful so strong something, someone no one understands unfamilarity but I want more you drain me you take every ounce of energy I have but you're above all your knowledge your ability I must know more you're my bestfriend you're my enemy Alaska

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a stare to get what you want a gaze that manipulates a seduction that will always leave you wanting more a demon dressed as a daydream evil disguised as elegance Red will win everytime it will entice you play with you control you pierce your soul you will never understand red it will dominate you a fire you can't help but fall into Red bites your lips with only the eyes a confidence you wish you had Red will get you everytime

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Nov 10, 2018

Nov 10, 2018 at 3:56 PM UTC

Red

a stare to get what you want a gaze that manipulates a seduction that will always leave you wanting more a demon dressed as a daydream evil disguised as elegance Red will win everytime it will entice you play with you control you pierce your soul you will never understand red it will dominate you a fire you can't help but fall into Red bites your lips with only the eyes a confidence you wish you had Red will get you everytime

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