Remember we used to take the twelve to the beach and look at stranded jellyfish
Coming together and pacing our steps
Remember how much the dogs in the harnesses loved to fall into one other
And then the sky would split and joy crawled up to my lap
Cause I love not changing right now
Sitting in a bar named after a weapon
Nov 25, 2025
Nov 25, 2025 at 6:27 PM UTC
i need one of those ergonomical chairs for my soul
something doesn’t sit right
my door is always open and well my door is always closed
its the draft
the thick streaks of track on the map look like combs tightly traveling through the city
picking out lice combing the hair of the streets all american now
the streets all checkered and blocked
and the night happens to me accepting defeat
as the northern sea is quietly carrying fleet.
Nov 20, 2025
Nov 20, 2025 at 6:38 PM UTC
The Times New Roman font is scary, it is scary beyond measure
a headstrong, opaque font standing on the parapets of the only city in the world
the one city featured everywhere and all the time the city never dormant
there's no names to words they don't belong to anyone they are free like Borat
i do have money i could use to get there and a friend who lives there too
but the floor is lava everywhere and the pharaohs in tombs
scratch silky with their sandy hands they beg to be let out
they scream in Times New Roman as I’m searching for new routes
new ways to see my family not the pictures of hortensias
the panel houses ping pong second hand sunshine, only light, like pensions
for the language spoken in the multifunctional rooms
is always written in Times New Roman its the default it's my truth
Nov 19, 2025
Nov 19, 2025 at 9:09 AM UTC
I keep forgetting something in the other room
I walk along a long hallway, past multiple doors, behind one there is an artwork stretched across the floor
I walk past three mirrors and a lot of unused storage room like future for upcoming graduates
Past a statue of two religion-men in robes frozen in bronze, past a crystal calla, laying on the side, an old-timer and a motorcycle model, past a series of pictures and intricate teaware
I reach the bedroom where my friend's teddy bear lies, waiting
She had left me it for comfort when she noticed how much comfort it gives me
Like when I was howling for my mother at my first day in daycare and a boy offered me his teddy bear
I could not even see past the tears, vision blurry until im back bed before work folding glasses
I still faintly smell her on the teddy bear, she always smells like summer, like tropical things, cocopeat and mangrove leaf,
And then, on my long way to the bathrooms I remember laying in rental sunbeds on a beach at night, stargazing and talking until we no longer couldn’t, and she said this was her favorite thing to do until the tide came in and started licking at the feet of the beds and I had then wished the dark water would carry us away into the long hallways of sleep
But we went to the bungalow and waited to get on with the trip and with the tired lies we tell ourselves like little heirlooms as attempts at intergenerational connection into an unnecessary future in a glass cabinet and an unfinished painting of a shaking flower.
Nov 13, 2025
Nov 13, 2025 at 3:53 PM UTC
i wish i could reach into it again
everyone looks like they’re from hey arnold
and i feel like the catdog
how do people make things seem so sad
its easy to make someone act foolishly when they are sad
why do they not want me to know whats going on
i barely do without them
i barely know what the weather is
once again a cameo from the northern sea
i couldn’t come to visit it the wind was so strong that i couldn’t see
so i left it to watch itself
punishing these lands for their improbably annoying weather
i feel safe in memory
as the northern herring gulls, for some reason quiet and pensive,
glide past my floor
in the brothel of my mind
Jan 26, 2025
Jan 26, 2025 at 5:51 PM UTC
I am looking at his laptop
There, a rotated sphere is stabbed through the middle
An axis like any other but it is his work and he takes a drink
Some girl in thin boots passes by as she looks for a seat
She clutches her laptop
The laptops are everywhere like a silent dignified force I watch
My screen
It is dark and in between mysterious grease drops and dust particles I see my face
Not clearly
Just enough to get the gist of what we are dealing with today
Not Helen more like
Penelope on Ithaca
Sometimes I open the map and study outlines of islands in the default format
My laptop skills are far removed from making programmed ridgeback Bolts spin I see
The reflection of somebody who studies something so superficial
I build things too I hope
But these things
Like odysseys are ROIs in due time
I look over to him again
His screen is now a chat
And a red heart is sent by the other person
I look back and turn my computer back on
Though lighter I still
See myself I touch
The screen gently
The dent makes a blueish pulse I press
A little harder into the glowing screen
More colors of the rainbow I see
Green in some places I roll
My thumb into the matter
The screen is buckling the whole library tucks I press
Harder
The dent is the skin of a rainbow
And my thumb goes on top of the matrix
I press even more
Until it cracks and
I can’t see my face anymore
Jan 25, 2025
Jan 25, 2025 at 5:19 PM UTC
They’re advertising tick vaccines again on big vinyl tarp
When you touch it it’s warm
It bounces a little in gentle wavelike lateral movement
A few days later, even if nothing happened
They suspend the giant insect down
By multiple strings, slowly
Bad mooded, hooded, brooding interns in chunky handyman shoes roll up the decommissioned plane
They leave it by their truck and sneak off to get a snack
While I figure out what would happen if I squeezed into the scroll
They wouldn’t notice a body in the roll
I do it and wiggle my way up to the tick
It has a big red belly
I observe it’s expandable shell
It embraces me with its eight jointed arms and I fall asleep until I find
They are bringing the tarp to a sunlit field
At the industry district
Where the bus stops aren’t named after streets but after factory parts
„Decommission Plant“
We melt waiting for our turn in the furnace.
Jan 9, 2025
Jan 9, 2025 at 4:41 PM UTC
Two wide open arms
phrygian, pumping with generous excitement
preparing food or pouring water
I am a stray licking at puddles
blowing past the frigid opening hours of
anabolic windows
drafting out the nutty smoke of tobacco
bleeding out into the air
I say that I like, enjoy being cold
I prefer it
and San Fransisco is far,
but I’d love to go
me and my wet, refrigerated soul.
Jan 8, 2025
Jan 8, 2025 at 4:53 PM UTC
The protagonist is Hope,
Mesmerizing,
Could it ever give up?
Takes the scarf and then the keys,
The two different socks are still an issue,
But Hope promises to stop.
Hope goes out the door,
Shuts it loudly,
Wakes me up,
I rise without it.
It goes to work with all the folk,
It checks in proper,
In and out,
Like the wheels of intercities,
Reading seams of rails aloud.
They're conveniently placed,
Right below my bedroom window front.
The train that Hope has boarded trails on
With scraping screeches
Through said bedroom like a joke.
Like the Triplets of Belleville,
I am the dog,
I bark right at it,
Hit the beat at which the wheels
Shift through the rails
As they charge into a whistle,
And also hope’s inside there,
Nestled,
Sitting proudly by the window
Headed into the city.
You can’t hear the sounds from inside of the rail jet
they are muffled,
almost pleasant.
Hope goes unhidden,
Always present,
Steady, stuck,
Like scorpions in resin.
So Hope travels on,
Into the city,
Travels lightly,
No possessions,
As it works
And drinks its coffee,
Jittered slightly,
Stamps letters into word processors,
Gets a sandwich at the Prêt.
The work is good,
All good
And well
And good
And well
And good again!
It’s all so good,
Why should it not be?
The answer's predetermined, set.
Hope comes home with something edible
Wrapped in cellophane
And surely meant to **** me
As I douse it in some Heinz
Hope usually comes home at different,
untraceable, untrackable times.
When it finally comes back,
When the day draws to a close,
When Hope is folding its attire,
Its business casual clothes,
I burst alight with laughter,
Panicked,
I ask again if all’s ok.
Hope turns and says, "Don’t worry 'bout it."
I scream,
Jump up,
Lunge at it,
Punch the space right where it stood,
And hear another train horn fizzle as it whistles through my room.
Jan 7, 2025
Jan 7, 2025 at 2:58 PM UTC
sometimes i wonder if i’ll ever forget
you get off at rue de la pompe and me at la muette
something-something
beautiful soft lips
before glass breaks there are lightning-like rips
there was nothing for me to be angry at
colorful versace ad covering a church
no i wasn’t perched i was neatly sat
for the first time i'd believed that i'd done something good
i want to say a witty joke
but im afraid to be rude
militantly listening in our self-aware age
never wear a hat at center stage
something i’ve learned behind the scenes
watching people act figuring out what it means
i'm a raging feminist
nici de saint-phalle
from that trip i still have selfies
this one i took at pigalle
i show it to you and you smile in exchange
militantly listening in your self-aware age
i tell you all i’ve learned as if i’d known you’d come
you took out your curious and gave me some
no
you gave me one
another line from a pencil biter
a parliament blue and a little bic lighter
it falls through a canalization grill slit
i try to follow the ground sound to hear it hit
we have one lit one for a glowing exchange
militantly silent in my self-aware age
Jan 6, 2025
Jan 6, 2025 at 5:15 PM UTC